January 4, 2010
Jan 03, 2010
A new year. Lots of people responding to my post about the lower body lift. Most are concerned about my food intake and enough protein. I guess I need to address that----not sure what will happen post-surgery because I have to MAKE myself eat not. If I have pain and nausea after surgery, will I want to take anything in at all?
My friend Claudette is suicidal and I think she may accidentally kill herself before this is all over. I am trying to accept that. Her family just doesn't see it--maybe they don't want to. I don't know.
Now I face a new year. Bill is not working full-time but he seems happier than last year. Maybe he will be okay if he doesn't find another job. Maybe we both will----I try really HARD not resent coming to work. Most of the time I am okay but wish he would do more at home. Then I realize that what is going undone is not that important anyway---cleaning carpets, floors, stuff that just needs done over and over anyway. Dust can be ART!
So that is how I start the year: worried about my friend, feeling better about my husband, loving my cat and trying still to let my children fend for themselves.