Ponderings One month update
Oct 03, 2010Well, today is the 1 month date since my surgery. It has been MUCH harder than I expected. I have had several health challenges in the past, but this seems like the hardest so far,even beating out cancer treatment. I had more pain during the first week and more vomiting from week 2-4 than I ever expected. I only had one day of really wishing I could undo the procedure, but many days of dissappointment and wishing I could have a meal (a small meal would have been okay), but no. I could not even keep down a sip of tomato juice, or protein drink. I certainly upchucked anything that wasn't totally soft. I could only eat mashed potatoes, yogurt and pudding consistently. Everything else came back up. I am sick of it. But I think I am making a turn for the better.
I went to a get together with friends yesterday and had a meal, quiche without the crust, rice and some canned pears. I only had a teaspoon of each, but I had a meal. Looking at the portions the other 4 had and I was amazed at how LARGE they (the portions) all were and it struck me at how I used to eat like that. Several had 1/4 a pie slice and one person had 2 other smaller helpings. I thought "Wow, I used to put that much in my stomach every day" and maybe every meal. Now granted mine were XXsmall but even so I was knocked out by the difference. It gave me a good perspective. I live almost alone so seeing the difference on 2 plates at the same time truly shocked me as to how out of control I had been. A big Ah Ha moment.
Some "Wow" moments have also occurred this past week. I was in my car and stopping for gas. I noticed my shoes were untied. So I hitched my foot up and tied my shoe!!!! Before I could not bend my knee that far and I could not bend over stomach to get to my shoe. I had to sit on the bed to get my shoes tied. WOW!!
Another "Wow" moment was walking to the hospital. Before I had to be at the first 1-2 handicapped spot to be able to walk to the door with huffing and puffing. Last week I had to park in the next to last handicapped spot and I walked all the way to the door before stopping to rest, about a half a city block. I don't have strangers asking me if I need help anymore. So I guess that my breathing is improving too. WOW!!!
Finally, the other day I vacuumed my apartment in one effort. Now granted my apt is not very big, but before surgery I could not get through one room without multiple sitting spells. My breathing, my knees, my back hurt so bad I tried to do most of the vacuuming sitting down, but not now. WOW!!!
And I have lost a total since March of 82 lbs and 19 since surgery a month ago. My bloodwork is all in normal range. I no longer am hypertensive and my diabetes is gone. I have gone from 8 meds to 3 meds and I only take them every other day since they are all pain meds, instead of 3 times per day. I am SOOOOOO VERY HAPPY my health is improving. WOW!!!!!
So for my final assessment for the month, I am amazed at how hard it has been, but I made it through one month and I am seeing results, physical tangible results. Just in time for my favorite time of year, FALL! Woo Hoo. The goal for this month is to start excercising. I feel like my breathing and knees are good enough to get to the onsite equiptment to try out a machine. Maybe I will start with walking over there and checking out what is inside the gym (I have never been inside a gym/fitness center since junior high). Now I need to walk to get there first, not drive over to it. So I will start practicing by walking out my apt and see how close I can get to the fitness center before having to turn back.
Thank you God, Thank you God, Thank you God.
St Louis, MO
Jan 31, 2004