Udnevaknoe
I had a baby boy!!
Aug 12, 2009
So i havent posted any updates here...so now i suppose would be a great time!! I had a healthy baby boy in July :) he is such a perfect baby (knock on wood). I am only 14lbs from where i was be4 i got pregnant...which is great....and im still alittle swollen from the C Section so im sure that when this all gets settled ill be able to go walking and exercising to get this extra weight off. Things are alittle stressful being a full time/ 1st time mom...but im loving every single minute of it!!
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Anxiety...not good i guess with WLS
Apr 07, 2008
So i have been under MAJOR pressure lately. Yet EVERYONE always thinks i can handle ANYTHING...so this outter exterior of me handling it well...is just a show!! 3 Jobs...no DOWN time AT ALL and when i do have an hour or two...its spent at the gym. My tuesdays that my fiance an i used to spend together are now filled with nuthing to do an me twiddling my thumbs being angry that he actually took hours on the ONE day we had off together!! yes that is right...i managed to get tuesdays off from allll of my jobs! so that way our relationship is not going down the drain!!! All the wedding planning...yea on MY shoulders! like i have NUTHING else to do with my time...his parents are RUINING this whole experience for us an im having ALOT of animosity twds them! isnt that terrible!! i used to be this happy go lucky person...an now...im jus so uptight and not myself and i hate it! we are moving in less then 2months...an we have some stuff to try an move and yet I AM the one who is stuck tryin to figure out when we can make the 4.5 hr drive and who can come and what we are bringing. Isnt that supposed to be shared equally in a relationship?! why do i feel like i am getting stuck with everything?!?!?! Ok i get it his dad is sick....but WTF! idk maybe im being selfish who knows. all i know is my anxiety is causing me to not eat correctly....im gettin shaky all the time! im not eating any well balanced meals...instead im picking at every and anything. I have not lost a single fucking lb in like 3 weeks {exageration im sure....i dont hop on the scale too often...i find it discourages me when it duznt move!} im losing inches....that i know cuz none of my pants fit. making my going out at nite HARD as hell cuz i have 2pair of jeans that fit and no pants at all!! an i dont do laundry EVERY week cuz i dont have time!!! ::sighs:: i am jus in so much need of relaxation that i wanna cry just thinking bout all the shit i have to do still. Ok well yea....thats it.
I have an addiction
Mar 20, 2008
To the gym! haha. I have been going very faithfully for the last 2 weeks. about 4-5x a week....its amazing that im fitting it in between all 3 jobs...but i have been! and im LOVING it. Its amazing how much u love sumthing when u can actually see the results. Before id go to the gym...but when ur eating the same things and going to the gym it kinda cancels each other out...so i never seen results...NOW..i can actually see my calf muscles and my stomach forming {well i say forming cuz i still carry alot of fat around my mid section...HATE it. haha}
Its wierd though....i can actually RUN for a little bit....but my sutures start to throb....so i stop. Normal or not!? im thinking not....but my DR did say that up to 6months take it easy on working out....so maybe thats the reason?! idk. but i just figure ill keep doing my 1-3 hr workouts of cardio and we will go from there.
Wedding is approching quicker than ever....gotta try an look my best!! haha. I must say this is a great addiction to have!! haha.
Its wierd though....i can actually RUN for a little bit....but my sutures start to throb....so i stop. Normal or not!? im thinking not....but my DR did say that up to 6months take it easy on working out....so maybe thats the reason?! idk. but i just figure ill keep doing my 1-3 hr workouts of cardio and we will go from there.
Wedding is approching quicker than ever....gotta try an look my best!! haha. I must say this is a great addiction to have!! haha.
IM SOOO PYSCHED!!!!
Mar 06, 2008
Omg!!! i cant believe it....i fit into a size 10!! lol atleast in my wedding gown that it is! but thats okay ill take it!! haha i wish my pants were that size...but for now im still at a 12 cuz i have thunder thighs!! haha. my waist loses it but my thighs havent cought up! but i will not complain....im so super excited im in normal sizes!!! i find myself telling everyone what size i am with no shame!!
but the most exciting news ever is when i tried on my size 12 dress and it wus too big!!! god that made my whole entire day!!!
YAY
but the most exciting news ever is when i tried on my size 12 dress and it wus too big!!! god that made my whole entire day!!!
YAY
6months today!
Feb 20, 2008
So today was my 6month check up....didnt do any of the bloodwork i thought they were gonna do...i guess that is at a year.
I found out why it is that i go into a sudden state of shock and need to eat sumthin RIGHT away....apparently its either i ate sumthin prior to that reaction my body didnt like OR its because im not eating enough!
My dr also told me NOT to keep focusing on my protein....told her how its consuming most of my time tryin to figure out what im gonna eat next....sooo GOOD to hear her say that my intake of 40 or so g is enough....
Everything went pretty well....i am 10lbs above where im supposed to be....which is AWESOME since i have not been exercising at all....so i thought id be WAY behind! haha. but nope...im down 60lbs....and i have a mear 50 to go! lol hopefully after this wedding i can get more focused!!
ok well thats all for today!
I found out why it is that i go into a sudden state of shock and need to eat sumthin RIGHT away....apparently its either i ate sumthin prior to that reaction my body didnt like OR its because im not eating enough!
My dr also told me NOT to keep focusing on my protein....told her how its consuming most of my time tryin to figure out what im gonna eat next....sooo GOOD to hear her say that my intake of 40 or so g is enough....
Everything went pretty well....i am 10lbs above where im supposed to be....which is AWESOME since i have not been exercising at all....so i thought id be WAY behind! haha. but nope...im down 60lbs....and i have a mear 50 to go! lol hopefully after this wedding i can get more focused!!
ok well thats all for today!
lost some more
Feb 13, 2008
So its been about a week....an ive lost another 4 lbs....yet i decided to consume alot of alcohol with my friends this weekend and gained it all back! im at 176 right now;...and in shock about the amount of liquor i consumed!!!!
a whole entire bottle of arbor mist BY MYSELF and 6 jello shots....all of it in my little pouch....and yet didnt even get DRUNK! normal?! i think not.
a whole entire bottle of arbor mist BY MYSELF and 6 jello shots....all of it in my little pouch....and yet didnt even get DRUNK! normal?! i think not.
My progress
Feb 07, 2008
I know i havnt been exericising anywhere NEAR what im supposed to be! but when u work 3 jobs and try and squeeze a relationship with someone u DONT live with in a full day....its HARD
I have been reading everyones post and it seems like im WAY behind...and that sucks cuz i thought i wusnt doing THAT bad.
WAS: 232
NOW: 179
duznt really seem like that much when i look at it....geez
I have been reading everyones post and it seems like im WAY behind...and that sucks cuz i thought i wusnt doing THAT bad.
WAS: 232
NOW: 179
duznt really seem like that much when i look at it....geez
About Me
MA
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25.7
BMI
Surgery
08/20/2007
Surgery Date
Feb 05, 2008
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