Tammy 'Buckley McCool
Weight Loss Tracking ( Weight loss and pictures bottom of the page )
Starting weight 271 ( when I began the WLS Journey )
Surgery weight 250
I am 36 5'1 130 pounds over weight,starting weight 271 I have tried all diets to loose 20 pounds to gain 40 back each time I am considering the Rouxeny Gastric Bypass surgery I have a intereview on Jan 13 at the Bariatic Treatment Center in Wylie Tx.........and I am reading all the post from different sights and I am a little scared of doing this surgery, I have never had surgery before except when I got my tubal, I have obstructive sleep apena I have to wear the cpap mask at night when I sleep for a year now
I just need to talk to someone who has had this surgery before ............I am going to be a 1st grandmother in April I want to be around to watch the baby grow up
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Reasons I want this surgery: : NEW REASONS AT THE BOTTOM :
1) to get off the cpap machine that I sleep with at night because of my sleep apnea because of my weight
2) so I can take walks with my husband and not get tired after a short distance
3) so I can fit in a booth at a resturant and noone stare at me
4} so I can be more happy with my apperance
5) so I can go to amusement parks and walk the entire park with out getting pooped out
6) so I can where a bathing suit and not have to wear a tshirt to cover the fat
7) so I can go rollerbladding again and not fall down and when I do fall I dont want to have to roll around in order to get up
8) so the fat remarks will stop by family members
9) so people will stop asking me " when are u due ? "
10) so I can wear nice clothes again other than tshirts and sweats
11) TO BE HEALTHY
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1/6/03 Well while calling all my doctors old ones and new ones to get my medical records today, I called the insurance company as well, come to find out BTC in Wylie Tx is not covered in network...........NOW I am stumped......I did however find 7 Doctors who are in the network so I may give them a call tomorrow...........or just go ahead with BTC and pay the out of net work cost...........I will keep yall posted ty for the emails with advice and doctors names.
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New date at BTC Jan 27th to meet Julie
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1/17/03 Well I joined Weight Watchers on monday , 1 diet I have not tried I have lost 4 pounds since Tuesday They weighed me and said my weight was 271......... I will stick with it and see how it goes , but I am pretty sure I want the surgery as well , I want off my cpap.......I will keep yall posted
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1/23/03 wooooo hooooo 4 more days to my consult still wondering if its the best thing to do , found the memorial posts on obesity.com kinda freaked me out...ill keep ya posted
Hi all Just wanted to give ya a update
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1/27/03I had my consult today everything went Great found out I am not 5'2 lol I am 5'1 ok where do I start I met a women who had the surgery Open RYN at BTC in Wylie she was there for her checkup she had it done 2 weeks ago She said she was full of energy felt really good and has lost 45 pounds already ....seeing this women put me more at ease for my consult....Than I meet Brian he had to weight me do all the blood presure stuff and he was very nice asking me all my back ground stuff.....Than I met Julie Leverton she is very nice and looks so young she went over everything with me answered all my questions I feel like I have picked the right person to do this surgery, I found out they dont use staples nor will they use a drainage tube unless she has to * whew *and there is no Pysc evaluation I have to quit smoking going to start that tonight and I have to have my thyroid levels checked I gave her medical records from years back showed my thyroid was out of wack ...I left there feeling this is what I want to do mind is all set for it and all , Than I come home and want to share my exsperiance and I am told easy way out ( not by hubby he dont say much yet about it ) I feel this is not a easy way out , and to make it work you hyave to work at it....like I said I have tried all diets and I am on Weight Watchers now and yes I have lost 11 pounds in 3 weeks and will continue to stay on WW........but I also feel once I get off and sway away from the way I am eating now I will gain it all back
I fully understand this is a life changing situation and I am willing to do it and work at it ok now I have the waiting game , was told to not call about the insurance stuff for 6 weeks so the wait begins in the meantime I will take Iron Vitamins and get my Thyroid check and stop smoking.........
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2/04/03 Well got my Test results back on Thyroid today wooo hooo No problems with my Tyroid I knew my old PCP was a Quack giving me Thyroid meds and not even checking it first.....Ok I have stopped smoking been 3 days now and I dont miss it ..........yet lol
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2/11/03 Still Playing the waiting game.............nothing new going on
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2/14/03 Well I finall got a hold of BTC and found out that they assigned my case to a rep on monday!!!! so now I have another wait they said about 2 weeks maybe less to see if I am aproved or Denied
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2/20/03 OMG!!! I am so excited and so scared I have been approved !!! I came home had a message on the machine from Julie Leverton !!!!!! Approval on first letter OMG!!!!
2/24/03 ( Post been removed ) was stressed when I wrote that
I have stopped smoking but the stress at home Is making me rethink that
2/25/03 ok found out that Dr Leverton has cleared me for surgery , thats why she called me and said I was approved, but I havent been approved by my insurnace.......I am still being reviewed I guess. I am not going to call BTC or the insurance anymore , feed up ......... I am just going to get along with my life and see if the ever call me and schedual a date
2/25/03 Ok I am sitting here at home freezing my buns off due to the Ice storm we had lastnight , I didnt even go to work I dont drive in this stuff, well I did a no no I called my insurnace again after I said I would not, apparently it has been in review since Feb 18 the lady on the phone said there reviews are only supose to last a week, so she is going to give it to her supervisor and have them follow up and for me to call back tomorrow .....grrrrr and still not smoking eatting alot of carrots though lol
2/26/03 Pinch me to see if it real !!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (soory for the caps) I just have to tell ya I called UHC today again!! and they told me I was approved!!!!!!!! this time it better be the truth!!!!! I am doing the HAPPY DANCE!!!!!!
but I dont belive them and wont untill I recieve my letter !!!
they said the approved me on the 25th !!!!!!!!
2/27/02 ok here is the down side , see I STARTED a new Job 3 weeks ago, I had to tell that there was a possibility of this surgery well since I am approved I had to say something, looks like next week will be my last week there at the Job : ( I was hoping they would let me work untill the day of surgery ...guess not......But they did say I can come back once I am healed and released to go back to work ......... bad thing I dont even have a surgery date yet ..........now I am weighing the pros and cons now , whats more important
3/01/03 Well its been a long day and wow I did not get on the puter till now and its 10 pm, I cleaned house moved the livingroom around ( HUbbys hates when I do that heheheh )
my dryer went out I had to get another one and quick!! I brought that in by myself and dang it was heavy!!!!
well I still dont have a date for sugery.........so I am still waitinggggggggggggggggggg I guess I should go check my mail to see if they approval letter came............... untill lateR
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Ok god did not give me patience exspecially with me NOT SMOKING NOW !!! lol!!! Ok I called UHC today asked them when was my letter sent out. they said we sent it out on the 3/3/03 ........I am like OMG 3/3/03 what happen to 2/26/03 ........here I have been checking the mail like a mad women twice a day for that blasted letter......grrrrrrr
UHC did call and verbally said I was approved to BTC but of course BTC is waiting for that dang letter to before the proceed.
OK my good news!!! well I think so anyway ...my job is not going to let me go ...wooo hooo.....my supervisor told me today she changed her mind, she is going to make me a perm employee on the 17th instead of waiting till after my surgery , I than asked what about when I do ever get to have the surgery she said she will have me down as a medical leave of absent and I wont lose my Job !!! I told her if I was not stinky from work I would give her a hug she laughed ...well at least that worry is gone .......now I dont know what to do about the second Job I took on Fri, Sat, Sun, nights....I took that Job cause I thought I was losing the other untill after surgery......gawd I dont know if I can work 7 days a week .........Just call me Drama Qween lol j/k
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3/08/03 Got My Approval Letter in the mail today !!!!
finally!!!!!! now I need my surgery date...........Even though BTC closed on weekends I faxed that little sucker over there anyway lol !!!!
I have bought B-12 and Vit c and Carb solutions I am going to start talking them to get ready for surgery !!!!.....I also have protien samples ordered from Vitalady.com......ok next update better be my surgery DATE !!!!!
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3/10/03 Ok called BTC to make sure they got my letter that I faxed ...of course the did woooooo hooooo, now I gotta wait for schedulaing to call me and they said that would take atleast 2 weeks god this is taking forever
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3/11/03 well I had a call today from Dr Leverton, she has cleared me and everything is a go Just gotta wait for schedualing to call me and boy will that be a fun game of phone tag, I did ask for a surgery date for the end of march or first week of april , cross my fingers and hope I get it, I asked Dr Leverton if I will be prox or distal she said noooo to distal because it is to dangerous she goes in between prox and distal
dont matter to me beacause to me I will be safe in her hands and for me she is the best surgern there is for me Just my opinon I always go with my instinks......and I have no clue why I am so happy about having this surgery knowing full well I am going to be in a world of pain when its over....so I am taking my Vit c ......and she did approve it .........next update will be a surgery date untill than tata : )
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3/15/03 I am Cancelling the surgery less than 3 weeks away, I have been put in a postion that Divorce will be Filed on Friday , even though I can still go ahead with surgery but how can I recover for 4 to 6 weeks with no income and trying to find me a place to stay to recover and live, I have a Job but like I said I only started that a little over a month ago, so I would be on leave of absent with out pay ...now I wish I had made my profile without my last name , I bet my soon to be x sisterinlaw is happy dancing now .....sorry upset and dont know what to do I needed to vent been with him 14 years but we have natta, no kids nuthing
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3/16/03 Me and my daughter who is 19 from previous marriage are going to try to get a apartment together some time before April 1st and so maybe I can still have the surgery but no promises I am still going to return schedualings call and make the date on Monday, and I am not going to cancel surgery after reading a sight someone posted in forum I was surprised at what all I had on the symptons and with this surgery I can eliminate all these problems with surgery I could care less about being skinny I want to be healthy http://www.sabariatric.com/
Pulmonary - obstructive sleep apnea,
Endocrine - menstrual irregularity or infertility,
Genitourinary, , irregular menses
after reading information on the sight , I thought all I had was Obstructive Sleep Apnea and being overweight, and major problems of pain in my abdominal area, but those pains are not all the time when they happen it happens all at once and last a few hours.......My Husband loves me but we are both unhappy and have been for a while and yes I am scared to death to be alone again, he did say he will keep me on the insurance and he did say he will help me get a apartment but it will take some time ,Divorce can be nasty and I done went through a nasty one once I dont want this one to be nasty,
I found my cat *Bandit* he has been missing , I have had him 8 years I cried when I found him, My husband buried him for me
can it possiably get any worse, I tell you all everything in this sight cause you understand thanks for listening
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3/18/03 Surgery Date 4/2/03 preops 3/31/03 Told husband that surgery was on 4th he takes off 3rd and 4th and the weekend.. (Total Shock to me )now he is going to try to take off 2nd ....if he cant take off than he will Drive me there and drop me off.
we are still going through with the divorce but to my surprise he is going to let me go with the surgery and be there ..all his family interfearance is driving me insane and keeping me upset..we love each other Just not happy sorry did not mean to Vent SURGERY >>>>>>>>>>>> 04-02-2003
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3/20/03 well I changed my BMI I lost more weight without trying I guess its the stress Jan when I started this WLS journey my starting weight was 271 now this morning I weight 245
3-29-03
3/29/03 Well I had a better day yesterday when I meet Shirly Hooker, her friend Cindy and Becky Newton and Amy W all at BTC in Wylie we had a great visit,
Today a whole differnt story everything at home is the same, Just dont know why he is coming to the hospital w/me and he told me tonight he is taking off the 2nd as well ~Surgery Day~~ is it love or is Guilt that he has ???? ~~ Divorce is still going to happen and again his decision not mine,( But I am ok with it now, I am not going to spill anymore tears over it) I damn sure dont want to feel like someones Obligation . .....anyway .......all I want to do is do this surgery get heathy move out and get on with my life and never look back.
Anyway ........I took some before pic and my darn digital camera wont download them computer keeps saying the camera is not plugged in but it is, so there goes that Idea, I guess I will try the web cam if I can reamber where I packed it
Surgey day is in 4 days.......I will update again after my preadmissions on the 31st, than the next time will hopfully be when I am on the loosing side ~after surgery
NEW REASONS FOR WLS SURGERY!!
1} TO BE HEATHY
2} TO BE OFF THE CPAP MACHINE
3} TO LOOK GOOD ( ALL THOUGH I THOUGHT I LOOKED GOOD THE WAY I WAS "STRANGE HUH" )
4} TO START MY NEW LIFE OFF AS SINGLE WITH MY SELF ESTEEM BACK
3/31/03 Ok I am starting to freak out!!!!!!!!!!!
03/31 05:46 PM
Hey Everyone well I did my pats, and when it came to the heart and lung exray I was flipping out I am so afriad the will cancel my surgery due to my alergy kicking in, the exray guy talked to me for another 20 min to calm me down, here I have tried so hard for the past 3 months to not get sick and I go and do it 4 days before surgery , so far all the other bloodwork and urin test all came back good, so if they dont call me tomorrow than surgery is a go ( tomorrow the will know the results to the heart and lungs exray& Gallbladder) I am suppose to arrive at 5 am means leaving my house at 3:30 am and surgery time is 7:30 am April 2 I am first of the day because I am alergic to laytex have no clue why I gotta be first I would rather be second, they gave me a breathing spiral thingy that I have to pratice on , dang you would think I was still smoking I couldnt do it where she wanted it today cause of my alergys, ok how many times does a doc(male) have to touch your breasts to here you BREATH!!! the blood people took 5 viles of blood from me !! Scare me first time ever the were able to get it from my arm and not the top of my hand !! whewwwww I did not have to have blood gases drawn, I heard that hurts, they said my BMI was not high enough to do that........and I have gained some weight back : ( I am now 254 well it better than Jan when I was 271.....ok sorry this post is way to longgggggggggg But one last thing please keep me in your prayers , and pray they do not call me tomorrow and cancel my surgery for wensday .....Ia m so afraid something wont come back right with my lungs and heart exray due to this alergy ............Hugsssssssss everyone
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4/2/03 well it is midnight I leave for Wylie in 3 and half hours to be there by 5 am, noone called me to cancel surgery so I am good to go notice I am still awake !!! lol ok this is last post I will post again when I return home : )
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4/7/03 Well I have been home now for 2 days I cant stay on the computer for more than 10 min longer than that and I am pushing it ,And hubby comes and gets me ( he is alseep right now lol ) Thought I better get in here and update for everyone, on the day of surgery 4/2/03 my weight was 248.9 I had lost 6 pounds since 3/31/03 when I had preadmissions, my husband took me to BTC that morning I was not scared or nervous, untill I had to go get prepped, so I was in this big room talking to the most friendly person I have ever met my prep GUY and I feel really bad I cant reamber his name, he started ivs in my arm did all kinds of stuff said my surgery was at 7;30 am , answered all my questions , about 6;30 Dr Leverton came in and spoke with me for a few min , she told me that she was going to leave me on friday because her father was sick .PANICK moode set in I freaked I thought she was not going to operate on me and make DR W do it she set all my fears aside and said Dr W would see me on friday and discharge me on Sat , she wanted to make sure I was not ready to back out, I said I wasent, than she left.Than about 6;40 my husband came in the room with me, we was just a talking away about what my prep guy had told me we was laughing and all that, about that time a IV was started, and than the Loopy Medicine Guy came in lol the anesthesiologist ,, I asked him what is that another shot or is it the loopy mediciane he said naw its just something I am putting in your iv and than he turned and said something to my husband and they both laughed thats all I reamber LIGHTS OUT , the next thing I reamber is hearing someone calling my name and shaking me, I woke up crying and asking for my husband finally I seen this women and asked who the hell she was , I was put in my room about 11:30 am I was in surgery for a hour and half .
I dont reamber anything untill about 2 pm
well 2pm is when my husband decided to leave , the nurses wanted to get me up to walk and I was in so much pain I told them everytime I take a shot of morphine I feel sick they soon believed me .......My husband was blown away I guess , I reamber lots of phone calls, I am not sure who all called but there was atleast 25 calls in the first few hours after surgery my husband and his cousin told me, I did not start talking on the phone till around 5 pm.......well let me tell you what happen when the nurses got me up to walk,OMG! I got up to fast I was very dizzy and started to feel sick I accidently pushed the morphine button while I was getting up , I begin to have dry Heaves for 20 min standing beside the bed with 3 nurses and my cousin beside me , thats when I said I dont want anymore morphine and the nurses agreed, I finally went walking 1 time around the nurses station I thought I was going to die, I came back to my room and went to brush my teath and the dry heaves began again for another 10 min I never want to exsperance that again ever .I am glad my husband left I dont think he could have handled seeing that happen to me so the rest of that night was bad for me.
I gave the nurses a scare my Oxygen Leval dropped below 70 talk about a nurse freaking out the told me to not let it drop past 90 so when I would see the machine I tried to keep it about 90 by breathing but I couldnt do it so I stayed on Oxygen till Friday......
On Thursday big turn around for me I FELT GREAT!!! DEMEROL was my new best friend I got up walking around the nurses station all day doing 3 to 6 laps each time I got up to walk but I was very disapointed for gaining 10 pounds over night from the ivs. my husband arrived about 11 am and I was sitting up in a chair and had MAKEUP ON , all the nurses said I act like I did not have major surgery yesterday I was just a trucking .....I went for my leak test about 1 om and passes , than the nurses bring in 5 medicine cups 30cc and I am suppose to sip the water out of them but make each cup last 1 hour so I had to do this for 5 hours than they would let me have food, during my sipping time I had visitors Becky Newton her mom and her daughter and Ann B came to vist me we had a great visit we all was just talking away well come 6pm they brought me a tray of food , on this tray was a cup of chicken broth , popsicial, and jello, at this time my husband is going to the store to get some crosswords puzzles to keep me busy, now all day I have been active and running around untill I ate that chicken broth...I had 3 sips it tasted and smelled horriable, I dont know what happen I got chills and started feeling very sick and got very hot Becky and her mother went and got the nurse and I was being helped into bed and the dry heaves started again, when My husband got back he got very very worried and was doing whatever he could to help me, neverless the rest of the night was a crappy night I was in and out I could not stay awake long enough after that I would talk to my husband than bam I was out again, kinda like I was day of surgery this was a set back, Hubby went left to go home about 9:30pm "Friday I gained 5 more pounds due to the ivs!!! damn that is 15 pounds of fluids I gained I got my ivs taken out and bye bye Demerol hello liquid Loratab, I walked alot that day but not as much as I did Thursday I stayed away from the Broths they sent me all day was afraid to touch it
Dr Wiltsie came in for a just a sec cause my Doc is gone to her dads.....in my opinion Dr Wiltsie has a very bad bedside manner glad he was not my surgern, so I saw him for 5 min and thats it I did not even see him on Discharge day on Sat, I had a very bad exsperiance with the Breathing theripist JOHN I but I belive he losy his Job after that .......
I had 3 of the most wonderful nurses Donna , Kacie, Lori actually 4 but I cant reamber her name so if she reads this your from shreport
Ok how I am doing now........ my insicion looks really good the binder bugs me badley but I will get used to it, I am still in pain and trying to get my walking in , my husband has been really wonderfull he wont let me lift anything up he helps me with my shower he helps me with the Binder getting it back on he helps me with everything, I seen a side of him that I never thought was possiable , he was scared and still is....he never got mushy or freaked out on me I think this has brought us alot closer in a way .........but we are still going to go through with the divorce, maye just a legal seperation first and see how that goes instead of just up and throwing 14 years away, I really dont want to talk about it yet because the divorce decision was already made .
I already feel differnt from this surgery I used to be a hot natured person all the time now I am cold all the time, when I eat my 1/4 CUP broth and my less than a half of cup of jello and 1 popsical 3 times a day I get full before i can finish it
I get very tired after I eat and have to sleep
I think I am getting my water in 64oz a day, I also feel much happier have no clue why and less tempermental, I know in a few months this surgery will start paying off no more cpap and hopfully weight loss...My tummy does wierd things I can feel everything I eat go down weather its hot or cold , and I swear my stomach is growling or something it rumbles all the time I am sleeping in my own bed no need for a chair, my bed is alot easier than that hospital bed to get out of I am using my Spirometer still, and doing my coughing like I am suppose to when I left the hospital I was doing 1750 now I am up to 2500 so it gets better everday.......I dont miss food yet, but I sure did like the smell of that Fish my husband cooked tonight , it was funny what he did not eat he made sure he threw it out , he did not want me to take any chances of messing up and getting my self sick....so he put some fish in the freezer and will cook me some when I go on blended foods and I will blend that sucker up I start full liquids in 2 days , I hope I dont dump on the non fat dry milk that I bought to make some shakes with I read that my friend did some major dumping from that ...... well untill later I will keep ya posted its 2 am I better get in bed
4/9/03 well I started Full Liquids Today, I am kinda afraid to make the protien shakes that ask for skim milk, afraid to go through what I went through in the hospital dry heaves and dumping....so I am sticking with shakes made with water......my pain is pretty much gone in the incision area, but I know I am not healed up yet, I am getting bored at home , I dont go for my checkup till the 22 nd I have lost 16 pounds since Sat but the first 15 pounds do not count cause that is what I gained in the hospital from the ivs, my insicions looks great and healing good , no drainage of any kind and no sigh of any infections, I hear stories of people who gets infections urinary due to this surgery , well not me , everything is going great I had the best surgen also my Friend Don Donarchy knows what he is talking about walking and Vit c before surgery witch I did everyday till surgery day Thanks Don your the best ((((( hugs ))))))well time to go walking I will update later
4/12/03 well I can drink milk!!! but them vitalady.com protien samples all went in the trash ( hubby made me throw them away he thinks thats what made me sick ) I made a shake 2 days agao with one added water and tablespoon peanut butter and 2 tablespoons light cool whip to make a peanut butter shake well after a few sips I though yummmm but after about 7 sips I felt very sick dizzy, hot flashes ect ect I dumped it out and threw the rest of the samples away , yesterday I bought fatfree skim milk and made some sugar free pudding and tried it omg it was good and I did not get sick off the milk, I am still afraid to try the powder milk.........and I am hooked on a new soup besides the cream of chicken that Ann B got me started on I am hooked on Cream of Broc it is good. I am still loosing around 2 to 3 pounds a day I need to hide my scale every morning I get on it to weigh......I dont know if I am getting all my water in everyday but the popsicals count as fluid so I am not worried yet.....I DROVE!!! yesterday yeppers 1 week out from surgery and I drove I kinda overdid it and was wore out later, but I went and drove again this morning to the walking park to go walk and I am fine ..........I have lots of energy and my insicion looks great.....I saw alot of people yesterday and they all say I act like I never even had major surgery a week ago, they say my color looks good and everything, I am ready to go ride my 10 speed but I dont think my insides is healed just yet and hubby said no way.....This surgery has done so much for me, I seem calmer more relaxed I am not as cold as I was after surgery I guess Because Texas has finally warmed up I cant explain it , I guess I am just happier with myself for doing this , I have a goal before I go see my surgen on the 22 ( follow up) to get as close to 200 pounds as possiable I am 236 now........so wish me luck : )
4/14/03 well nothing new to report : ( I am still 236 I guess I am doing something wrong so I am going back to clear liquids instead of full liq and see if that makes a difference.......psttt I found my libido lol you read on posts that women lose there sex drive after this surgery well not me its going full steam ...yea yea I know to much info lmao
I have been walking everday and getting in my water I wonder why I havent lost any weight in 3 days ......I am still not feeling hungry at all I just make sure I do eat something 3 times a day, I dont know how I have avoided the food comercials beacause I have seen none.........well I am going to go to my first support group meeting with my friend Becky Newton tomorrow night and Becky will take some pics of me since my digital camera wont work on the pc now grrrrrrrrrr but I have pics on my yahoo profile just look for tx_bansheweb profile
well untill later time for a shower and go walking : )
4/15/03 Btc Scale at supprt meeting said I was 237.9 I havent lost any weight in 4 days now : ( something about my body going into starvation moode Ok I am throwing out the scales not going to weigh myself till Tuesday when I go to my follow with surgen ............I will keep ya posted
4/17/03 ok I lied I weighed again today still no weight loss I am standing at 237.9 now this is going on 5 days !! last night I also had a breakdown totally unexspected , I have been bouncing around happy camper having no problems went to the game room lastnight with Husband and his aunt was there I guess she was on PMS or something because I was attacked from get go, my defense moode kicked in, she did not like my tone she said, well of course I was standing up to her....I called my daughter to come and get me so my husband can stay longer but to my surprise he hopped up and said lets go he knows how his family can get I guess he was protecting me , as soon as we was outside I let my gaurd down and cried everything came crashing down , we was up till 2 am, well I was cause I could not sleep worrying why she attacked me and worrying why I have not lost any weight in 5 almost 6 days what am I doing wrong, he was up at 2 am worrying about me .....it Just seems since so many people in his family know that we are infact going to seperate and eventually divorce that it is time to bash me you would think after 14 years in there family that they would grow up and stop bashing people but than again this family is the reason I went into a shell and my self esteem took a long vacation...when I really should of got out years ago but did not cause I would not let them run me off........Well my self esteem is back and I am happier than I have ever been I guess cause I know I did the right thing with the surgery and his family dont like it when someone else is happy they never have , my husband has seen the changes this surgery has done to me and there all good , and he said he likes the changes ( not all of them read next line ) lastnight I think he relizes now that I feel like I can do without him and I have told him that I also told him I know the seperation is going to happen as soon as I get recovered and back to work and I have finally accepted it and am ready to move on with my life....Thing is I dont think he wants me to move on without him.....but it is my choice now , and starting over without the twisted minds of his family will be the best thing for me ..........I know I ramble on here but writing this down makes me feel alot better I guess this is my journal even though it is a online Journal I will update again when I have some weight loss to report .....
4/22/03 well I lost 4 pounds this morning finally after 12 days no loss so as a total by BTC is -16 not including my water weight, Dr Leverton says that is good that I am doing really well, I get to go back to work on monday woooo hooooo
also I seen Ann today she looks really great , I also meet another lady who I reamber seeing while I was in the hospital and she looked really good as well. I also met Hallie Miles today she is so nice we had lunch I had mashed potatoes we was cheap dates lol...........now my great news
My daughter had her baby at 1:21 this morning a baby boy 7 pounds 21 inches long and very very very very cute!!!
so I am now a first time nana feels wierd .........
4/26/03 Hello all , well as of today I am -22 from the surgery and -45 since Jan but only the surgery weight counts so I am -22 , I am a slow loser I guess , I also can not get my water in at all but I am trying, I tried chinese food today there was only 2 kinds that was not sweet MooGiPan ( spelled wrong ) and another that has mushrooms in it 4 bites I was full so I know I have 2 maybe 3 more meals left out of the pound I bought lol
my surgern says If I can tolerate it than I can eat it just chew chew chew also I found the sportcookie and the protocookie ( I dont dare try to eat that yet ) I found them at "The Smoothie Factory " in Denton Tx they also have Detour Bar and the Uturn Bar.....also last time I was there they made me a smoothie made with Isopure protien powder It was ok , but this time I asked what sugars they use and they use Turbinado Sugar .yes yes yes we are allowed that so I had them make me a regular smoothie I had strawberry patch without the honey and omg!!! it was good !!! well that is my updates for today untill later ....ohhh I also bought the sugar free peanut butter cups.......there ok
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4/30/03 Home today Not feeling so hot , I am having problem with water for some reason yesterday I could not drink it acted like it was going to come back up felt crappy all day had a little bit of tuna at break around 10 3 bites still felt crappy than at lunch I ate 4 bites of roast beef and my energy finally came back and I felt better the rest of the day , I drank sugar free tang all day yesterday at work that seem to go down ok
Can not figure out why I am not going pee on a regualar basis , I drank over 60 oz of water on monday but only went tinkle 2 times that day at 6 am when I got up and 8:30 that night same thing yesterday..woke up this mornning with a splitting headache ( I never get headaches ) and feeling blah
I guess I better call my surgern to make sure I am not dehydrated or retaining water .....I damaged my ulnar nerve in my left arm on monday I guess I over did it at work Dr Wiltse surgern on call that night told me that is what I had to of done, arm is still numb not as bad as it has been the last 2 days..........next update Husband came home lastnight of course he had been drinking and just wanted to be mr ass again, I knew it was just a matter of time for him to go back to his old self he was looking for a fight and man was he trying but he did not find one with me ....I am not sure what this surgery did to me but I am not the same person I was before surgery so many people has noticed this I am alot calmer alot happier and more relaxed..Husband said He thinks it was all the drugs that I was on at the hospital maybe they have not worn off and it will be a matter of time than I will be back like I was ....is he stupid or what ???????? anyone want to trades lives for a day with me ????????
Hopfully I will be moved out by June 1st that is the date I am pushing for and divorced by September all my choice now , new me , new life without all the Bullshit
5/1/03 YEEEEEHAAAAAAA as of today I am -50 pounds lost 1 pound yesterday when I was sick I went to work today and managed to go all day still had stomach cramps but I think I rehydrated myself now drank tons of tea w/splenda my goal now is to be at 200 or under 200 by May 21 when I go to Whylie for my checkup or by the 20th when me and Becky go to the support meeting In Wylie god we need to find a closer meeting lol so I have 19 days to get it in gear went from a 26 to 20 in Jeans and my 20s are falling off of me took full body pics today will post when developed.......Oh I have Boobs lol wonder where they went j/k : ) I have been getting several comments from people at my work I need to start wearing shorts but my legs might blind someone so I guess I better start my tanning again
will update again soon : )
5/5/03 Well I lost 4 more pounds makes me 220.and the best news I am in a size 16 pants!!! omg I havent wore 16 in 4 years size 10 here I come when I get to size 10 I will be at my goal 26 to 16 not bad so I am loosing inches mostley at the moment .......Next Update I am so ready to start my newlife July 1st when I move out.Even though me and Hubby had a very long talk lastnight the seperation is still going to happen , reamber before surgery he did not want me anymore witch is true AND I will reamber that... and now he does not want to loose me , and like I have said before I dont want someone to want me because of all the changes that are happening with me , I want someone to want me for me ......Also if my friend is reading this your very special to me already and thankyou for being there for me and I hope you continue to be I do keep to what I say : ) x0x0 >> SAS
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5/11/03 Well my Platue begins again but it happened same time last month but than I went 13 days with no weight loss I hope I dont go that long again ....must be coming close to my cycle time , so I am upping my excerzies and see what happens I am loosing inches all over feeling bones again in certain places
I am trying to drink 3 protien shakes a day, did not have much energy lastweek, hopefully I will get that back soon
I did get dehydrated very badley 2 weeks ago went back to work and to early I think wow checked myuhc.com a few days ago seen what the bills are going to be for this surgery all I can say is wow but I would do the surgery all over again
will update again when I have something to report
5/15/03 Well nuthing new to report except The bills are being turned into insurance, I myself hve not recived any yet , but I have found out my insurnce has paid 100& on most of it and 80 percent on the rest here is a brief summery and I know Dr Levertons Part for what I seen 51, thousand has not came accross But I did see it pending on my insurance sight unless I was seeing things
Surgery $4810.00 insurance paid 100%
Asst Surgery $ 880.00 insurance paid 100%
Anesthesia $1900.00 insurance paid 80% total of $1652.00
Radiology $ 138.00 insurance paid 80% total of 43.26
Consultation $ 515.00 insurance paid NUTHING I thought the consultation was 85.00 witch I did pay where did 515.00 come from????
I am sure there is more to come I will keep ya posted
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5/18/03 Yippeeeeee broke my almost 3 week platue ( Wednesday would have been 3 week plat ) lost 3 pounds this morning now I am in the teens , this is the key that worked for me SHRIMP !! I ate nothing but seafood Sat and took leftovers home and snacked on it all day long...so Today I ate seafood again lol all day long lets see if I am lighter in the morning........and tonight at groceries I bought SHRIMP !! grrrrrrr watch me get burned out quick lol
L O S E R ^^^^ BA D BAD BAD ^^^^
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Well its been a bad week rained all day yesterday so I did not feel like driving the 75 miles to Wylie plus I messed up and bruised my knee pretty bad at work, but whats even worse is my 8 week checkup.......do not eat SHRIMP!!! unless it is Boiled not FRIED , aparently I thought I could tolerate fried food because I did not get sick when I ate it...so here I went and was eating Chinesse Food ( lots of fat content I did not know ) and had problems days later with bowels I did not think anything of it thought it was something else, well so I ate some other fried stuff and ate lots of fried Shrimp this past weekend and Boiled shrimp, And Shrimp Scampi seems like I did some grazing as well lost 3 pounds but than YES belive it or not, to me I gained 5 pounds back withing 2 days weight now by BTC is 222.7 so really I gained 2 I guess
Dr Leverton said I was doing wonderful on my weight loss, thing is I dont see how , others who are 2 months out has lost alot more than me all the good part I have done is go from a size 26 to a 16 in 6 weeks and my 16s are loose now but I still am not under 200 pounds yet and I am very discouraged, and after asking for my before pic that Dr Leverton took Jan 27 on my consultation , it about made me sick!!! I dont even look nothing like that anymore and I am so glad I will never look like that again I still have a ways to go , but now I know why I never took that many pictures in the past of me .
Well I have learned a valuable lesson stay away from fried foods .
I have a new pic in my profile and Fat pics and full body pics on my yahoo profile in the yahoo photo album tx_bansheweb
I will have my newest pics for 8 weeks hopfully this weekend all full body to see the differnce in my 16 jeans hugsssss everyone
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5/22/03 Woke up this morning and weighed I lost 7 pounds for real I really did !!!!!! scale says 215.......water gain , thank god for the monthlys lol.......ate dinner tonight I had a 2 oz grilled hamberger Patty, and it got stuck was not a good feeling I still am not sure what happen but I had to make it come back up not a good feeling I thought I was going to have to go to the emergency room or something... me and hamberger are not going to get along...this is the first time I have actually gotten sick : (
5/28/03 Been Dumping alot lately and the lastest thing SUGAR FREE peanut butter cookies 9 pounds away from first goal of reaching 200 pounds, next goal is to loose the other 50 by september that is 5.5 pounds a week ya think I can do it ? lol
6/1/03 Still fighting the last 9 pounds to my first goal, I have upped my water intake and upped my excerzize and the scales not moving!!! went to look for shorts today cause mine are almost 3 sizes to big now lol , took a look at my rear in the mirror and thought where did it go !!! my butt flattened but looks wider like this yikesssss, I just hope it gets curvy or I have a butt after this ....I do not like how my butt looks now or my thighs but than again I did not like them before surgery so I guess I better take one or the other ......I am loosing inches all over , I finally found the right bra for support and LIFT cost me 40 bux but it is well worth it ..found out my boobs did not shrink so I am still a 42 they just needed lifted up lol the lady at Victoria secreat measured me
anyway hope the next update will be me screaming that I am finally at 200, I havent weighed 200 in 5 years , after I get there 50 more to go to make me happy but not to my goal weight .
6/9/03 WOOOOO HOOOOOO I did it but not without sweating my behind off this past weekend I finally lost them darn 9 pounds gives me a total of -50 since surgery, I been working out at the GYM in town for a hour a day on the weekend mainley on the treadmill, I walked a mile and half tonight was up to 2 miles but I have slacked there ,seems I like the treadmill better ( can watch tv lol ) walking I only see trees lol I can not wait till I move in with my roomate in July than we can work out everynight in the gym ...But I am more proud of the total weight loss of 71 pounds since march, I feel so much better, I have more energy that I do not know what to do with it , my skin looks so much healthier I feel so much better overall . my nails are growing they have never grew like this before unless I get my nails done ( fakes lol)
I did find a new protien powder it is isopure is has 50 grams of protien no sugar no carbs no fat and taste great I add strawberry to the mix for some more flavor , Now I have to work on the next 50, seems like it gets harder and harder so All I can do is work out work out and sweat it off untill the next update.............
6/18/03 Well No weight loss to report : ( I went swimming all day sunday been working out and walking and still no weight loss, but I have been grazing but I am trying to get myself back on track with 6 small meals a day now , I think it is stress...
, I wish I was already at my goal weight , but it took 8 years to get as big as I was lets hope it takes less than a year to get me compleatly small again I am over halfway there : )I changed my 3 month checkup from July 1st to July 24, Had to change my primary care Doc cause he is OLD , he dont know anything about my surgery and when I asked him to do my blood work he said he did not want to .....go figure ....
6/21/03 Wow this has been a hard week, I had the worst cycle ever , seems since surgery I get cramps now and they hurt so bad nearly makes me sick makes my mind play tricks, I think I am under 200 now I have been Down since last friday But I feel 90% better today I am getting myself back on track, I did not eat the last 2 days nor did I drink any water maybe 1 20oz bottle .But I guess it is time to get myself up and out of this depression stage or whatever it may be .I did this surgery for me noone else , so now it is time to lookout for only me , I was scribbling some stuff on paper the other day , my passion in life a long time ago was poetry I wrote what came to mind and how I felt, I believe I am going to start doing that again I am thinking if I put down what I feel things will be so much better.
another thing
I think maybe I should have went to the support group meeting Tuesday I heard it was on Relationships but than again what good would that have done me .....well next update hopfully will be a weight loss report and me a more happy camper
6/25/03 Well lost 4 more pounds yippee!!! under 200 pounds hot dam lol.........problem now my hair has been slightly shedding I have been finding it everywhere not alot but some , my week has gotten so much better than a few days ago , today is the 25 th has several meanings for me, : )
I move in to my new life and apartment July 25 so I have 4 weeks to go , I wont say I am not scared because I am a little leaving a relationship after 14 years , but its the best thing to do.....and I am tough and I will survive hey I survived the surgery Right untill next time
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7/02/03 Well it has been 3 months now since my surgery, surgery weight 254 I have lost 59 pounds of that and 21 pounds before surgery a total now of -80 pounds .
Do I feel better ??? well that depends on what day of the week it is ...I do feel alot better but every day seems like a struggle, when I am at work I drink 6 to 7 20oz bottles of water in a 12 hour day that is 140oz of fluid a day but where is it going ? I am not peeing it out like I should, not in the last 2 days anyway I also eat 6 times a day when I am at work every 2 hours weather its a full meal or just a piece of cheese....but when I am off work I am lucky if I eat 2 meals or drink 1 bottle of water , I am excerzizing doing what I am supose to do, TOday I did not, I am hurting today In lower tummy Like I have a kidney infection or something and god knows I drink way to much water that I should not have any type of infections ,lower tummy is swollen and hurts .. I am still afraid to drink 100% juices because of the sugar in them , and I dont know how many times I have been told it is safe , I still wont touch them, I finally ate a piece of toast with peanut butter on it , it was good I did not get sick.
I can go without my cpap machine for maybe a day or 2 now and have no problems at all , but for some reason at night when I am wearing the mask I stop breathing * compleatly stop * my mouth comes open and the air comes out and I am not breathing, I have been told this several times by my Husband , he comes in the room and wakes me up when he hears the air, on the nights tis happens I am so tired all day just feel compleatly dragged , I am wondering if the machine needs to be adjusted higher,....but I also thought loosing weight would get me off the cpap.................ok enough whinning
NOW THE GOOD THINGS ABGOUT HAVING THIS SURGERY
My butt is alot smaller
My calves are smaller
My waist is smaller
My face is smaller
My skin Looks and feels better
My tummy is smaller
My legs are smaller
I no longer have a double chin it is compleatly gone
I feel better about myself
I am much happier and upbeat ( except the down days )
I went from a tight size 26 to a size 16 in 4 weeks
I went from a 3 & 4 x shirts to a xlarge at regular clothing stores
I seem calmer ( I told everyone I had brain surgery lol)
I dont drink 3 44 oz cokes a day anymore
I dont eat 2 doubles cheesburges a day anymore ( not in same etting)
I do not stress eat anymore if I do it is a sugar free popsical
I do not smoke anymore
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This surgery comes along with alot of changes lifetime of changes, but it is so well worth it and If I had to do it over agian I would in a heart beat no matter the risks
7/09/03 well I have decided my husband is insane !! I do not stop breathing in my sleep , I am thinking he wanted to scare me because I am moving still in 16 days
OMG I fit in a large shorts, they fit good and my butt looked good lol...I wish the weight would come off faster and it will when I move because than I will have full access to a gym everyday and a pool ..........time for me to learn soon not to depend on anyone but myself ..take me as I am or move on
my 3 month lab work is next Friday, I have not been very good on taking my suplements so hopfully everything will come out ok
well untill the next update
7/13/03 I have discovered more bones !!!! pelvic bones, hip bones thigh bones butt bones ( lol did not know we had butt bones lmao) woooo hooo my poor butt shrinking away kills me when I sit to long but hey thats a good thing!! Looking forward to meeting Dawna on the 24th on my checkup .........wow that is also my moving day ......still can not figure out why i am retaining my water......have lab work this Friday 18, kinda worried.....will update than
7/22/03 well I am starting to move tomorrow weight is now 185 hopfully it will start coming off quicker after the move
8/03/04 Hello everyone, I had my 3 month check up July 24th well should have been 4th month.....everything checked out perfect with my lab results, My colesterol is " 110 Dr Levertone said she wished hers was at that , I am not anemnic I am perfectly healthy she said .
My weight is still at 185 I am on a platue from hell, I also have been stress eating but it is sugar free popsicals a box of 24 in 2 days OMG lol
I have moved so I guess I better start hitting the gym, but for some reason I am in no hurry anymore to get the weight off ....I do not see what the point is , I have plenty of time I have lost 86 pounds all total and I am happy with that , however I do have 40 more to loose to be where I want to be and where I will be happy at , My skin is going back to how it is suppose to be , I am not getting bat wings , as for my stomach it is going back how it is suppose to be , so far ....
I turn 37 tomorrow I am so dreading that ........I do not go back to BTC untill April my 1 year checkup.......I also have chosen Dr Capps now because Dr Levertone is leaving I am going to miss her , she told me why she is going and I do not blame her 1 bit......well untill next update byeeeee
8/14/03 Not much to report Loosing hair like crazy , I have new pictures up but there in my yahoo photo album tx_bansheweb is the profile page my weight is 176 only have a few pounds to go to hit -100 ...having this surgery has been great ...... But it does not solve everything .
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10/15/03 Wow it has been a while since I have been here , alot is going on so I will update ya
The hair loss has stopped pretty much , I now weigh 162 pound I am in a size 12 , I can fit and zip up a size 10 put there slightly tight so I will wear the 12s till they fall off of me , I am wearing a large shirt instead of 3 xs I feel great , some foods do not agree with , I still have to throw up when something does not get chewed well , and I can not drink a Strawberry Frozen Margretta .....I dumped big time and only after 4 sips , funny thing though I can drink a regualr frozen margretta but only 3 oz and not get sick, so It must have been the strawberry mix ........I am having no problems with sagging skin, maybe some in my tummy but not as much as I was worried about , I forgot to go get my 6 month lab work done so if my surgen reads this ..... I am in trouble but good news on my 3 month checkup my cholestrol was 110 and all my labs came back perfect .....I have 30 more pounds to go to be wear I want to be , heck I will settle for 20 more to loose , I know longer wear my cpap machine , and I feel great!!! untill next update and I promise it wont be forever the next time
so all total loss since I started this process is ............. 109 pounds
11/2/03 am 152 pounds now 11 pounds away from when I was 130 pounds overweight , Feeling the hunger coming back .....trying very hard to watch what I eat and if I feel hungry I still eat sugar free popsicals like there going out of style lol
12/1/03 weight now is 146 I am in a size 10, so far I only lose weight now once a month , I am fine with where my weight is now and if I did not drop another pound that would be fine as well , although I still have 11 pounds to go where I want to weigh, Heck with getting to 125 I think that would make me look to skinny, and I did not do this surgery to get skinny agin , I did it to get healthy again, I have new pictures to post in here soon , I have my before and after photos up now
until next update ........
02/05/2004 Well it has been a while since I have been here alot has been going on with my life , but healthwize I am doing good , I finally lost 6 pounds been on a platue from Hell I guess , I have moved From Texas to California and now to Oregon
Hopefully will be back to Texas soon
I now weigh 140 and everything is fine , I have lost more inches my Size 10s are way to loose for me and my medium shirts are to big , I really do not want to loose any more weight I am happy where I am although another 10 pounds would be better , but I think I should stay right where I am , I have christmas pictures but I dont have them saved on computer, I will see what I can do to get them in here ........well until later
2/15/04 Well lost 5 more pounds been a while actually lost the last 5 and this 5 in one week , due to alot of stress
2 weeks ago, finally catching up on my sleep , havent been sleeping all that much , I am trying to eat more so I wont loose anymore weight , ........but hey thats life I guess
Life was going pretty good untill nosey people like to cause problems, guess I rattled on enought ........life can not get any worse right now ..........or can it
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2/28/04 Hello yall, guess what I am in a size 7 !!! Rockies at that !! Size 7 can you belive it !!! I was like wow !!! I have not been a size 7 since I was 16........ and hopfully holding at 132
03/15/04 Well I have tried to stay at 132, but I lost more weight I weigh now 128......I have not been eating nor have I been drinking my fluids , I started taking all my vitamins to keep my energy up and keep my stomach from hurting., I have not been sleeping.....I guess I moved into A Depressed state due to relationship problems ..........how am I going to get out of this funk...life is full of mystery and nosey people who like to cause problems
I do not regret having the surgery because I no longer have the medical problems I once had but I do not want to loose any more weight but I guess I have no control over it ....I thought I did ..........The surgery has changed me I am so much calmer.......untill certain someone can push my buttons ........... I have so much patience but a person has there limits .......well I ranted enough....I am going to update with more recent pictures soon . well untill next update
******** 1 YEAR OUT UPDATE *******
04-06-04 Hello everyone wow I have been on a hell of a journey
I had my surgery 1 year ago 4 days ago , I have lost a grand total of 145 pounds, I am little all over I am in a size 6, I have very little loose skin in my tummy , everything else is tight .... I myself think I am to skinny I have not been in a size 6 since I was 16 years old ............. I am healthy I have none of the medical problems I used to have ........sometime I think I need the cpap machine ..but I am not using it cause I do not have it with me , I have been through alot of changes this past year
some good changes and some very bad changes ...The good changes are ........I am much calmer, much happier, much healthier I do not miss cokes ( lol ) I can not stand hambergers anymore , I love splenda ( lol ) I have more energy than I know what to do with I have not been to my year update yet but will be there soon .......... The bad changes in my life you all know I did seperate from my husband ( His Choice ) and I did file for Divorce ( My Choice).......than met someone new........bigggggg mystake .........I have never been played, cheated on ,constantly lied to before in my life ....and before my surgery I would have never let someone like that in my life ........so I blame the surgery for me being to nice now .. well next time I update will be after I go see my surgern...Oh Take a look at my Friend Becky Newtons home page she looks Great!!!!
Shirley Hooker you look great also!!!! love ya both
06/29/04 Well I have returned to Texas , I am very Happily Divorced , I weigh now 123 pounds and Just Bought my first actual brand new pair of Jeans that I know in 2 weeks I will not have to give them away .......drum roll I am in a size 4 woo hoo Levis I can fit in a 3'4 but prefer to stick with 4..I still try and drop 5 pounds each month when My monthy comes, so 2 weeks before good ol monthly shows up I try very hard to eat more so I can gain 3 pounds and belive it or not it works , that away I really am just loosing 2 pounds instead of 5 ....did that make since ...........I seem to be eating somedays a bit more and some days just a few bites fill me up,.......a little box of tic tacs fill me up............My boyfriend thinks tic tacs should be bad for me cause I am addicted to them lol...I dumped very badley on Braums new Low Carb SUGAR FREE iceream a few weeks ago, and it was made with Splenda.......I think there was something else in it as well, because I uses splenda for everything and I never dumped on splenda before, before the dumping happened all day I was so full of energy went to Turner Falls Oklahoma climbed the cliffs never broke a sweat had tons of fun but once I dumped I was totally drained went from full of energy to nothing took everything I had to drive home called in at work and slept it off, had to pull over a few times to walk around to wake up I got very sick on Ham in a salad the other day, must of been Honey ham . I still have to be very careful on what I eat .....I used to love brussle sprouts but they dont agree with me any more : ( I have not had any more gallbladder pains latley, the only time it would act up is when I would get stressed out , and since the Divorce there has not been any more stress nor pain ....nope still I have not gone to my year update with surgen I know bad me , but it is almost 15 months out...........I guess I really should go see the surgern
I have no more hair loss at all , and I actually eat right now ......boyfriend makes sure of that...in Oregon all I would eat is cream of wheat, wheat Thins and microwaveable Burritos for the 3 months I was there, thats all I wanted ...now I eat 3 meals a day .......Breakfast knocks me out every time puts me to sleep, have no idea why maybe it is the egg..
Had to go to the DMV to get a new picture made Dmv lady was shocked and said that can not be u ....I said yeppers it is me
well I will update another time ......bye for now
08/31/04 well it has been a while since I have posted here, guess I better update, I now weigh 119 pounds, and having some problems, not sure what it is and really can not go get it checked out, tummy swells up and hurts like hell when I eat anything, or when I am stressed out..
10/11/2004 I am a size 1 now, have no idea what I weigh but I have lost 2 more pant sizes since August, alot has happened in the past 2 months, all is good , working 2 JObs working on a 3rd I have to do something with all this energy.
made my first trip to emergency room a few weeks ago over my tummy , was put back on medication 'Zantac" stomach has been fine since, now can not eat spicy foods anymore , can eat a bit more at times now but I am watching it , Question how can I put on some weight ??? would be nice if I could put back on at least 15 pounds.........but if I had to do the surgery all over again , I would do it in a heartbeat..........well untill next update
10/27/04 96 pounds and holding size 0 and 1
03/15/2005 Hello all , well forced myself to get a checkup , been falling asleep alot very fatigued , found out I am Anemic so He has me on Iron meds and back on Zantac, holding weight between 119 and 125 goes back and forth I am in a size 0 and sometime a 1 but likes to wear my comfy clothes size 3 and 4 cus there so baggy : )
no longer working 7 days a week 13 hour days , to hard on my body so I am told .
My Sister Deana Robben is having her surgery soon so check out her profile and wish her the best of luck
You would think after 2 years things would get some what easier , but you still have to watch what you eat , and again if I had to do it all over again I would in a heart beat
I have tried to update with latest photo if it is not in here u can check it out on my yahoo profile tx_bansheweb
2 years out coming up April 2 , hard to believe it has been 2 years already
anyway till next update
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07/28/2005 added more on 08/28/05 wow exactly one month
Wow it has been a while since I updated in here , 1st of all my sister is doing very well now : )
well I am maintaining my weight between 119 to 125 , not having any problems here , just glad I will nev
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