torethia
Scared to Write
Aug 12, 2008
I have to be honest, I've been afraid to face the music. Lots of folk say that once you've had the surgery and all the pain is gone. And you go back, you start to lose focus.
I LOST FOCUS. I'm so afraid to weigh myself because I get caught up in the Diet thing.
I'm getting married 10/18/08 and all eyes will be on me...And I STILL DON'T FEEL BEAUTIFUL.
Wondering if people are gonna say she should've lost more weight than that....
Why do we worry about what others say and think about us. This was part of the reason why I had the surgery. Let's just be honest, we are not comfortable being around people because we are obese.
But that's not the only reason why I HAD THE SURGERY. I HAD alot of medical issues and I WANTED to be healthier, I wanted to feel beautiful in my own skin.
My reason for typing today, is simple. I just needed to see the problem on paper. I need to tell myself to stay focus and don't give up because of a couple of hold-ups.
IMAGINE IF I WOULD'VE GIVEN UP SO EASILY IN THE BEGINNING, I WOULDN'T EVER FOUND THIS SITE AND FOUND MYSELF AGAIN....
These are just my opinions, on my page, of my life.
thanks for reading
tmj-hill (as of 10-18-08)
