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Co-morbities Blues......

Apr 09, 2007

I am so glad that in appx. 3 days, i will be maxin n laxin in FLORIDA fun in the sun.  However, once again this surgery thing has managed to get me down.  I am listening to everyones story and things and it sounds like they had such a hard road to surgery.  There's always someone who got denied.  Everywhere you turn around.  Am i next??  I mean why should I have to have co-morbities out the wazzoo in order for an insurance company to even consider me. Why wait until the crack headn is almost dead until you get him help.  I'll tell you why I want the surgery.  I want it because i want to be HEALTHY.  Not because i am on my death bed with co-morbities.  Its just not right i tell ya not right.  But i wont let that damper my mood.  VIVA LOS FLORIDA!!!

Happy Easter Everyone!!!!

Apr 08, 2007

!!!!!!!!HAPPY EASTER TO EVERYONE WHO VISITS MY PAGE!!!!!!!!!



     

FUn In ThE sUN!!!!!!!!!!!

Apr 07, 2007

Ok so like, im doing ok.  This weight gain is killin me though.  Who gives a shit though, in apprx. 5 days i will be havin fun in the sun in florida.  YEAH WHOOP WHOOP.  I am so excited.  I love to go to different places.  I can be myself because no one knows me there.  And who gives a flyin F*** if they pass judgement.  I wont be seeing those ppl another day in my natural life.  Any way I am just so excited.  I think a trip is what I really need to take my mind off all the stresses of everyday life.. Oh and my outfits that I am taking .....OH MY GOSHHHHHH i am going to look outrageous OOOKKKAAAYYYY!!!! WHHOOOOOO i am soo exicted.  And my consultation with the surgeon is JUNE 4th.  I no its kind of a long time but at least I have it.  I feel so good about the outcome of this whole thing.  Everytime I ask God about it, I always am just overcome with this crazy sense of joy.  I start smiling and i get really excited and happy.   I hope that is God's way of telling me that this is really going to happen and that I will finally be able to live my life the way I want to.  I am just really excited about everthing.  GODDD BLLLEEESSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STUPID!!! !#@%$$!$!^$@*%@$$#!#

Mar 20, 2007

Ok, so I got the sleep test done.  Im not sure if it will really show that I have anything because, I DIDNT SLEEP.  How the heck are you supposed to sleep with all those apparatices on you.  That is insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Out of the whole night I probably got an total of 40 min sleep.  I hope that is enuff for them to see what they have to see.  Boy that was some experience.  And on top of that, I saw that the hospital called me back, Im not sure in regards to what but they called me back, however, I cant retrieve the stupid messages from off the phone because my stupid boyfriend who set up the stupid service, forgot the stupid code to check the stupid messages.  UUUGGGGGHHHH I hate his STUPID ASS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UUUUUGGHGHHHHH!!!!!!!!

UGGHHHH ANGRY ME!!!

Mar 16, 2007

FLUBBER BUSTERS I AM SO ANGRY.  So I had to cancel the sleep test in which I was so happy about because it is doing some sort of weird icy snow rain thing outside and Im not driving in that.  I would actually like to live long enough to get the surgery.  I just wish this whol process could be expedited .........................ugghhh.  I rescheduled for Sunday so we'll see..............uugggghhhh!!!!!!

The Ball is Rollin'

Mar 16, 2007

I battled a long time with the decision of surgery and I just prayed about it and I have decided to go through with it.  YYEEEEAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I feel there was alot of confusion before and the lord sensed that and prevented me from getting the surgery because I would have been making a big mistake because I wouldnt have been doing it for myself.  I would have been doing it for LITERALLY all the wrong reasons.  Now that that my head is in the right place everything seems to be just falling in place.  I talked to my PCP and she recommended Dr. Schweitzer and Dr. Gandas.  I checked them both out and I just liked the way Dr. Schweitzer seemed to conduct things....And I havent even met him, so I guess that says alot.  So apprx. 2 day ago I called the office and they told me what to do, so as soooonnn as i got off of the phone, I emailed him.  I was so excited.  I emailed him again this morning and he got back to me!!!!! SUCCESS!!!!! he said that his secretary is going to be getting back to me shortly.  So i figure, I will give her 2 days before I start harassing her LOL.  So now im just waiting to hear from her.  I have my sleep test tonight at 8:45 so i hope that goes well.  I got my blood work done yesterday.  So the ball is justa rollin' which im happy about.

Welcome Back..........

Mar 12, 2007

So, Its been a couple of months.  I have done alot of soul searching and have asked God alot of questions about the surgeory.  So the verdict........ I have decided to go through with it.  I asked my PCP just today does she think I would be a candidate for one of the surgeory, and she said yes, and she will support me and write any letters that I need.  As soon as she said that, I got all the information that I needed from her as to where to start and what numbers to call.  

I have made my sleep test for this Friday, and I have called the bariatric surgeon to set up a consoltation.  I cannot believe that I am actually taking all the steps to ACTUALLY have this done.  Like, it is no longer a dream, I am really going through with this.  It is kind of scary, but I still have my man by my side.  (all 170 lbs. of him lol)

Well Friday is the day it is exciting and scary all at the same time........................wish me luck..........its really happening 

AHHHHHHHHH...................................

Lost Doctor

Nov 16, 2006

November 17th, 2006 

Okay so I have this new doctor that I saw about an ear infection a couple of weeks ago, and I cant figure out her name. I lost the # and I cant find seem to locater. I've called all over, trying to find my former co-worker, who i found out now works at her office, but have had no luck. If i can find her this will be the first appt. where i bring up the surgery. At this appt I will be getting a full physical and hopefully this will get the ball rolling. Wish me luck!!!!!!!!

My 1st Blog

Nov 16, 2006

November 16th, 2006

So this is my first Blog and I have decided to embark on this surgery journey.  I am going to need the help and support of people who know most about the process the, thus i've come here.  

This is not to say that my 6'3" 183 lbs boyfriend cant provide me with all the moral support i need i just need support from thouse who have and are going throught the struggle..........so here i am...........

So basically I am in the VERY beginging stages of this surgery thing. The step of making the decision that this is the right option and decided to act on it. My only question now is WHAT NEXT??????????????

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Co-morbities Blues......
Happy Easter Everyone!!!!
FUn In ThE sUN!!!!!!!!!!!
STUPID!!! !#@%$$!$!^$@*%@$$#!#
UGGHHHH ANGRY ME!!!
The Ball is Rollin'
Welcome Back..........
Lost Doctor
My 1st Blog
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