Philippians 4:13 --- I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. 
The road to success is not straight
There is a curve called Failure.  A loop called Confusion
Speed bumps called Friends.  Red lights called Enemies
Caution lights called Family.  You will have flats called Jobs 
But, if you have a spare called Determination.  An engine called Perseverance.  Insurance called Faith. 
A driver called Jesus...
You will make it to a place called Success!

 

Weight Chart

My Weight Chart:

My story:

As with alot of other profiles I have read I too have had a weight problem my whole life.  I never remember being "thin" or even a "normal" weight.  I was always the CHUNKY kid.  Even when I took dance classes as a kid I was the girl with the BELLY in my tutu.  It was always so sad.  

I found humor early in life.  I found that if I was loud and funny people would like me.  If I made them laugh with me they tended not to laugh at me....at least to my face.

I lost my mother (who was always my best friend) when I was only 11 and from that point on FOOD became my best friend.  Don't get me wrong, I had friends.  I just always felt more comfortable with food than with people.  When I was around people I always felt like I had to be "ON".  Never letting my guard down for fear of getting hurt.  Besides, the people in my life that I loved always seemed to hurt me.  (Parents divorced when I was 2 - my father did not stay active in my childhood, my step father was physically and verbally abusive, and my mother got sick and died).  I was afraid to open myself up to people, but food and I became best friends.  Eating was a real "high" for me.  It made me feel good.  It comforted me when people could not.

As I grew up my love affair with food changed.  Slowly I no longer had that "warm fuzzy" feeling from food.  Those feelings were replaced with anger, guilt, disappointment and regret.  But at this point I was powerless to my addiction.  Although I knew that food had betrayed me I could not turn my back on it. 

When I graduated high school I weighed 167lbs.  By the time I got married at 32 I weighed 242 lbs, and now over a year since the birth of my second son I weigh ~ 312lbs.  I am tired of losing to food.  I hold 3 college degrees.  I know how and what I need to eat.  I just need help in doing it.  It has taken a lot of soul searching for me to reach the decision to have weight loss surgery.  All my life I have put others first.  It is time I did something for me.

I am looking forward to being a loser for the first time in my life.  I have much still to offer in my life time and I plan to take charge of my life and live every day to the fullest.

Here I come world, watch me emerge!

 


About Me
Allen, TX
Location
35.0
BMI
RNY
Surgery
12/17/2007
Surgery Date
Feb 24, 2007
Member Since

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