To Tell Or Not To Tell, that is the question.....

Feb 20, 2013

So I'm going to my parents for dinner tonight.  I have my endoscopy next Wednesday.  I really don't want my mom calling me at work and them telling her I'm out for the day.  It just feels so dishonest to me.  It does make me sad that I have to question whether or not they will be supportive of my decision, I should know that they support me, no matter what their personal feelings are.  Unfortunately, that is not them, and I can't make them be something they are not.  Its not that they don't love me, its just their way.  So I think I will take the leap and give them the news.  My brother will be there as well, so he can take the cushion out for me if I need it  lol. 

Just one more test and they will submit to insurance.  It takes a week after the endoscopy to get the results due to the biopsies required.  I feel like I am in such limbo right now.  I will be so relieved not to have to be a contortionist just to wipe my ass.  So many little things have been affecting me due to my weight and I haven't even realized it.   I'm so ready for this new chapter in my life to start.  It took me so long to get here, I know I'm impatient.  I'm hoping for a surgery date sometime in the beginning of April.

I have the best husband in the whole world.  We are getting a new mattress and one of the options was to get an adjustable base.  So you can raise the top of the bed and also your legs.  Will make things sooooo much easier for me after the surgery, getting in and out of bed and even sleeping.

Keeping my fingers crossed and staying positive for all good things to come!!

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