Almost 8 weeks later.......

Jun 16, 2011

44 lbs are gone...forever!   What a journey the last 2 months have been though.  Up and down...regret and happiness...I think it would be safe to say that my family thought I wouldn't survive the first 4-5 weeks.  Or maybe they thought they wouldn't survive it.  Anyway, we all did.  The last few weeks have been GREAT!  I feel really good.  I am finally getting the hang of this "job" and I say that because it is.  Calories, carbs, sugar, vitamins, protein, etc...it's enough to wear a girl out. 

Last year, I cleaned out my closet.  I had made up my mind that I was just going to be large the rest of my life and I was going to have to just cope with it.  My band had failed me and I wasn't willing to do anything drastic again.  Boy am I glad that my mindset changed!  When I cleaned out the closet, I gave all the clothes that I couldn't wear to my mom.  Thought maybe she could wear them.  Last night, she returned the favor.  She returned everyone of them.  I have never been so excited to see those smaller sizes.  AND THEY FIT! 

I am 1 lb away from being in the 220 range.  Goodbye to 70, 60, 50, 40, 30...now the 220's.  I hope that happens by in the morning.  Impatient would not even begin to describe the OCD I have with that dang scale.  I'm joining a gym today and I never thought that would happen EVER.  Nervous and excited though. 

Well, that's enough rambling for today.
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It's Almost Time!

Apr 21, 2011

Sitting here at my desk on my last day of work before my surgery, I have found myself being completely out of control with my thoughts, anxious feelings, and fear of what is to come...both the good and the bad.  The surgery. The recovery. The joy of watching the scale go down.  The unknown of what is to come in the next 2 weeks.  Fighting back tears is an understatement. 

I want this for me more than anything.  I want my daughter to grow up with a mother that is healthy.  She is 10 and watching her now breaks my heart.  When she squeezes her tummy and says I'm fat or when she weighs herself in the bathroom and then complains about what it says...I'm setting her up to be exactly like me.  I tell her everyday how beautiful she is and that it's just a number.  Boy, wish I believed that but I don't and I know it's not.  That number dictates how I feel about myself.  It should not but it does.  I want to be a healthy person and feel good in my skin as well as my clothes.  Does that make me selfish?  Maybe but maybe it's time I was for once.  I give so much to my kids...now it's my turn.

The surgery will be tough and recovery will probably be painful and exhausting but IT WILL BE WORTH IT.  I will be a new me, a new mom, and a new wife.  Now if someone could just tell my nerves all of this.  I won't post anymore before Monday but the next time I'm here, I will be a great big LOSER!
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Starting Over!

Mar 31, 2011

I am having revision from band to bypass on April 25th.  Can not wait.  Time to start over and regroup!
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50 LBS!

Jan 20, 2008

50 lbs gone forever as of this morning!  I'm so excited. I never in a million years thought it would happen...I wanted it too but never thought I would ever do it.  I LOVE MY BAND!  Although my doctor won't give me a fill, I'm vowing to keep pushing on one way or another!  WOOOHOOO....Onderland here I come.

Surgery Over, Holidays Over, New Day, New Year!

Jan 02, 2008

Finally had my gall bladder surgery...Boy do I feel better!  Bad part is that I was stuck at home pretty much on the couch during the holidays so I gained weight.  Without fail, everyone has been so supportive here.  Today is a new day and I will move on! 

230's....WOW!!!

Dec 12, 2007

This week I officially got into the 230's no thanks to a terrible gall bladder problem, but I'll take it!  It has been so long since I've been at this weight...can't even remember how long.  I'm so excited.  It's been almost 3 full months since my surgery and almost down 50 lbs.  I LOVE MY BAND!


Hello 240's!

Oct 31, 2007

I'm so excited!   I haven't seen the 240's in almost 7 years.  It was right after my daughter was born and I actually weighed less than I did when I found out I was pregnant.  Horrible pregnancy...very sick all the time.  Anyway, this time I'm doing it healthy!  I LOVE MY BAND.  I had my first bad experience on Sunday night, but it didn't last long.  Very painful though so I'll remember to pay attention when I'm drinking cold water.  Go for my first fill tomorrow.  Hope it's painless and it gives me tons of restriction!

I love my band!

Oct 24, 2007

5 weeks and 2 days out from surgery, down 2 pants sizes..from 26 to 22, and minus 28.3 lbs. for the rest of my life!  I have one more week to go before my first fill.  Can hardly wait !  I feel great!

POST OP..FINALLY!

Sep 23, 2007

I'm one week out from surgery.  Surgery went pretty well except for a little case of vomiting from all the medicine.  I'm finally starting to feel like myself again.  Down 16.2 lbs....trying not to get too excited as I know this will start tapering off.  Anyway, I'm on my way to a healthier and hopefully skinnier version of ME!

18 more days!!!

Aug 30, 2007

SO EXCITED I CAN HARDLY BE STILL!!!  Only 18 more days until surgery.  I had my EGD on Monday and the doctor found a small hiatal hernia but he didn't say if he would fix that during my surgery or not??  My dietician class is complete...overwhelming but complete!  I'm pre-registered at the hospital.  Now all that is left is my last visit pre-op with Dr. Cummins on the 13th!  YIPPEEE!!!

About Me
Lake, MS
Location
41.7
BMI
RNY
Surgery
04/25/2011
Surgery Date
Jul 11, 2007
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