Hey Sus, I'm a second timer, too. I've beaten myself up for blowing it after losing so much weight the first time, but this time, I've seen an eating disorders therapist and plan to see her after surgery also, especially at that difficult 18 months to 2 year time, which is where I blew it. Best wishes to you! I'll be following you to the other side on 9/21/01. Yvonne Ross