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Well, my story goes like this:
I just turned 40 this year!! (UGH) I am tired of being overweight. I have been overweight pretty much all of my life. I can remember beginning to put on the weight when I was in highschool. I come from a family who is mostly overweight. My mom always made me finish my meals before I could get up from table as a youngster. Which, I believe started my problem. That and along with my mom always had fattening stuff around house ~ ALWAYS!! I don't remember a time we didn't have twinkies, cupcakes, lots of cheese blocks and ring bologna, ice creams, cookies. Ridiculous now that I think of it. No wonder me and my 3 brothers had weight problems and still all 3 do till this day. Of course, my mom is really overweight and is suffering now as a 70 year old woman. When I met my husband, John, I was 16 years old and weighing around 225ish. He looked beyond that and loved me. He was my first love!! 
And he was my first heartbreak 
He broke up with me and it devastated me. Well, while were were apart, I started dating this guy from church. He was very charming and everyone loved him. We got pretty close and then he started to abuse me. He would always check up on me. He would tell me no one would ever love me (by this time I was probably 250 ~ He was a big guy too) He isolated me from my friends and family. I lost my best friend, because he didn't like her. (still to this day, we aren't friends anymore which saddens me) Well, I began to withdrawl completly except from him. He had this pull on me. I lost weight and for the first time since I was in elementry probably, I weighed 123. Well, one day out of the blue, John called me (still to this day I don't know how he got my phone number) anyways, I snuck and met him at a resturant and he told me that night to dump the loser, he never forgot about me and wanted me back. So, I did and not long after we were married!! We have been married since 1991 and he is my life saver (other than our Lord and Savior!!) Well, 3 children later, and being a housewife and not being very active outside of the house, I have packed on the weight. I have tried diet after diet. I have even done Meridia and Phentermine ~ only to have lost weight, but when stopped, I gained back plus. I have thought so often of WLS, but always chicked out. Not this time!! I am excited and paitiently waiting to get a date!!
My husband is a pastor, which I never dreamed of being a pastor's wife. I still have a hard time with it. We live in a fish bowl (every one watches us like a hawk and are quick to judge and critisize us which makes life difficult for us). We can't please everyone all the time. Just because we are the pastor and family doesn't mean we are perfect!! Puts lots of stress on us. But, God is gracious and sees us through these difficult times.
I am growing closer to God every day.
That is my story, boy, I could sure add more and 'talk' your heads off, but I will stop here!! LOL
God Bless and thank you for taking the time to read about me
