kristine V.
tomorrow is the day
Jan 16, 2011
i am so excited. somehow, i've managed to survive this liquid diet. i haven't cheated once and i'm in shock. granted, i had to throw pizza in the garbage disposal last night to keep myself from eating what was left of it but that's because i was essentially taunted with it by five children spending the night at my house all night on friday. not that they meant to do it, but just eating it while i sat there was torture enough. thankfully, all but three slices from three boxes of pizza were left when i got home from work last night. those were soaked in water and soap and went into the garbage disposal. i've been really good about dealing with food over the last two weeks but it's so much worse when it's in my face continuously like it was on friday.i'm not scared of the procedure itself. no, that doesn't scare me. i have complete faith in my surgeon and my body so i think i'll be okay. plus, i apparently have a lot of people praying for me even though i'm not the religious type and for some reason, that's a comfort to me. what i'm scared of is getting to the hospital and being told by my surgeon that he's not going to do it for one reason or another. that is terrifying. why would that happen? i don't know but i'm scared that it will. i want this so badly and i think my body is already starting to like...fail on me. last night and today, my feet have been hurting SO much after standing up for long periods of time and it's happened before but not when i'm just doing things around the house. it's crazy and i hate it. i want it to stop. it's like my body knows there's going to be relief and it's done. i don't blame it. i'm done too. i'm so sick of this life i'm living that i just want to be healthy and feel good about myself.
wish me luck. let's hope january 17, 2011 is the day my life changes.
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01/17/2011
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Feb 21, 2008
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