Day 8 & 9 pre-op liquids

Apr 03, 2013

Busy day yesterday, no time to post.  It was actually a very good day.  I am past all the horrible withdrawals and the poor poor pitiful me routing.  I did eat last night.  I had a tomato with fresh mozzarella and peppers on top of it with a little balsamic and olive oil.  I only ate one and it was very satisfying.  I lost another pound which is very exciting.  I am hoping to go back for two more zumba classes before my surgery next week.  Therapy AND support group tonight.  Life is good!!

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Day 7 pre-op liquids

Apr 02, 2013

I had my presurgical testing and half hour class this morning.  Everything went very smoothly.  I can't believe its only a week away.  So my NUT had mentioned that if I really needed to, that I could replace my liquids with a comparable meal.   What a failure.  I'm not going to beat myself up over it, I will take it as a lesson learned.  I "thought" I could get a grilled chicken wrap with just lettuce and tomato in a whole wheat wrap.  Half of the wrap would have been plenty.  But my drug was in my hand and I couldn't stop myself.  I'm glad this happened to me now and not after surgery.  My stomach feels awful right now.  I'm sure after 6 days of liquids only my stomach was not prepared for food, especially the amount I chose to eat.  Notice I wrote "chose".  I knew what I was doing was wrong and I did it anyway.  Thank goodness for therapy on Thursday!!

I was down 10 pounds this morning.  I'm sure I won't have the same result tomorrow morning.  Back on the wagon tomorrow, I know I can do this. I know I NEED to do this.

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Day 6 pre-op liquids

Mar 31, 2013

Its interesting.  Every OTHER day seems to be tolerable.  Maybe its all just in my head.  What I do know is that I am a junkie, a food junkie.  Being addicted to food is the same as being addicted to crack.  Its just legal.  Its amazing how my mind has tried to twist how it MIGHT get some form of a meal, its like a freakin crack pipe  lol     I'm making a joke out of it because it is SO true.  I am impressed with my willpower and hope I have the strength to get through the next 7 days.

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Day 5 pre-op liquids

Mar 31, 2013

This sucks.  I got nothing else today.

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Day 4 pre-op liquids

Mar 30, 2013

OK yesterday sucked really bad.  Today seems like a better day.  The sun is shining and its beautiful out.  I hope this will be a better day.

On a positive note, I told everyone at work yesterday and they were all great about it.  The support I have is amazing and i am so blessed.

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Day 3 Pre-op liquids

Mar 29, 2013

Yesterday was a better day.  Today, I'm not so sure.  Woke up with a headache.  Tylenol seems to have gotten rid of it.  I am dying for something to eat, something to chew.  Jello and ice pops are NOT that chewy  lol    I'm all "shaked" out.  Yesterday I picked up some broth and a mug.  The warm broth was a welcome change from al the cold things I've been drinking.  I'm also very tired today.  I would love to go to bed right now and just curl up.  BUT, life gets in the way.  I have an appointment at the surgeons office this afternoon which will be my last before surgery.

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Day 2 pre-op liquids

Mar 27, 2013

I'm not gonna lie, this is tough.  Yesterday was a rough day.  I felt very light headed and very, very tired.  I went home after work and went right to bed for a nap.  I woke up, hubby hugged me and I cried.  I forced myself to get up and listen to some music in my headphones.  I was back to sleep by 10:30.  The music helped get me out of my funk.  I also downloaded some meditation music to help with any anxiety I might have.  And now for day 2.  Thank goodness I have therapy AND support group tonight.

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Things I Am Looking Forward To After VSG

Mar 26, 2013

Today is my first liquid day, I just want to think of some positive things to keep my focused on my goal

 

Buying a bathing suit that does not look like a dress

Walking without my feet hurting

Fitting in my dining room chair that has the arms on it

Fitting in a booth without my belly touching the table

Fitting in my seat at a show and not overflowing onto the person next to me

Bending over to tie my shoes without worrying that I might topple over

Putting my cowboy boots on and doing some serious dancing!

 

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It's Getting Closer

Mar 18, 2013

Well I'm getting into the home stretch.  A week from tomorrow I start my two week pre-op liquid diet.  Its getting very real for me now.  I did my second zumba class last night.  I'm so disgusted with myself.  My feet and ankles just can't hold me up anymore.  Normally I would have muscle pain, but its my feet and ankles that hurt so bad today.

I'm having a lot of difficulty getting the clear protein in.  I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I will find a way.  I am determined to make this work.  I've made new friends in support group.  I love making new friends. 

I'm over being insulted by my boss' wife last week.  She really upset me and hit a nerve and made me cry.  I realize I can't control the stupidity that comes out of someone elses mouth.  She didn't even realize it was her that pissed me off, thats how ignorant the comment wa.s

So many emotions right now, excited, happy, nervous.............ugh, too many to mention.  But all for a pleasant result. 

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To Tell Or Not To Tell, that is the question.....

Feb 20, 2013

So I'm going to my parents for dinner tonight.  I have my endoscopy next Wednesday.  I really don't want my mom calling me at work and them telling her I'm out for the day.  It just feels so dishonest to me.  It does make me sad that I have to question whether or not they will be supportive of my decision, I should know that they support me, no matter what their personal feelings are.  Unfortunately, that is not them, and I can't make them be something they are not.  Its not that they don't love me, its just their way.  So I think I will take the leap and give them the news.  My brother will be there as well, so he can take the cushion out for me if I need it  lol. 

Just one more test and they will submit to insurance.  It takes a week after the endoscopy to get the results due to the biopsies required.  I feel like I am in such limbo right now.  I will be so relieved not to have to be a contortionist just to wipe my ass.  So many little things have been affecting me due to my weight and I haven't even realized it.   I'm so ready for this new chapter in my life to start.  It took me so long to get here, I know I'm impatient.  I'm hoping for a surgery date sometime in the beginning of April.

I have the best husband in the whole world.  We are getting a new mattress and one of the options was to get an adjustable base.  So you can raise the top of the bed and also your legs.  Will make things sooooo much easier for me after the surgery, getting in and out of bed and even sleeping.

Keeping my fingers crossed and staying positive for all good things to come!!

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