vegasgyrl
Here I am after about 2 years of being in denial about a problem I have-over-eating. Now after 2 years of being in true denial, I am ready to step up to plate (no pun intended) and do something about it. I have been a BIG girl all of my life. I don't remember a time in my life when I wasn't the biggest girl in the class, the room, the party etc. I have been told all the back-handed comments that there are; you would be so pretty if you lost weight, you carry your weight well, you have a pretty face, you dress beautiful for a big girl. Until I graduated from highschool did I realize the havoc that these comments wreaked on my self esteem. Now at 28, I have a very low opinion of my physical self. I have great inner confidence, but outer confidence I have absolutely none. I am hoping that this surgery will allow me to mesh these confidences together become a whole person for the first time in my life.
I am a Customer Service Representative for Wyndham Vacation Ownership. I have been doing this whole Customer Service thing for about 10 years. I am in school now to remedy that. I don't particularly like answering phones. I am a Pre-Law student at UNLV. I will be graduating 2009 with a bachelor's degree in Secondary Education. I am divorced (pending paper work) no children, no mate ( an ex-fiance' comes around to clean the pipes out every now and again). I live with my mother until I graduate, it is not fun what so ever. But things have to be sacrificed for the greater good.
Right now I am at a very lonely point in my life. My biological clock is starting to wind up and get ready to tick. Dont get me wrong I love the fact that I can get up and go and dont have to worry about day care and what not. But a woman's greatest joy is to give birth, and I believe this wholeheartedly. So I am ready to start working on bringing a life into this world.
What I am looking forward to after Surgey is: 
Wearing clothing that is not always dressy or business casual. I want to wear the baby doll tees and not feel like my stomach is the first thing you see.
Being able to shop in places Ive only followed my skinny friends into.
Being able to go restaurants that have tables close together and not feel like Shallow Hale.
Going to a club or an event and not feeling like I have to make the most of the night and dance by myself because no men ask me to dance. ( Like I dont like to or can't dance, what is that anyway?)
Taking a picture and standing in front and not covering at least two people's bodies' up.
Actually liking to take pictures!
Being able to see my collarbone!!!!!!!!!!!
THE SHOES, the glorious SHOES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
