What my sister did to me

Dec 29, 2009

I was just reading a profile about some things that happen to a woman on here in school that humiliated her and let her know how society thinks of fat people.  I thought back over my own life and beleive it or not the most hurtful things ever said to me were from my own skinny half sister.  When I look back over my life these things dont really pop out as big events to me but as I read other peoples experiences I have to think that maybe it affected me more than I realize.  I have never been close to her and really dont like her at all and maybe just maybe lol these are the reasons why...

when I was like 8 years old and said I wanted to be a balarina she said I was too fat and I cried when asked by my Mother why I was cryinig I said because at the time I had a case of the mumps so I told her because I was hurting.  I guess I learned in that moment to hide my feelings of shame and hurt and never share them again.

a few years later this same sister told me if I lost weight she would take me on a cruise,  this told me that I was unworthy of being on a cruise with her.  My parents had already taken me on several cruises without this weight restriction  lol.  This showed me I was unacceptable to her.

then I asked her why a family friend had decided to lose weight and her response was "I guess he dont want to be a fat slob anymore"  and I didnt say another word about it,  I was still young and impressionable.

This sister believes in the motto  " You can never be too thin or rich" and she has dedicated her life to both.  She chose not to have children I was told because it would mess up her figure and I think selfishness.  We have totally different lives and I wouldnt trade places with her if you paid me. 

Maybe in her head she said these things to help me but as we all know it didnt.  Nothiing she could of said would of change was was meant to be. 

Really... in the end...it didnt hurt me....it really hurt her....she is shallow....and lonely....and without....a sister....me

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