katrina C.

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Ok....I am VERY NERVOUS... I just came back from a trip and had the chance to talk about how much of a lifestyle this will be with my male friend, and I started realllllllly thinking about this:

*do i REALLY need to do this?
*can i do this ON MY OWN ... (maybe if i diddddddd get on the tredmill more....or if i....)
*OMG, Im NOT gonna be able to eat my favorite chinese anymore like I do...
*DO i know that this is NOT COSMETIC SURGERY...BUT A LIFETSYTLE CHANGE..FOREVAAAAAAAAAAAAAA?

I go and see the surgeon in 1 hour this am... for my surgical visit..then right afterwards I go to the Psy. eval. (Im scared about that too... what will that tell her? that I am NOT READY.. ??? I dont want them to say..."nope..she doesnt know what she is getting herself into...so we are NOT gonna say ok"....Id rather keep learning...get more comfortable, and THEN.. if I feel like I dont know if I want to..then LET ME be the one to say lets hold off... (but I PRAY  i dont say that)

Ok...Im rambling.... 
OH.. AND ALSO WHAT SCARES ME...

I dont know which surgery to get....im scared that if idont know, he will just pick something even if i dont want it... I have been reallllllllllly reading up on the surgeries..im just nervous i guess... I just dontknow if i am supposed to go into the meeting today w/ a specific one in mind...
ok...i better just wait and blog when i get back huh...

I am going to go into my prayer closet and release all this.... to HE who already knows the Beginning from the End.....

Whewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Kat 

Hello,
Came from the internist today...weight: 252.5.....ughhh.... and what scares me that I may not be able to get the surgery is that, yes, I am overweight, but i dont have all the heart, diabeties, cholestrol, etc problems..... I did talk to her about snoring and the joint and muscle pains due to weight, and she is recommending a sleep test for me (I forgot to find out if THEY will call me with an appt or what do i do)

I was kinda nervous.... I hope that I qualify...I did show that I have tried many different types of things.... and she said thats what they require...and MESSA, my insurance (BCBS) look for being overweight of 100 lbs, and a BMI over 40... so i qualify for those....

I see the surgeon and psyc on the 25th......

I still havent decided ona surgery....its starting to hit me that this is not a cosmetic surgery...it is a LIFESTYLE SURGERY/CHANGE...

I want to have thies weight off, because when I walk down the stage in 2009 to get my Doctoral degree, I want to be slim and sassyyyyyyyyyyyy :) and I dont want currenly, my boyfriend going to the couch or me leaving my bed because I am snorning :) hee hee...
oh well... this is enough for now...
Kat

Ok... so the center of excellence surgery office called today and scheduled my Internist appointment for the 11th of June and my Surgeon appt on the 25th then the psychologist an hour after the surgeon's appt the same day.

Am I on my way??? :)
I was sooo excited to get those 3 dates scheduled...
Sooo someone tell me... after I do those 3 appts.  whats next?
and...
what happens at the internist's appt? Do i have to run on a tredmill for 5 mins or stuff like that?

Excited,
Katrina