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Had my one year appointment couple weeks ago. Dr was amazed by the difference. I lost 150lbs by that appointment and am now at around 160-65 lost total! I am wearing 12-14 jeans and a large shirt. All I can say is WOW!! I am finally getting more used to be smaller. I still fold my clothes and think they are my daughters. and how will that ever fit me! But yes we are the same size except all my boobs are gone :(  Hate that. She will be 17 in a few weeks, I don't even think I was this small when I was 17. 

Was put on a bunch of vitamins for low deficencys. I just can't get into the routine of taking them everyday. I do good for a week then I forget. I am now also doing a B12 shot every month. that helps with my energy! Can tell a difference already.  Still want to get below 165. That will be half of me gone!! And I want my BMI to be at or below 25. So just working little at a time. Things have slowed way down but still losing a few lbs a month. I can deal with that. Like I said in the beginning I just wanna be healthy not a stick!

The skin is starting to bug me and will be looking into what I can do about that. Dr says that would be another 25lbs easy and would put me at my ideal weight for my height.  

I am loving and hating shopping for clothes. Love the shopping part just don't like to try things on and its hard to adapt to todays styles. Seems like everytime I finally break down and buy new clothes I am out of them in a couple of weeks and need different ones again. Still wearing some of the bigger stuff for work and around the house. I just don't like to spend lots of money on things then have to do it again so I put it off. People always say wow when they see me in non work clothes and things that fit me. None of us really realize how small I actually am.

Still getting some good support. My kids and husband and his family are great. Sometimes overkill but they mean well. My son calls me Paris Hilton cause I don't eat alot. It's funny. Wish my family would be more supportive but they just don't know how to be I guess. Mom just doesn't know how to give a compliment! Drives me nuts. Why can't she just say I am proud of you and you look great?!

Anyways,,, I don't try to dwell on the negative and keep being positive. Had a great Christmas and New Years! Happy Anniversery to my wonderful husband Corey! I love you very much and thank you for everything.

Thanks to the good Lord above for keeping me healthy and getting me thru this. I wouldn't change a thing. Dr. says this year will be the hard one. Gotta work on not gaining anything back. Please help and guide me thru this next year and help  me keep to my goals. Keep everyone safe, healthy, and happy in the new year. AMEN :)

Been awhile but so much is going on.  My weight loss has slowed down considerably! Some weeks I am stalled and I wonder if I am done losing only to finally lose a couple of lbs again. I see saw back and forth alot to. Usually very within 5 lbs. Thats ok tho, keeps me accountable. I know if I see a lb or 2 come back I need to step up my activity more or watch what I eat alittle better.

The drs goal was 220 mine was 200(to start with). It took me awhile but I finally hit below 200. It was like God was teasing me for about 2 weeks! So close hahaha! But I made it to 197lbs. Can't believe it!! Haven't been under 210 since right after high school probably. I have went from a 26/28 pant and a 4x shirt to a 16/18 pant and a 1x shirt!! I am almost caught up with my 16 yr old. She is in a 11/12 and I keep telling her watch out I'll be borrowing clothes from you soon! I have already taken some of her bigger clothes.

Its been quite a summer. I have gotten a job in a carry out/gas station. Not the kind of work I wanna do forever but not much available in our area. I like it tho and it keeps me busy as well as works around my schedule for babysitting and school stuff. I've made several new friends and my husband and I are doing more out and about with them. My husband and I are also getting along much better! I thought this might be our downfall but it has brought us closer together, I think anyway.

We went to Cedar Point yesterday! It is an amusement park with some of the best coasters in the world there. The last time I was there (3 yrs ago) I couldn't ride anything cause I was to big.  This time had no problems!! I kept checking the tester seat at the beginning of the rides. Just couldn't believe it!! Had a blast:) Never hurt from walking all day either...

My new goal right now is 180. I am trying to be realistic as well as push myself alittle at a time. Thinking about 5 lbs a month till the end of the yr. I can do it!! The skin is starting to bug me tho. My legs are super saggy! I am really self conscious about it. If I can't get it fixed I'll be not wearing shorts because of that instead of being to fat!! Will start looking into removal eventually. Can't afford it right now and insurance doesn't cover it.  I want my boobs back too lol. One bad note is I started smoking again. Scares me but its hard to stop! Any suggestions?

I am still soooo thankfull I had my surgery and would do it all over again in a heart beat! Even with the problems I had in the beginning.  Thank you God for everything you have given me and my family. We are so blessed!!

Hope everyone else is having a great summer and a great journey!!
God Bless,
Tracy

Finally reached that 6 month mark back on the 22nd! It has really went by fast. Things are getting easier. I am scared that I will go back to old habits now that I can "eat" again. Had my Dr. appt. he says I am doing great and that I did hit my 100 lbs. lost. Woooo Hoooo:) I can't believe it. It has really been a struggle the past few months! He also said that by percentages my weightloss will stop if I don't really get active. This has been hard for me cause I am already so much more active than I was but I hate exercise! I need to find a good DvD to do. Any suggestions?
 
I am still motivated. I am not ready to be done losing yet. I would like another 50 gone by the end of the next 6 months. Is this realistic? I don't know but I think I can do it. I would be happy there except for the loose skin. That already bothers me! The bat wings under my arms are horrible. But I am still wearing tanks again and shorts! I haven't done that in years.

Bought some new clothes and had some given to me. Have went from a 26/28 pants to 18/22 depending on the material. In shirts I have went from a 4/5 X to a 1-2 X. Still have a tendancy to buy big and don't need to as much. I have been this size before but feel more confidant this time around so don't want to hide under bigger clothes.

My wow moment for the month was figuring out that when I started this I was ruffly 75 lbs heavier than my son and now am 25 lbs lower than him and 75 lbs heavier than my daughter. she is 150 wouldn't it be something if I could get to 25 below her!! Would have to have skin removed for that to happen but I just thought it was neat the way that worked out. Still its a goal!

Anyways thats it for now. Hope all is good in your worlds. God bless and keep up the great work:)

Well my news should be so much better since I have missed posting for the last 2 months. But I am at aloss! Been having such a stall and I don't know how to get out of it. I lose some weight only to gain it back and struggle with going back and forth. I am becoming obsessed with the scale and I get so disappointed everytime I step on it!

Don't get me wrong I am proud of were I am at I just want it to be more. Not to mention less of a struggle. I am supposed to lose 20-25 lbs by the end of June. I had 2 months to do it and have only managed to lose 5 so far. I am so close to my 100 lb lost mark and it is evading me and laughing at me. Drives me crazy !!! I know we are supposed to hit plateaus and weight loss will slow down but I am not ready to be done yet. I feel like my tool is done working for me and I don't know how to get  it started again.

I am getting in more protein and taking my vitamins more regularly. Water is no problem. Food still most of the time does not taste good or sound good. I know I am snacking alot or it seems to me I am. I get hungry and I make something and its yuk, so I try something else. In the end I end up eating crackers, cheese and lunch meats. Even lunch meats are getting were I don't like them anymore.

This past 2 weeks we have gotten so much rain. I haven't been able to go on my walks and don't feel much like getting on my bike. This I know I need to improve on!! But I wasn't an exerciser before, it's not so easy to just become one in a few months. I am trying though.

On a high note though... I have dropped from a size 26-28 pants to a 20-22, and a 4x-34/36 shirt down to a 1-2x or a 20-22. This is great!! And it does keep me motivated to do more. Would love to see a 18 top and bottom. I don't want to be a size 2 but would love to see 200lbs  or even back into the 100's. Haven't seen that since I was 21! 45lbs thats I all I have blocking me from reaching this goal. I know I can do it!!

So wish I had someone close to me to work with me and push me. My husband tries but it's to easy to tell him to leave me alone lol. I don't have many gfs close by and no job to give me adult contact. Love my son dearly but a 16 mth old just doesn't give stimulating conversation:) Going to try to go to a support meeting. There is one on May 24.  It is an hour away thats what stops me from going. My husband works 3rd shift and I wouldn't be home intime to be with the kids before he has to leave. We will see. I really need to be there right now. It is nice to know what other people are going through too and that your not alone in the struggle!

Anyway...enough of my crying! I hope you are all doing good, Keep up the great work.
Tracy

I am actually a few days past my 2 month mark but close enough. I had a Dr.s appt  yesterday. It was also a follow up to my Endoscopy on the 12th.

Things are going very well. I have lost a total of 41lbs since surgery plus the 14 before surgery! I know I am behind some other people but having been rehydrated twice hurt. I had to lose that weight before I could lose the real thing again. Dr. Lalor says I am right on track tho and will see me again in 2 months for follow up on my ulcer. He wants me down another 25lbs at least! He keeps me accountable. I don't want to disappoint him or myself.

I have to get working on exercising!! I just have no energy. Must make an effort tho. Trying to get 1/2 hr a day on bike for now and when it warms up plan to start walking. It will be good for me and the baby to both get out of the house more often.

I see a difference, almost out of my current size of clothing. Have been able to get into somethings much more comfortably than before. Can now wear my size in non stretch materials. It's awesome and can't wait to be able to actually wear shorts again in public this summer. Might even make it to the pool some. I do have photos but when I try to download them to the site it says they are to big. I don't know how to resize them. I will figure it out eventually.

Got 2 comments that made wow moments for me. My oldest son (14) told me I was looking good out of the blue one day and Dr. Lalor told me he can tell the difference and that I look younger. I am just amazed he remembers me cause he sees so many patients. He is a great Dr.

Still having problems getting in protein. I just can't stomach the drinks, and the bars seem so sweet. Most food just doesn't interest me. Not tolerating some meats very well. Can do lunch meat tho. Work in progress. Think I am going to try the fruit drinks now. Maybe they won't be so thick. They need to make a protein pill. lol

Anyways...All is good right now in my world. Just gotta work on exercise and protein intake. Thank you to my PCP for my Ativan. I now have some stress relief. Also thank God for giving me some patience and allowing me to have such a wonderful family.

God Bless you all and good luck on your journies:)

I am finally able to eat. Don't know if thats good or not..LOL  Been eating probably to much. Got to the point where all I could keep down was bread or crackers. So weight loss has slowed a little bit. Don't know if I will make it to mine and Dr's goal of 270 lbs by Feb 22. I am at 279 by my scales and 283 by his. So still need 13 lbs to go in 11 days. Best get my butt on my exercise bike!!

Still don't have much energy. Taking my vitamins as I can and getting much more water in now. Will be going in Tomorrow the 12th for another endoscope to see how stricture and ulcer are doing. I think they will be fine. I just still need to learn I can only eat small portions and to slow down!!

Head hunger is still a problem for me. I feel like I am hungry or want to snack alot. But I know my body isn't really hungry. This has been the hardest part for  me to kick. Anyone have any suggestions?!

Can't wait for some nice weather so I can get out there and walk. I hate the cold and stay bottled up in my apt. My one yr old hasn't been sleeping good at night so neither am I and I am always feeling tired, so very little energy to get moving. Bought a couple of books about WLS, hope they will keep me motivated and give me ideas to keep me on track. Really hope I can make it to the support meeting this month but with the snow I doubt it. Wish it wasn't so far away!!

On a good note...even tho I haven't went down a size yet, people are starting to notice I have lost weight. Even my 14 yr old son gave me a compliment this week...WOW I was shocked. I just hope I can keep on losing. I haven't went thru all this for nothing. I am not ready to be done losing yet. Not after only a month and a half. I have a long way I want to go!!

Anyways....Everyone take care, God Bless and keep up the good work:}

What a road so far!! Can't say yet if it is a good one or not. I have had some problems.
At 2 weeks out I could no longer keep anything down. Water was getting difficult let alone the protein shakes. I went to the hospital and had the scope done. I was very dehydrated so they pumped me up full of fluids. (Gained 10lbs grrrrr) When they did the scope they found I had a slight stricture but also had an ulcer. Dr. thinks it is risidual from being a smoker. They dialated me and put me on more meds. I have to take 4 times a day.
Now the schedule with the vitamins is hard enough but now I have the Carafate and can not eat 1 hr before and up to 3 hours after taking it. I am having a very hard time getting it all in, plus my water, food and protein. I am afraid I am going to get dehydrated again.
Still feeling sluggish and very little energy. Takes most I have to take care of my 1 yr old and the rest of the family. Not much left for exercising. Had lost 40lbs but gained the 10 back and am working that back off. At -35 now. Seems slow but with the problems I think I can deal with it. Just hope it continues to be good numbers over time. Dr wants me to have another 25 gone (275) by 2 month check up. Thats only about 15 lbs to go.  Still only feel a little difference in my clothes. I guess when I drop a size it will seem more real.

Hope everyone else is doing great:)
God Bless

Wanted to write sooner but just haven't felt like it till now.
Surgery went great. Nurses were wonderful and very helpful. Would recommend Wood County Hospital and Dr. Lalor to anyone in this area considering WLS.  Felt 110 % better once the drains were taken out. Then was able to come home Christmas day.
 
Had my husband bring the baby home that night. I didn't think he would be effected but boy was I wrong. He is now stuck to me like glue, can't even walk out of the room. Sent him to the babysitters tonight so that we could go see a movie for our wedding anniversery.(Avatar was great!!)  Sitter said he cried alot. When I got there he wouldn't stop giving me kisses. I have already been holding him, probably shouldn't. Doctor Lalor says not to push it, if it hurts don't do it. I learned when I over did it one day not to do it again. I try not to pick him up but am comfortable with him on my lap until he starts squirming. My husband and 2 older kids have been wonderful with helping me. Love them soooo much!!!

Been alittle achy. Still getting a few stomach pains. Can't get more down than an ounce or 2 at one meal. Am tolerating everything well so far. Have intaked to much already, that hurt.  The worst physical part for me is the back and forth from diahrea to constipation. Still haven't figured out how to control that one. One week out and 10lbs gone already:)

The mental part is the hardest I have ever had to deal with. Head hunger is bad. Need to find a way to teach myself new rules of eating. I am sure this is a process and will get better with time. Really want to go to support group but it is only once a month and over an hour away. I will be at the next one for sure. Wish it was more often and closer.

My extended family has really embraced this process for me. They are excited and encouraging all the way. Didn't think it would be that way. Am happy I was wrong. But I have made it perfectly clear, I am not in this to be a size 10 or 120 lbs. I just want to be happy and at a good weight that I am comfortable with. My goal is to make it under 200lbs though. The smaller size will just be a bonus.
 
Dr. Lalor's goal for me is 220 lbs. My goal is 200. Will revise and make new goal once I have met this one. Am trying to keep it realistic and within reach. That way I feel like I am accomplishing something.

Will update later.
God Bless and Happy New Year!!
325/300/200

Wow time sure has flown by. I thought this process would take forever and now here I am on day 4 of the liquid diet. Surgery is scheduled for the 22nd. Can't wait. I'll just be happy to be off this stupid diet. It's not the food I am missing it's the gas and diarhea that is bothering me. I wasn't warned about this! Have pretty much gotten over the hunger feeling and am doing good. Have lost 3lbs so far. Surprises me with as much water I am drinking.

Have been very moody and God Bless my family for putting up with me!! I did quit smoking for this too. So alot to be grumpy about right now... I just keep telling my self it's worth it and I will be happier and healthier.

Wish I had someone to talk with who understood what I was going thru. Family can only understand so much. Please email me if you want to chat. [email protected].

Feel bad about Christmas and me kind of ruining it for everyone this year. This is my baby's 1st Christmas. But next year will be awesome!! I just feel that the baby will be older next yr so it will be a better Christmas. He won't even understand this year. The older kids will be going to their dad's and come home after. Hopefully I will be into celebrating with them. It's been a tuff year and they deserve alot but still am not caught up enough to give them everything I want to give them. Yes, I want to be able to spoil my kids lol! Who doesn't?! 

Will write more later when I have time!

Started my journey today by seeing the Dr. for my first consultation. He recommended this website. I have spent the last 2 hours reading stories and looking at pictures. I'm in tears just thinking in about in a years time the health and energy I can have. I know it will be hard work and I know I will need continued inspiration to get me through this. I believe I can do it, and I believe I will find inspiration here when I need that boost. I thank God for my wonderful husband and 3 children for standing beside me and encouraging me. I can't wait for the baby to be running around and I can chase and play with him.  Anyone who reads this please feel free to talk with me. I won't always be here everyday but I will answer. I would love to especially talk with others from the NW Ohio area.  I pray you all have continued success and good health.