traceyls57
up and down up and down up and down, to fill or to full????
May 07, 2009
OK I am in a mood tonight, lets see where do I start, oh yeah, had a doctors appt. and my blood pressure is still up a little, and my cholesterol is up a little, so he is changing my med on that. That is so frustrating cause iam almost 60 pds down, and i have to go back on the meds, I guess your genes do play a role in it, but I thought I would be good when i lost the weight. The other thing is that the scale is stuck again, and I am pissed, not eating that much at all, I am suppose to have a fill on the 13th, but shoot I can't even eat any solid protein without getting stuck, and that's with small bites and chewing until my jaw is sore. So, I just have been having honey nut cheerios for dinner, hell I couldn't even finish a pintos cheese for lunch today. I just don't get it. I will call Tuesday if I am still having this problem and cancel that appt. too. I am really in a pissy mood, coming back from the casino, my van started having problems so have to take it in in the a.m. which means I have to take dh to work. He is pissed cause I went to the casino today, I don't get it, I don't spend much money, and most time I either come home with the same or more than what I left with. It's just a nice get away for a couple of hours, and good conversation with a friend on the way up there and back. So yeah, there is the stress he is constantly giving me that I just don't need now. Lindsey is still seeing the same guy, sorry but I just don't care for him. I am upset that she has decided not to have the band surgery, and she was already approved. I know she will regret it and wished he had done it, but you can't tell her anything. I need to start exercising, I know if I were the scale would start moving, but I just don't have the energy to do it right now. I know I want to lose at Least 20 pounds before my 1 year anniv. and if I don't I will be really disappointed, but it is all up to me. OK, I feel a little better after venting here. I need to fill out my mothers day cards so I can put them in the mail tomorrow so they get there on Saturday. I have alot to do the next couple of days, so I won't be on here for a while again. 228 at the doctors office today, will see if I can get that in the 210 before the end of the month, lets see how that goal works out for me.
