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I just realized that I'm not losing weight anymore I'm actually gaining. This has been a frustrating journey where I will gain and lose the same pounds over and over. It seems like I have such a long way to go yet. I was hoping that I would not have the skin issues that plague so many but my arms and breasts are really bad. I feel like even if I make my goal weight I will still not look good. When will I ever be happy with myself I wonder. I've lost a great deal of hair as well and that was my best feature. I am grateful for the surgery because so many will never have this chance but sometimes I wonder why I didn't try harder to lose weight without surgery. My doctor told me that I will have to exercise if I want to lose weight now. Realistically I know that I will never do that. If I had the time or energy to exercise I would not have needed surgery in the first place.

I didn't realize it had been so long since I posted anything. The weight loss has been slow since my surgery on May 13th. I've lost a total of 43 pounds which sounds good until I realize that almost 20 of that was lost in the first week. I thought some of my pains would be better by now but that is not happening either. I'm having terrible pains in my upper back and tailbone areas. The upper back issues are probably bra related since those girls are refusing to go away like I had hoped. The tailbone I have no clue why that's hurting as it never did when I was thin. I'm having issues with sagging skin all ready which is disappointing. I don't want to have plastics if I can help it. I'm afraid to have any more surgeries after my experience this time around. It's kind of strange how things have been since having this surgery. I was prepared to wake up from surgery and have problems with getting fluids in right away and eating and it never happened. I woke up in the hospital and took a big drink of water before I could think about it - nothing happened. I've only thrown up twice. I can't eat or drink like I used to but it's not near the restriction I thought it would be. I can eat a large chili from Wendy's in a half hour with no problems. The only thing that has changed drastically is the amount of fluids I drink. I can only get in one slimfast and two bottles of water a day. I'm at less than 1000 cals a day and around 60 to 70 grams of protein.

My insurance company approved my surgery two days after they got the paperwork. I just can't believe that this is actually going to happen. I guess the next step is to meet with the surgeon and set a date. I'm excited but scared at the same time.

I spoke to my insurance coordinator today and they are getting ready to submit my stuff for insurance approval. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I will be approved. I'm a nervous wreck right now and just want to get on with surgery all ready!

So I went to my doctor today to see about getting my letter of medical necessity written and I mentioned that I've been having chest pains. No big deal I think since I've had anxiety issues and pains for years. Now all of the sudden I have to have a stress test done. I have two more Nut visits before submission to insurance and now this. Hopefully everything will be all right.

Well I spoke to the insurance coordinator and she doesn't have my test results from stuff I did  two months ago! She also said that she needed medical records for certain years. I told her that I gave her copies of my complete record for the past ten years and that was all I had. Driving me nuts since I've given them everything they need in record time and they are holding up the process. I spoke to my insurance company and they said that I was not required to do a supervised weight loss program. When I told the insurance coordinator she said she would have to call them but I needed to do it before she would submit my paperwork for approval. Why would I want to spend six months waiting for surgery to do something that is not an insurance requirement? I do not want to go through another summer feeling like crap - especially when I could get a loan tomorrow and be in Mexico in no time. I don't know what to do!

Well as of today all of my testing is complete. I called the surgeons office to set up my internist appointment which is the final step before submission to insurance. I'm waiting to hear back from them of course. I wish this whole process were faster since my patience is wearing thin! I hate the hour long drives to the doctors so hopefully insurance approves me and this was not all a waste of time. I'm so ready to be thin again!

Well I went for my psych consult this week and I'm pretty nervous now. Everything was fine until this shrink noticed that I'm on Abilify. Now he seemed to have a real problem with my PCP putting me on this and was really playing twenty questions about it. I'm not a doctor - I just do what I am supposed to. I told the shrink that I have issues with depression and anxiety and had tried countless other meds and this is what my doctor chose to try me on. I don't care that it's used to treat bi-polar because I know I'm not bi-polar. It just makes me mad that someone who doesn't know me could possibly mess up my surgery with his crummy opinions about a med that I've been on for a whole two months! As for the rest of the testing we all know we have issues and I'm perfectly aware of what mine are. I thought this was supposed to be to see if we could understand the risks etc of the procedure and he never even discussed the surgery at all.

Well a lot has happened since my last post. I met with the surgeons office, had a bunch of tests done & met with the nutritionist. I am having my sleep study done this week and then that just leaves my pulmonary function test. After all this I can submit to insurance and hopefully get approved. The process is going fast and I hope I can get approved right away.

Called the doctor and spoke to his assistant. I can self pay a consult appointment until things get straightened out with my insurance, so I think I will. Talked to my HR representative at work and she said that they did not get obesity coverage but she has worked with corporate to get two other people surgery anyway in the past. She told me she would help me in any way she could. Real wonderful lady! Calling doctor back in the morning.