Step two accomplished-only 3 to go to surgery!

Jan 19, 2010

Well in keeping with tradition I am trying to write something every month. I figure it will be important one day to have something to look back on to see where I started from and how far I have come. So yesterday I left home at 4am and travelled to the Georges Dumont hospital in Moncton to have my all day info session with Dr. B' s team. There was 7 of us; 1 having the Sleeve, 3 for the band and 3 for gastric bypass. One of which was me, having gastric bypass that is. The day was very informative and we met with the dietician, the nurses, the phyciatrist, the physiotherapist and a testimony from a lady that that had the band. As I was sitting there with other morbidly obese people and reflecting on how I got into this mess, i was thinking about all these healthy, pretty people trying to help us on our journey to find our true selves. Deep I know but I am not just a pretty face you know. I am getting more free with telling people what I am doing with the WLS and leaving hints on my facebook so people will know something is up. I haven't come right out and said it but have talked about the journey and steps to reach it some. If they know what WLS stands for then they may have figured it out. Of course my friends and family know I am pursuing it.  So anyhow that was my day and I got home at going to 8pm so a long day but I was so thankful to get in that quick. For the record, I had my initial consult with Dr. B on Jan 11 and my all day info session on Jan 19, 2010. Very quick and I feel blessed to have gotten that last available spot yesterday or it would have been March before my next session and so maybe I moved my surgery up a couple of months. The team told us anywhere from 4-9 months before surgery and we will be done by the end of the year. So that means by next summer, biking for sure and maybe running if I can handle that by then. Shanice is so excited and so am I. Jonathan keeps a bit more quiet about it but is full of hope I can tell and talking positive about it and glad I am taking steps to get healthier. I told him I got excited the other day about maybe going on the motorcylce with him and 4 wheeling again together. So much stuff I have missed out on in the last 10 years or so. Fat and being fat sucks and I can't wait to be healthy again! Not to mention a hot mama..haha the pychiatrist told us that had to be a secondary desire and not a primary motivator for surgery. So my primery motivators are as follows: to be healthy, to be able to run, play and bike with my hubby and kids. To not feel to ashamed of myself to support my active family at TKD classes and tournaments. To have poeple take me seriously and believe in me again. To believe in myself again. To not have to worry about which chair to sit in, in waiting rooms, restaurants, airplanes and generally anywhere that has chairs. To walk by a window or mirror and smile. To keep up with my two year old and tire him out instead of the other way around. To be able to go outside and play in the snow with my girls. To appeal to my hubby and have him look at me in "that" way, the private look that happily married people everywhere share! Well the list could go on but secondary motivators would be: to have my body match my face instead of being the fat pretty girl To look in the mirror and be happy with how I look, to be oogled by a good looking age appropriate man who thinks I look good(maybe only once!) ummm to have my kids be able to hug me and have their arms go around me. To wear stylish pretty clothes and high heels again. yah that is all for now, oh yes to be sexy and feel sexy again. Shallow I know but nonethe less stlll fun. bye til next month, i wll turn 36 on the 22nd of February. My forties are going to be fabulous, I know it...

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