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And so goes another month
Apr 13, 2007
It has been a month since I posted anything, but it would be nice if a lot of things were happening, but only a few. Things have been crazy around here, I had my Physche & Dietician consult on the same day 3/23, which my hubby was going to try to go with me to. Unfortunately he got injured at work on the 21st, so he had to go to therapy and go to work. My poor hubby is still in some pain, but doing much better than he was then.
Well I passed both evals and they sent the paperwork over to Dr. Fisher's office. Unfortunately Jody was on vacation, well good for her, bad for me to have to wait longer. Oh well it's a game I am willing to play for what I want. After Jody got back in, I called to make sure she received my paperwork, she had, but now we had to have the Dr. sign off on everything, so they could get ready to submit to the insurance company.
I am far from the most patient person in the world when it comes to things I really want. Well I called up my insurance company on Wednesday to see if they had my paperwork, which they did not, so I called Jody up on Thursday. She got back to me today to let me know that she was either waiting for the Dr.'s sig or it is in her to do pile to submit to my insurance company, but it would get submitted today.
I guess I will wait a little bit to make sure that they received the paperwork. I found out that I could ask for the paperwork to be expedited for approval, as could my Dr.. Well I really hate being on all these meds, and I hate this Oxygen machine at night. The stupid thing won't stay on me, so I am trying all different ways to keep it on all night.
I hope it doesn't take too long to get approved from my insurance company. I just want to feel like my old self again. I also cannot wait to take my hubby to Hawaii, where he really wants to go. It will be so nice to not have to carry so much luggage on the plane, because my clothe take up so much space. Hell, I would like to just pack a few bathing suits, a sundress or two, and thats it. Or maybe it would be great just to tell my hubby that we are all packed, and have just a bathing suit and a toothbrush for the two of us, and jet off somewhere. Oh I dare to dream right now. It WILL be a reality someday I am sure of it.
At least I have some other exciting things going on in my life right now to occupy some of my time. On Good Friday I shaved off all my hair for St. Baldricks. This was really hard for me, because I absolutely LOVE my hair. I mean it is the only physical part of me that I like right now. It was for a good cause and I am up to almost $500.00 and I got to donate all my hair. Sunday I make my Confirmation at I will be a baldy, but I don't care. As I said while they were shaving it off, "I love kids more than my hair."
I am also pretty excited about Baseball season. I am a huge fan!! My favorite team in the world is coming to Colorado, and I have tickets. I am originally from CT and I am a HUGE Yankees Fan!! Hubby bought me tickets to two games, and since I have never seen them play, except for Spring Training, I am EXTREMELY excited to get to see them play. The games are on 6/20 & 6/21, and I really want to be able to REALLY enjoy the games. I am not talking about the food and stuff, I am talking about the screaming, yelling, high fives all around. Depending on when I get approval, I will TRY to get the surgery done before my game, or else it will have to be the following week. That would be awesome too, since that is when my friend is scheduled with the same office, different Dr..
I am excited to have a friend going though this at the same time. This way, we can be on our new journey's together, knowing what the other is feeling, oh yeah and working out together. We are very competitive, so it should be interesting.
I am so lucky to have great friends, and a loving and supporting husband during this process. I think that I wouldn't have been able to do it without them. I love ya guys!! Well until next time.....
Well I passed both evals and they sent the paperwork over to Dr. Fisher's office. Unfortunately Jody was on vacation, well good for her, bad for me to have to wait longer. Oh well it's a game I am willing to play for what I want. After Jody got back in, I called to make sure she received my paperwork, she had, but now we had to have the Dr. sign off on everything, so they could get ready to submit to the insurance company.
I am far from the most patient person in the world when it comes to things I really want. Well I called up my insurance company on Wednesday to see if they had my paperwork, which they did not, so I called Jody up on Thursday. She got back to me today to let me know that she was either waiting for the Dr.'s sig or it is in her to do pile to submit to my insurance company, but it would get submitted today.
I guess I will wait a little bit to make sure that they received the paperwork. I found out that I could ask for the paperwork to be expedited for approval, as could my Dr.. Well I really hate being on all these meds, and I hate this Oxygen machine at night. The stupid thing won't stay on me, so I am trying all different ways to keep it on all night.
I hope it doesn't take too long to get approved from my insurance company. I just want to feel like my old self again. I also cannot wait to take my hubby to Hawaii, where he really wants to go. It will be so nice to not have to carry so much luggage on the plane, because my clothe take up so much space. Hell, I would like to just pack a few bathing suits, a sundress or two, and thats it. Or maybe it would be great just to tell my hubby that we are all packed, and have just a bathing suit and a toothbrush for the two of us, and jet off somewhere. Oh I dare to dream right now. It WILL be a reality someday I am sure of it.
At least I have some other exciting things going on in my life right now to occupy some of my time. On Good Friday I shaved off all my hair for St. Baldricks. This was really hard for me, because I absolutely LOVE my hair. I mean it is the only physical part of me that I like right now. It was for a good cause and I am up to almost $500.00 and I got to donate all my hair. Sunday I make my Confirmation at I will be a baldy, but I don't care. As I said while they were shaving it off, "I love kids more than my hair."
I am also pretty excited about Baseball season. I am a huge fan!! My favorite team in the world is coming to Colorado, and I have tickets. I am originally from CT and I am a HUGE Yankees Fan!! Hubby bought me tickets to two games, and since I have never seen them play, except for Spring Training, I am EXTREMELY excited to get to see them play. The games are on 6/20 & 6/21, and I really want to be able to REALLY enjoy the games. I am not talking about the food and stuff, I am talking about the screaming, yelling, high fives all around. Depending on when I get approval, I will TRY to get the surgery done before my game, or else it will have to be the following week. That would be awesome too, since that is when my friend is scheduled with the same office, different Dr..
I am excited to have a friend going though this at the same time. This way, we can be on our new journey's together, knowing what the other is feeling, oh yeah and working out together. We are very competitive, so it should be interesting.
I am so lucky to have great friends, and a loving and supporting husband during this process. I think that I wouldn't have been able to do it without them. I love ya guys!! Well until next time.....
It's Been A Week!!
Mar 14, 2007
Ok so it has been a week and a couple of things happened to me. First I get home from work on Friday and discover that there is a message on my machine from my sleep study, the results are in and I can schedule an appointment with my Dr. Yippee!!
Monday I have my Gallbladder ultrasound. I take part of the morning off of work to get this taken care of. I almost forgot, and really could have used the extra sleep after moving the clocks forward, but got ready and drove down to the hospital anyways. I get all the way down there, and start to freak out because I think that I left my drivers license behind, which would mean no ultrasound, which would frustrate the heck out of me. Well I find it (whew) and start to register. The woman behind the counter cannot find mind information and asks me if I am in the right hospital, which of course I was. She says ok and disappears for a minute, comes back and says you are right you are scheduled for your appointment here, but it is not this Monday but NEXT Monday. No I tell her, I was scheduled today, and already took time off of work, couldn't the just squeeze me in. No! They were all booked up with no way to squeeze me in. Well not to take this lightly I ask to report it because now, not only did I have to take this morning off, I was going to have to schedule some MORE time off, and my time off is precious since I don't have THAT much and LOTS of Dr.'s appts still to go on. So she tells me I can call scheduling but they don't open up for a 1/2 hr. Whatever, I ask her who I can talk to in THIS hospital NOW, and she says well you can check with adminstration and see if they can do anything for you. Ok fine, so I start around the corner, but I don't see it, so I ask someone else, when a nice nurse states she is headed that way and she would show me the way if she could get a Diet Pepsi. Sure I don't mind and we start walking, I tell her what happened, and she looked at my order and says Dr. Fisher, he's really cute and funny. She used to work with him and starts to help me out by calling on some people she knows to get me in. She asks me if it is for Bariatric Surgery, and I tell her yes. YES!! She is going to get me in... she takes me back to the first lady who then registers me. I get my ultrasound done and I am off back to work.
I get to work and then wait till break to make my appointment for my sleep study results. Whoo Hoo, they get to see me tomorrow at 8:45. I get home from work and there is another message on my machine from the sleep study people (Delta Waves is an awesome facility) they need me to call them back, but they weren't available when I tried. Oh well, I guess I will wait until tomorrow to hear back from them and I leave them a message. On my way to the Dr.'s I call up Delta Waves and they tell me my Dr. is going to order oxygen for me, when I explain that I am on the way to see the Dr. now, she says great she can go over it with you.
My Dr. is great, even if I did have to wait a little bit. We chit chat about TV for a little while, and then we move on to my stuff. We talk about the sleep study and it showed I am not getting enough Oxygen at night, my brain doesn't want it I guess. So they are going to put me on a compressed oxygen machine which I gotta get from the Delta Waves people. Ok Perfect, we chat more about what has happened at all the other Dr. visits since I last saw her, and about all my upcoming Dr.'s visits. She seems mostly pleased, and I have to call her back in 2 weeks if my Oxygen, and new sleeping pills don't work.
Great call the Delta Waves people back and they say I can come right on down and get my oxygen stuff. I work with Lowell who is awesome and explains my study in more detail with me and asks me if I would like a copy. I sure did want a copy, that way I can share the results with my husband. He helps me down to my truck and puts the machine in my truck for me, and I am off to work again.
Ok first of all, sleeping with this machine is NOT fun. I kept getting all tangled up in the tubes, and woke up with it not being on and me being tangled. I also kept getting up all night just for a moment or two then dozing back off. I think that my new sleeping pills helped a lot. Hoepfully me losing weight will make it so I never have to use this contraption again.
Well thats all the news for now - next week will be my nutritional consult and physche eval. Crossing my fingers!
Monday I have my Gallbladder ultrasound. I take part of the morning off of work to get this taken care of. I almost forgot, and really could have used the extra sleep after moving the clocks forward, but got ready and drove down to the hospital anyways. I get all the way down there, and start to freak out because I think that I left my drivers license behind, which would mean no ultrasound, which would frustrate the heck out of me. Well I find it (whew) and start to register. The woman behind the counter cannot find mind information and asks me if I am in the right hospital, which of course I was. She says ok and disappears for a minute, comes back and says you are right you are scheduled for your appointment here, but it is not this Monday but NEXT Monday. No I tell her, I was scheduled today, and already took time off of work, couldn't the just squeeze me in. No! They were all booked up with no way to squeeze me in. Well not to take this lightly I ask to report it because now, not only did I have to take this morning off, I was going to have to schedule some MORE time off, and my time off is precious since I don't have THAT much and LOTS of Dr.'s appts still to go on. So she tells me I can call scheduling but they don't open up for a 1/2 hr. Whatever, I ask her who I can talk to in THIS hospital NOW, and she says well you can check with adminstration and see if they can do anything for you. Ok fine, so I start around the corner, but I don't see it, so I ask someone else, when a nice nurse states she is headed that way and she would show me the way if she could get a Diet Pepsi. Sure I don't mind and we start walking, I tell her what happened, and she looked at my order and says Dr. Fisher, he's really cute and funny. She used to work with him and starts to help me out by calling on some people she knows to get me in. She asks me if it is for Bariatric Surgery, and I tell her yes. YES!! She is going to get me in... she takes me back to the first lady who then registers me. I get my ultrasound done and I am off back to work.
I get to work and then wait till break to make my appointment for my sleep study results. Whoo Hoo, they get to see me tomorrow at 8:45. I get home from work and there is another message on my machine from the sleep study people (Delta Waves is an awesome facility) they need me to call them back, but they weren't available when I tried. Oh well, I guess I will wait until tomorrow to hear back from them and I leave them a message. On my way to the Dr.'s I call up Delta Waves and they tell me my Dr. is going to order oxygen for me, when I explain that I am on the way to see the Dr. now, she says great she can go over it with you.
My Dr. is great, even if I did have to wait a little bit. We chit chat about TV for a little while, and then we move on to my stuff. We talk about the sleep study and it showed I am not getting enough Oxygen at night, my brain doesn't want it I guess. So they are going to put me on a compressed oxygen machine which I gotta get from the Delta Waves people. Ok Perfect, we chat more about what has happened at all the other Dr. visits since I last saw her, and about all my upcoming Dr.'s visits. She seems mostly pleased, and I have to call her back in 2 weeks if my Oxygen, and new sleeping pills don't work.
Great call the Delta Waves people back and they say I can come right on down and get my oxygen stuff. I work with Lowell who is awesome and explains my study in more detail with me and asks me if I would like a copy. I sure did want a copy, that way I can share the results with my husband. He helps me down to my truck and puts the machine in my truck for me, and I am off to work again.
Ok first of all, sleeping with this machine is NOT fun. I kept getting all tangled up in the tubes, and woke up with it not being on and me being tangled. I also kept getting up all night just for a moment or two then dozing back off. I think that my new sleeping pills helped a lot. Hoepfully me losing weight will make it so I never have to use this contraption again.
Well thats all the news for now - next week will be my nutritional consult and physche eval. Crossing my fingers!
Another Appointment Scheduled
Mar 07, 2007
Today was a great day. I spoke with the coordinators at the hospital. They setup my dietician appointment and phsyche consult. This is part of their pre-surgery requirements, which is good, because it fulfills my insurance requirements as well. The only bad part is that it is completely out of pocket expense, on top of my other max out of pocket expense. So $750 for all the prep stuff, which also includes a year of nutritional counseling, plus a month at their gym. Then another $1,500 for my max out of pocket for my insurance company, I don't mind so much, because it is the start to my new life, I spend more than that I guess when I get new clothes all the time. I guess I will also save it on my new diet plan when we will really only be buying dinners for one not two anymore, at least for a while. I cannot have surgery until I get the $750 paid in full. At least they let me make payments.
I am so pleased to have my appointment so soon too, its on the 23rd. I think I will do well with both appointments, and look forward for a go from that aspect to get on with the approval process through my insurance company. Luckilly I called them already and asked them what they were specifically looking for in the letter that has to be sent by my Dr., so we should be all set there.
Till we meet again...
I am so pleased to have my appointment so soon too, its on the 23rd. I think I will do well with both appointments, and look forward for a go from that aspect to get on with the approval process through my insurance company. Luckilly I called them already and asked them what they were specifically looking for in the letter that has to be sent by my Dr., so we should be all set there.
Till we meet again...
First Surgical Consult
Mar 06, 2007
Ok, I'm back. Today was a long and exciting day. I just could not wait till I got to leave work and go to my appointment. I simply was not sure what surgery was going to be the best, but I was really hoping that Lap Band was going to be the one for me. My husband was so sweet and came with me to the appointment.
Finally I meet with Dr. Fisher who was very nice, and treated me like a person. I told him that I have changed my mind and wanted to hear about two different types of surgery's. He advised me against the Mini Gastric Bypass, but instead talked to me about the RNY and the LapBand. He told me that it really depended on my medical history what might be the better choice for me. I let him talk first explaining the two.
Well it turns out after hearing both proceedures, the pros and cons, that RNY is going to be a better choice afterall for my overall well-being. I am very excited that I have made my choice, although I am free to change it at any time. I guess I will keep with the one I have for now, and unless something drastic changes, it will be the one I will get.
He told me that I would be a good candidate for the surgery, which was nice to hear. I do realize that this is going to be a life altering experience, and I cannot wait for the process to start. I want MY life back. I want to feel like my old self again. I want to live a life with my huband, not just exist in his.
After the consult, I visited with Jody in his office who will be helping me deal with my insurance company and all the coordination things I have to do. She told me that we will have to get a Gall Bladder ultrasound. This way if anything is wrong with it now, like stones and such, they can yank it out now, rather than me having to have it removed later, as it seems is often the case. Well I sure liked that idea, lets not have me go under the knife more than I need to.
The next step is waiting for my appointment for my Physc. consult and Nutritional meeting. Hopefully they will call tomorrow and I can get an appointment quickly. I am not the most patient of people. It took me a long time to come to this decision, and now I want it and I want to help the process as quickly as possible.
I have no idea what is in store for me for the next month or so, but I am anxiously excited. While no one may ever read what I write, as long as I get all this stuff off my chest, thats all that really matters to me. In case you are listening, till next time.
Finally I meet with Dr. Fisher who was very nice, and treated me like a person. I told him that I have changed my mind and wanted to hear about two different types of surgery's. He advised me against the Mini Gastric Bypass, but instead talked to me about the RNY and the LapBand. He told me that it really depended on my medical history what might be the better choice for me. I let him talk first explaining the two.
Well it turns out after hearing both proceedures, the pros and cons, that RNY is going to be a better choice afterall for my overall well-being. I am very excited that I have made my choice, although I am free to change it at any time. I guess I will keep with the one I have for now, and unless something drastic changes, it will be the one I will get.
He told me that I would be a good candidate for the surgery, which was nice to hear. I do realize that this is going to be a life altering experience, and I cannot wait for the process to start. I want MY life back. I want to feel like my old self again. I want to live a life with my huband, not just exist in his.
After the consult, I visited with Jody in his office who will be helping me deal with my insurance company and all the coordination things I have to do. She told me that we will have to get a Gall Bladder ultrasound. This way if anything is wrong with it now, like stones and such, they can yank it out now, rather than me having to have it removed later, as it seems is often the case. Well I sure liked that idea, lets not have me go under the knife more than I need to.
The next step is waiting for my appointment for my Physc. consult and Nutritional meeting. Hopefully they will call tomorrow and I can get an appointment quickly. I am not the most patient of people. It took me a long time to come to this decision, and now I want it and I want to help the process as quickly as possible.
I have no idea what is in store for me for the next month or so, but I am anxiously excited. While no one may ever read what I write, as long as I get all this stuff off my chest, thats all that really matters to me. In case you are listening, till next time.
Sleepless in Colorado
Mar 05, 2007
Ok so last night I went and had my sleep study done. I will have to wait several days for my results of that so that should be fun. My wonderful husband who always supports me in everything I do, joined me for the hook up. My appointment was at 10:00PM but I arrived early, and I am glad that I did. Due to some technical difficulties, we had a very hard time getting all hooked up.
They finally let me take my Ambien at 11:05PM, which I don't even think worked quite frankly because I still remember being up around 1ish. I somehow miraculously fell asleep, only to be woken up due to my tossing and turning. Yeah I toss and turn a lot. So i would toss, and or turn, and then something would get unplugged. In the tech would come and get me to turn over so he could reconnect me.
I have to say next time anyone thinks of doing something like this to themselves, make sure you do not have work the next day. If you are able to get to sleep, its probably best to let them let you sleep as long as possible.
Today sucked, i was sleepy and groggy. I did have some good news though, my pregnancy test came back negative, which is the one time in the world I would ever ask for that result. So this means I get to start on some medications I wouldn't have been able to had I been pregnant. Oh and it would have held off any surgery.
Tomorrow is my next big step...... I have my Surgical Consult. I am excited and scared at the same time, which I am hoping is nornal. I really pride myself on being a very well informed woman, and am able to make sound decisions for myself. Lap Band Surgery sounds like it is the most safe. I wonder though, is it right for me. This past weekend I did a lot of research on having a Mini Gastric Bypass, which is also reversible (just a really good idea if there are major complications) or reviseable. I am taking this step to make my life better, not to make it worse.
I only wish that I knew that what i am doing is the right thing for myself. My husband is very supportive, telling me that I just need an extra tool to help me get to where I want to be. He says that I can talk to him anytime about it, while he might not understand everything I am going through or feeling, he will be a sounding wall for me.
When did life become so complicated..... Why do we sometimes wait until things are too late, or could have been handled much easier had we only put more thought into these things sooner.
Growing up I remember you never went to a Dr. unless you were absolutely sick. I mean if we walked into that Dr.'s office and you had a sore throat and not strep, well my dad would be upset. Not that he couldn't pay for this mind you, but just that it was far to inconvenient for him to have to take care of us like that. I always felt that I needed to be a bit stronger, yet I never could get that way.
Why couldn't I just have the strength when i was in my late teens to recognize thats things were not doing well in my body, and I needed to find a specialist who would figure out what was wrong. Instead I let the sounds of Dr.'s unkindess resinate in my head "You are too fat, you need to lose some weight". Not there was ever a solution to these problems. Just lose weight and all your other medical problems will disappear. What would be even more ironic, would be an overweight Dr. staring me in th face telling me to lose weight. All these Dr.'s ever did for me, is throw some pills at me for my current ailment, and send me on my way. It would get so bad that I didn't even want to go to the Dr.'s office even if I was sick.
My husband had to force me to get in the car to go to the Emergency Room to find out what was wrong with me. I was sick, but deep down I was worried, what is this Dr. going to think of me and my fat self being pushed into the ER. I was sick, I wanted help, I also wanted compassion and answers. Follow Ups at the Dr.'s offices only seemed to want to resolve the current ailment. If I mention something else, it was like oh well we don't have time for that. You are now going to have to make another appointment, which means another co-pay at the time.
I feel so lucky to be where I am right now. Finding the right Dr.'s at the right time in my life. I choose to suffer no more. I am going to make a change in my life for myself and myself alone.Of course there will be others who see the benefits, but it will be my life for myself.
Right now I have to be a bit selfish and say, this time it is about ME! I am worth making these changes in my life. I am worth giving a damn about myself. It is my turn to not be afraid and to shed some new light on my life, and some pounds off of it.
I never was much for keeping a journal, and now I regret not doing it. This has been very therapeutic for me. It is so nice to get things off of my chest. I hope that through this journey my old self will come back out again. I hope to meet new friends and feel good about hanging out with my friends again. I am sick of not wanting people to look and stare at me that I prefer the inside than the beautiful outdoors.
They finally let me take my Ambien at 11:05PM, which I don't even think worked quite frankly because I still remember being up around 1ish. I somehow miraculously fell asleep, only to be woken up due to my tossing and turning. Yeah I toss and turn a lot. So i would toss, and or turn, and then something would get unplugged. In the tech would come and get me to turn over so he could reconnect me.
I have to say next time anyone thinks of doing something like this to themselves, make sure you do not have work the next day. If you are able to get to sleep, its probably best to let them let you sleep as long as possible.
Today sucked, i was sleepy and groggy. I did have some good news though, my pregnancy test came back negative, which is the one time in the world I would ever ask for that result. So this means I get to start on some medications I wouldn't have been able to had I been pregnant. Oh and it would have held off any surgery.
Tomorrow is my next big step...... I have my Surgical Consult. I am excited and scared at the same time, which I am hoping is nornal. I really pride myself on being a very well informed woman, and am able to make sound decisions for myself. Lap Band Surgery sounds like it is the most safe. I wonder though, is it right for me. This past weekend I did a lot of research on having a Mini Gastric Bypass, which is also reversible (just a really good idea if there are major complications) or reviseable. I am taking this step to make my life better, not to make it worse.
I only wish that I knew that what i am doing is the right thing for myself. My husband is very supportive, telling me that I just need an extra tool to help me get to where I want to be. He says that I can talk to him anytime about it, while he might not understand everything I am going through or feeling, he will be a sounding wall for me.
When did life become so complicated..... Why do we sometimes wait until things are too late, or could have been handled much easier had we only put more thought into these things sooner.
Growing up I remember you never went to a Dr. unless you were absolutely sick. I mean if we walked into that Dr.'s office and you had a sore throat and not strep, well my dad would be upset. Not that he couldn't pay for this mind you, but just that it was far to inconvenient for him to have to take care of us like that. I always felt that I needed to be a bit stronger, yet I never could get that way.
Why couldn't I just have the strength when i was in my late teens to recognize thats things were not doing well in my body, and I needed to find a specialist who would figure out what was wrong. Instead I let the sounds of Dr.'s unkindess resinate in my head "You are too fat, you need to lose some weight". Not there was ever a solution to these problems. Just lose weight and all your other medical problems will disappear. What would be even more ironic, would be an overweight Dr. staring me in th face telling me to lose weight. All these Dr.'s ever did for me, is throw some pills at me for my current ailment, and send me on my way. It would get so bad that I didn't even want to go to the Dr.'s office even if I was sick.
My husband had to force me to get in the car to go to the Emergency Room to find out what was wrong with me. I was sick, but deep down I was worried, what is this Dr. going to think of me and my fat self being pushed into the ER. I was sick, I wanted help, I also wanted compassion and answers. Follow Ups at the Dr.'s offices only seemed to want to resolve the current ailment. If I mention something else, it was like oh well we don't have time for that. You are now going to have to make another appointment, which means another co-pay at the time.
I feel so lucky to be where I am right now. Finding the right Dr.'s at the right time in my life. I choose to suffer no more. I am going to make a change in my life for myself and myself alone.Of course there will be others who see the benefits, but it will be my life for myself.
Right now I have to be a bit selfish and say, this time it is about ME! I am worth making these changes in my life. I am worth giving a damn about myself. It is my turn to not be afraid and to shed some new light on my life, and some pounds off of it.
I never was much for keeping a journal, and now I regret not doing it. This has been very therapeutic for me. It is so nice to get things off of my chest. I hope that through this journey my old self will come back out again. I hope to meet new friends and feel good about hanging out with my friends again. I am sick of not wanting people to look and stare at me that I prefer the inside than the beautiful outdoors.
Getting Started
Mar 04, 2007
I don't even know where to begin.... so I will just start. I have to say up until early this year I was dead set against having surgery. I mean I thought it would be like cheating, and I was determined I could do this on my own right? Well I was wrong and finally admitted defeat after years of trying on my own. I took the first step at the end of January and consulted with my Dr. That was so difficult to decide to make that call and tell them what I wanted to talk about.
Well I met with my Dr. and it was not as bad as I had hoped. All we did was talk about my PCOS and my getting sick all the time, and that I thought that WSL would finally be the key to helping me. She agreed and said she would help me on my journey of getting healthy again. I was relieved. I felt an enormous amount of pressure come off my shoulders. So lets get to this. I have a PPO this should eliminate a lot of the worries of referals and such. Well I was wrong in that manner as well. Seems that the Dr.'s around here still want referals for WSL.
My first step was calling the Dr. I was referred to, turns out I couldn't even get an appointment until I attended an informational session. Fortunately I was able to get in contact with the nurse within a few hours, but would have to wait 1 month until the next session.
So my husband is awesome and he takes the day off with me so we can attend this session. We asked lots of questions, and I was so sure that I was making the right decision for myself. I was NOT going to tell my mom about the decision, because I already knew that she was dead set against anyone having this, and I didn't need her trying to talk me out of it.
The next day I am finally able to set an appointment at the surgeon's office. I am excited it will be on March 6th. I call my Dr.'s office and tell them I was able to get an appointment very quickly, but of course it seems like forever getting here. I reminded the staff that my Dr. was also thinking of having me take a sleep study, on account that I have a very hard time getting to sleep, and don't sleep very well at all.
Good news, even though the Sleep Study office required a Dr.'s referal, I was able to get that done, and thats where I am going tonight. I am a bit scared, but also very excited to get one step closer.
Broke the news to my mom on Friday night. It sort of went the way that I thought that it would. "Why are they being so drastic? Why can't they just give you the pills that they are giving you and change your diet first?" I told her she just needed to trust me that I would make a sound decision. I told her that I wanted to have the Lap Band surgery which seems to be very safe. Then after lots of research last night, I am not sure if I want that or Mini Gastric Bypass. Even my husband who was thinking that I should stick with my original option of Lap Band thinks that we need to discuss this with the Dr. come Tuesday. It is all so very exciting and scary at the same time.
I want to do this for so many reasons, 99% are for myself. I want to be able to not feel sick all the time, I want to be able to feel more comfortable going to the Dr.'s office, instead of hearing like I have heard so many times over the years, "You would be a lot healthier if you just lost some weight." Luckily my Dr.'s where I live now have not been so rude about it, but mroe supportive of me trying to lose weight for all the right reasons. I want my husband to think that I am drop dead georgeous. He always tells me that I am beautiful and he loves me for me. After over 8 years being married, all of which I was very overweight, I believe him.
Well in almost 3 hours I will be getting hooked up to a million machines it will feel like for my sleep study..... so we are going out to eat. Till next time.....
Well I met with my Dr. and it was not as bad as I had hoped. All we did was talk about my PCOS and my getting sick all the time, and that I thought that WSL would finally be the key to helping me. She agreed and said she would help me on my journey of getting healthy again. I was relieved. I felt an enormous amount of pressure come off my shoulders. So lets get to this. I have a PPO this should eliminate a lot of the worries of referals and such. Well I was wrong in that manner as well. Seems that the Dr.'s around here still want referals for WSL.
My first step was calling the Dr. I was referred to, turns out I couldn't even get an appointment until I attended an informational session. Fortunately I was able to get in contact with the nurse within a few hours, but would have to wait 1 month until the next session.
So my husband is awesome and he takes the day off with me so we can attend this session. We asked lots of questions, and I was so sure that I was making the right decision for myself. I was NOT going to tell my mom about the decision, because I already knew that she was dead set against anyone having this, and I didn't need her trying to talk me out of it.
The next day I am finally able to set an appointment at the surgeon's office. I am excited it will be on March 6th. I call my Dr.'s office and tell them I was able to get an appointment very quickly, but of course it seems like forever getting here. I reminded the staff that my Dr. was also thinking of having me take a sleep study, on account that I have a very hard time getting to sleep, and don't sleep very well at all.
Good news, even though the Sleep Study office required a Dr.'s referal, I was able to get that done, and thats where I am going tonight. I am a bit scared, but also very excited to get one step closer.
Broke the news to my mom on Friday night. It sort of went the way that I thought that it would. "Why are they being so drastic? Why can't they just give you the pills that they are giving you and change your diet first?" I told her she just needed to trust me that I would make a sound decision. I told her that I wanted to have the Lap Band surgery which seems to be very safe. Then after lots of research last night, I am not sure if I want that or Mini Gastric Bypass. Even my husband who was thinking that I should stick with my original option of Lap Band thinks that we need to discuss this with the Dr. come Tuesday. It is all so very exciting and scary at the same time.
I want to do this for so many reasons, 99% are for myself. I want to be able to not feel sick all the time, I want to be able to feel more comfortable going to the Dr.'s office, instead of hearing like I have heard so many times over the years, "You would be a lot healthier if you just lost some weight." Luckily my Dr.'s where I live now have not been so rude about it, but mroe supportive of me trying to lose weight for all the right reasons. I want my husband to think that I am drop dead georgeous. He always tells me that I am beautiful and he loves me for me. After over 8 years being married, all of which I was very overweight, I believe him.
Well in almost 3 hours I will be getting hooked up to a million machines it will feel like for my sleep study..... so we are going out to eat. Till next time.....
