vanessa M.

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Sorry I have not updated in awhile (to those who read this). I visited my parents in Ohio at Christmas and then last week I worked almost 60 hours between my 2 jobs of subing at the high school and working at GameStop so I have been completely exhausted!!

I have an appoitment with Dr King on Thursday this week. I am hoping he does an adjustment because I have felt like I have been eating like a pig since CHristmas!!

my period!!! ..

This is my second period (going on a full week now..has not happened in ages) since I had my Lap Band. I am craving and eating everything from chocolate to drinking Coke (which I know is bad!!)

I have not exercised at all this week. I swim 5 times a week and because of having cramps I have not gone at all!! I feel like a bloated pig right now.. ug!!! I can't wait for this cycle to STOP so I can get back to normal!!!

I am so in bandster hell and it is driving me insane. I am stuck at 29.5 pounds gone and have not lost anymore. I took Progesterone to bring on my cycle thinking I was maybe bloated. My cycle came and I lost those few pounds of water I was holding on to but now I am stuck again.

I also had Implanon implanted in my arm so I will not get pregnant until next year when I can get it removed. The doctor told me it should not cause weight gain and if it does I am surely going to get it taken out, I did not go through surgery to have birth control mess up my goals.

I see Dr. King again this month, maybe he will give me another fill because I have barely any restriction at all even though I do eat alot less then I have before surgery, I just want to feel it!!

I do feel restriction in the morning time and my throat makes funny noises when I drink something so that is a start!

I rejoined the gym last week. I am doing water aerobics 2 times a week and playing water volleyball 2 times a week. I am going to start going to an additional exercise class every day starting next week so I will be exercising 2 times a day, about 2 hours a day.. if I can get my butt out of the house and get there!!!!

I am feeling more energetic since I have lost 25 pounds, I wish I would start losing again.. I am going up and down on the same 3-5 pounds every week. Believe this is called Bandster Hell!!

I see my doctor again on the 20th and I am going to tell him I need another fill since I do not feel much restriction at all from my 1st.

Today is 1 week post op since having my Lap Band surgery. I am feeling pretty good. I do not have 100% of my energy back but I have been able to go to the grocery store today and pick up a few things and bought my hubby his birthday present.

My sister finally was released from the hospital and is now at home with my parents. Since they did a biopsy on the tumor in her lung and had tubes to drain the fluid she is having a hard time getting her pain under control. I am sending her a care package Monday to cheer her up!

My father in law was admitted to the hospital on Wednesday, he was throwing up blood. They ran all kinds of tests and they finally think he just had a severe heat stroke and was dehydrated. He is supposed to go home tomorrow.

On top of all this stress I lost my job Monday. My boss said it was not working out (even though I have been there for 1.5 years) so I was terminated. I am going to wait for a month or two until I completely heal and do not have to run to the doctor every 2 weeks until I find another job. My hubby says I deserve this time off and so does my family. I just am stressing about the $14,500.00 loan we took out to get my surgery and how that is going to pan out paying it every month without my salary!

I go for my first fill August 15 under floro @ 7:30 am!!

Until later,
With love - Vanessa

My surgery is on Friday, it will be here before I know it. Today has flown by!!! This week I am more than determined to stick on this liquid diet.. I screwed up bad last week but there is nothing I can do about it now.. let's just hope my liver has shrunk enough for the doctor so he won't just sew me back up without a band! ..

I am soo nervous about that, I really hope I did not screw up. I am super stressed because my sister found out that her cancer might be back and I just could not help myself and wanted food so bad so I ate not thinking of the consquences.

She is supposed to have scans tomorrow and blood work so hopefully they will know something about her tumor then so we won't have to wait it out wondering what is wrong and if the cancer is back. She has only been in remission for a year but they told us that there was not a huge chance of it returning but it looks like it has, she has been having shortness of breath again and they said there is a buildup of fluid around her lungs.

If you are the praying type please pray for her.

I never realized this will be so hard. This is something I so really want and I almost threw it all away yesterday by messing up on my pre-op liquid diet. (I had a piece of cheese pizza)

I am beginning to realize that all this "hunger" is in my head and not in my stomach. I do not feel hungry at all so why do I crave the pizza, the chips, the chocolate? I never thought I was that emotional of an eater but after going through this for 3 days so far I am realizing that is what I am and what I have become.

I have shed tears, gotten angry with my husband (sorry sweetie), and angry with myself.. now it is time to work it! I am going to do this! I have no other option, to save myself I need to do this!

I went Tuesday July 3 for my consultation with the doctor. They weighed me (scary)!!

I filled out all the paperwork was given a date for surgery- July 27!, wrote them a check (again scary lol), then went over to the hospital to do pre-admit.

Starting July 15, I do the liquid diet for 2 weeks then on the 26th I do the colon cleanse.

I am nervous and excited all at the same time!