5 mths post op

May 18, 2010

Well my news should be so much better since I have missed posting for the last 2 months. But I am at aloss! Been having such a stall and I don't know how to get out of it. I lose some weight only to gain it back and struggle with going back and forth. I am becoming obsessed with the scale and I get so disappointed everytime I step on it!

Don't get me wrong I am proud of were I am at I just want it to be more. Not to mention less of a struggle. I am supposed to lose 20-25 lbs by the end of June. I had 2 months to do it and have only managed to lose 5 so far. I am so close to my 100 lb lost mark and it is evading me and laughing at me. Drives me crazy !!! I know we are supposed to hit plateaus and weight loss will slow down but I am not ready to be done yet. I feel like my tool is done working for me and I don't know how to get  it started again.

I am getting in more protein and taking my vitamins more regularly. Water is no problem. Food still most of the time does not taste good or sound good. I know I am snacking alot or it seems to me I am. I get hungry and I make something and its yuk, so I try something else. In the end I end up eating crackers, cheese and lunch meats. Even lunch meats are getting were I don't like them anymore.

This past 2 weeks we have gotten so much rain. I haven't been able to go on my walks and don't feel much like getting on my bike. This I know I need to improve on!! But I wasn't an exerciser before, it's not so easy to just become one in a few months. I am trying though.

On a high note though... I have dropped from a size 26-28 pants to a 20-22, and a 4x-34/36 shirt down to a 1-2x or a 20-22. This is great!! And it does keep me motivated to do more. Would love to see a 18 top and bottom. I don't want to be a size 2 but would love to see 200lbs  or even back into the 100's. Haven't seen that since I was 21! 45lbs thats I all I have blocking me from reaching this goal. I know I can do it!!

So wish I had someone close to me to work with me and push me. My husband tries but it's to easy to tell him to leave me alone lol. I don't have many gfs close by and no job to give me adult contact. Love my son dearly but a 16 mth old just doesn't give stimulating conversation:) Going to try to go to a support meeting. There is one on May 24.  It is an hour away thats what stops me from going. My husband works 3rd shift and I wouldn't be home intime to be with the kids before he has to leave. We will see. I really need to be there right now. It is nice to know what other people are going through too and that your not alone in the struggle!

Anyway...enough of my crying! I hope you are all doing good, Keep up the great work.
Tracy

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