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It really has been a awhile since I actually sat down and updated my profile I keep saying that every month I;am going to make it my buisness to that. but I just can't seem to fine the time these days...I know I know poor excuse people but I'am going to really try. Well it has been 1year and 5months to the date of my surgery I'am wearing a size 12 now CAN U BELIEVE IT,I know neither can I. going from a size 24/26 in jeans to a nice slim 11/12 it's makes me smile everyday. I acutally can fit junior  sizes in clothles,ya knwow I like to stay with the latest fashion and hippy things..I standing firm at 195 lbs. and honestly I dont want to loose anymore weight I'am happy where I'am at. so I'am wishing that if I'am going to stall it would be soon.I just honestly think some poeple weren't made to ever be a size 0 or size2 to me I would of been content at a size 14 to be honest.I try to still take all of my vitamins everyday, I on occasion has some issue with my Viamin b12 drops a little low,but they said living in uosate New York it's from the lack of sunshine we barely get here other than that Vitamin D also drops low but nothing I cant pray about and GOD wont fix.So just was dropping a few lines I'am gonna pst some new pics as well youcan also find me on Facebook.com....SMOOCHES

well my OH family I'am 8 months out from surgey already 101lbs gone for good, and everyday is a new adventure and a new begining. I actually look forward to going shopping and taking in the smallest things that I can do now. I even brought my first pair of Old Navy jeans (size 16) of course since I have been out middle school It was funny cause I.am used to going in stores and picking up the biggest sizes they carry and hope that they fit, well I grabed the  size 22!!! they fell right off  so I worked my way to the18 nope again WAY TO BIG... now I 'am in the dressing room smiling so hard it hurted and for the first time and years able to tell the dressing room attendent I needed a SMALLER SIZE.. and there I was size 16 fitting me perfect and look awesome on me. The only issue I'am having medically is my Vitamin B1 was critically low and I have to take some supplements for that now but hey the money that I spend on Vitamins these days are way less then I used to spend on take out and going to resturants and would not change it for the world...

Well RNY'S it's been about 5 1/2 months since my surgery and I'am now and then  still feeling great, I have no major issues thank god and still losing alot of weight I do have my platues every net me now and then dont get me wrong, but honestly this journey has been  one hellva ride..My life is much more happy, sex is 10x better, and I would not  change it for the world..

Well I cant belive it everyone it has been 3 months already since my surgey. Today was my follow -up apt with my surgeon and he seems to think everything is in going in my favor! He said that my weight lost is very good I started at 354lbs. the day of surgery and today am 291 lbs.I wake up somre days and still cant belive it!! he said he only thought that I would lose about 115-125 lbs. after surgey when everything has been said and done but I'am well over half that already and it just has been 3 months. And to think I thought I was at a platue there for a minute. He asked me was still counting calories I said yes he said 1000 calories a day right ? 1000 for some reason I thought he told me 1500 calories he said NO NO , BOY was I was wrong. but hey I dont eat much anyways I probably dont get the  1000 calories on some days as it is. Well to think back from the hard rough struggle I came through it really feels wonderful to be on the loser bench this go round I would do it all over again in a heart beat!!! Also today I willpost some new pictures up so everyone can see my changes...

WELL HELLO 
I HAVE TO SAY THIS JOURNEY IS HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS I REALLY HONESTLY CANT WAIT UNTIL I CAN REALLY APPRECIATE THIS STOMA. AT THIS POINT I'AM AT 318. WICH I'AM DOWN 36LBS. I'VE NOTICED SOME DAYS I GAIN 3 LBS THEN  I LOSE 4LBS. SO I DONT KNOW WHAT'S THAT ALL ABOUT. AT THIS POINT I'AM STILL ON THE SOFT/PUREE DIET. I HAVE BEEN EATING WELL UNTIL 3 DAYS AGO I'AM UNABLE TO EAT ANYTHING BESIDES WATERMELON.... GO FIGURE. I SWEAR I TRIED CHICKEN EVEN MY CLAM CHOWDER SOUP DOESNT SIT WELL WITH MY NEW TUMMY.I HOPE EVERYTHING IS OK I'AM GOING TO BE SURE TO CONTACT DR.IANNOLI OFFICE TOMMORROW TO SEE WHAT THEY HECK THE SAY.I SWEAR I 'AM JUST LOOKING FOR THE DAY WHERE I FEEL 100% BETTER AND BACK TO MYSELF.I GUESS AND PRAY IN DUE TIME THIS SHALL ALL COME TO PASS.

yes people I swear one week out and I'am down already 20lbs. I was 354lbs the day of surgey today I weighed myself I was 334 exactly WOWmaybe this thing aint so bad after all.

Well hello to all my friends I miss ya so much I could not wait until I was finally able to climb the stairs to my room in the attic so that I can get online and tell ya how everything went.Well last wed. was my surgery date Jan23rd. my op time was 10:30am I had to be there at 8:30am that morning I had my #1 support person with my lovely mom, my favorite cousin Tina and my 2 best friends Tasha, and Tawanna everyone was right there with me until they rolled my back. i was trying hard to hold back tears and when the anestelogist came in to check my mouth feel my throat blah,blah I was fired up and ready. I told him to just be careful with me and make sure what ever you do please please wake me up cause I'am at your mercy. he laugh and told me to relax and he had a cocktail for me!(WHAT COCKTAIL OH YA TRYING TO PARTY) LOL naw but after I did my famous color purple recite to my family(me and you must never part my kee da dada) I was already. and shoot what ever he put in that IV I swear I did not even make it to the damn OR I was out
Next thing I knew ya I was waking in up recovery barely able to keep my eyes open and  from all that tape they had on it and all I know in all honestly my whole middle section felt like a MAC truck had  run over me 100x. I heard them nurses say hey shes awake and her room is ready at that time I had no idea what time it was or nothing it felt llike I had just went to sleep I told the doctor what ever that mess is they ought to bottle it forget all those other non working sleeping pills that stuff brings any body to there knees.
So I made it up to my room and to my surprise everyone including a few more people had arrived in my room but boy let me tell you when they asked me to walk over and get in the bed off from the stretcher I swear it felt like my  everything was able to rip open that was the most painful time I had and of course getting in the bed.
Well I stayed in the hospital for 4 days I kept getting a slight fever at night and that went on for two days then my magnesium was a little low nothing to worry about they say It usually happens so Saturday I arrived home around 4pm. and people listen up and LISTEN GOOD WHAT EVER YOU DO TAKE THE PILLOW THEY GIVE TO HOLD YOUR STOMACH, CAUSE YOU WILL NEED IT FOR THE RIDE HOME!! I'am telling you that was a tortures ride coming home,,but hey I made it.

As of today being 7 days post-op I must say this was the first real good day I had with out all the nausea and the pains, but Sunday MY LORD was a diiferent story , I think I cried all day sunday just cause I was not feeling well I started questioning was this the right thing I did , or was this just a big mistake. I swear the weirdest thing that happen so far to my abilty to smell everything , and miost of the time when my mom is cooking supper I have to just go in the room and close the door or else i feel like Monday was okay tuesday was another bad day but like I said today was the best of them all I hope all the other stuff is in the past and it stays like this and just get better everyday going forward. I still have my one JP drain in i get that out on monday so pray for me ya keep me in ya blessing and I will do the same. will right again soon when I can get back up these attic stairs.

Tis the night before surgery and all through my house not a chicken wing was frying not even piece. The suitcase is pack, the fat food is no longer in hopes that the LBS. would fade away and wonder.LOL I crack myself up well here we are people the night before the BIG DAY. I  swear there are a million and one things running through my mind today. Every since I woke up this am I had to start the stupid ALL CLEAR LIQUIDS DIET TODAY I HATE IT I swear it has only been about 12 hours but this thing is for the birds!! well on the bright side I heard some people have to start clear liquids 1 week some time 1 month before surgery so I better consider myself damn lucky that I have to suffer through this only for today, after tomorrow I probably wont even have the appetitate to eat anything  anyways, and at least I will feel full..Well wish me the best of luck I promise to log back on as soon as I'am able to and tell my "day of surgery story"...

well well okay today I'am really getting nervouse about the whole thing I know it's all normal but I just can't help it. Today I'am just gonna sit around and relax clean my room up and pack my suitcase that way tomorrow those are just two less things on my plate to do.I feel like I have to keep moving so my anxiety level remains in check if not I will be a big mess come Wendesday. But hey as long as I have GOD ON MY SIDE, I know I will be good.

Well it's getting down to the wire now, 8 days is just going to go by so fast I cant believe that I'am almost there. This weekend is my last week before surgey so my girlfriends are going to live it up this weekend get my last DRANKY,DRANKY IN. PARTY LIKE A ROCK STAR, AND EAT ALL MY FAVORITE foods that I know I'am going to miss so much.Sunday my mom is planning what they call "MY LAST SUPPER", so I cant wait for that cause as of Tuesday I have to be on all clear liquids so I'am going to get it in this whole weekend.