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Its been a while since I have updated anything on here. It is very difficult to keep positive during this waititng game.  I finished my 6 months worth of supervised dieting.  With that and a nutritionist and joining a gym and working out until I thought I might die, and then pushing just a bit more, I am only down to 304.  Geez.  Feels like I should be down more than 6 lbs!!!!   Its odd I can think about food and gain 10 lbs but then work my butt off for 6 months and only lose 6.  Doesnt seem fair does it?  

I called Dr.Boe's office and the Barix Ins dept today....and I guess we are resubmitting today or maybe Monday. Then they say 6 to 8 more LOOONG weeks til I get an answer. I thought an appeal was quicker??

Most people I talk to in the same situation as myself tell me how scared they are about the surgery. Me? I am scared they will say No I cant have the surgery, and I feel like that is condeming me to die younger than I should, and then I think about my 2 awesome kids and how much of their lives I could miss. Thats what I worry about.

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Well, after weeks of calling I FINALLY got a call back today. And they submitted to my insurance. Just playing the waiting game now.   I didnt have a 2002 weight to submit, so she said not to get my hopes up.  How can I not get my hopes up??? They have been up for a year with the thoughts of saving my life. I have to make another doctors appointment soon, too. I am not sure but I think that I might have diabetes.  I have been having dizzy speels, and if I go for a while without food or drink I get nauseaus and dizzy. I have also been drinking and going to the bathroom like there is no tomorrow.  The scariest thing right now though, is that if I look at something it appears to move, like if I look at my heardwood floors they almost seem to melt right before my eyes, or the walls, its very scary b/c afterward I am very dizzy.  Has anyone else ever experienced these things?????????

And, please PLEASE PLEASE keep me in your prayers!!!

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How many times do I have to call the Barix ins people before I get a call back?!!?  It is soo annoying!!!  I keep calling and keep leaving messages, but I get no place.  I am trying so hard to remain calm and just keep trying, but is becoming more difficult by the day! I dont know what else to do.  I have been having a lot of chest pains lately and have been having dizzy spells. My knees are getting worse, I can barely move after walking for 5 minutes,  I feel like such a failure of a parent. I want to play with my kids and I just cant. Its so unfair.

Last night was my first night with the machine. It was a little ackward, but I got in 4 1/2 hours with it on. They tell me that is good.  My level is a 9, that seems so high, but I am told it is in the middle.

I dont know how people manage to stay postitive and upbeat during the waiting period. I started this process back in March, 5 months ago.  I feel like I havent gotten anywhere. Suprisingly though I did get a call from the Barix Ins. Co. yesterday. Just to let me know that nothing else had come in to them yet, so I have to call back to the 3 hospitals and move them along.  I have weights for 2001, 2005, 2006 & 2007.  Thats four years lol, cant they just accept that? No of course not, I guess its better that they dont but man I am so impatient!  I want to be a LOSER!

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I am so happy!! I am getting my cpap machine!  The insurance people changed their mind!  I get my machine tomorrow!! 

Now if only the Barix people would get back on the ball with things!

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Well, this week went quicker than I would have liked. My husbands work party is on Saturday and I am not looking forward to it.  None of the other wives are as heavy, or even close to as heavy as I am. I feel like Angel should be embarrassed of me, if he is he never lets on. But I am embarrassed enough for the both of us. How did I get this heavy?!?! I cant believe it. I look at my profile pics I seriously want to puke, its so gross. I dont have many friends and the ones I do have seem to have no trouble losing weight at all. Just simply comes right off. My dad is very very overweight and my mom isnt at her health weight anymore either but she has lost a lot before and is back on the losing side, other than them noone in my family is overweight.  My 2 female cousins are sizes under 0!   I dont want to be fat anymore!!! Why is it taking so long for things to fall into place for me? Hopefully soon. 

I could use a few good friends and some words of encouragement. 

I am feeling pretty hopeless today! I Finally got an insurance agent on the phone yesterday and my paperwork was never submitted on Monday as I thought it was. I was told by someone other than my ins. contact that they didn't feel comfortable submitting the stuff I had.  I had weights from 2001 (end of 1st pregnancy), 2005, 2006 & of course 2007.  I had a psych eval, and that doctor said he highly recommended the surgery and that I was a practically perfect candidate for it, a nutritional eval and my 2 sleep studies. 

 I wish they told me right at the start that phone calls wouldn't be returned and that I would be left wondering what was going on. I dont know what to do at this point. I know I need this surgery to save my life but how to I prove it to an insurance company?!?

I want to see Brianna and Logan grow up. I want them to have happy memories of childhood! But right now I am sure they dont.