It's been awhile.....

Jun 23, 2010

Wow, I can't believe how long it's been since I've posted here.  I've had some major changes since my last post.  I have recently lost my Mother to brain cancer and cared for her 5 months before she passed.  I am also seperated from my husband as well but I'm moving on in my life and I will take it day by day.  I finally started losing again and today I am 181 only 6lbs from goal I also had a tummy tuck, brachioplasty and breast lift with augmentation last month and I'm very pleased with my results however my thighs and but need some attention but that will have to wait.  I am wearing size 12's and have some 10's in pants, shirts are large and some mediums so I'm really tickled but I have to be careful because I know I can gain back really easy if I'm not careful. 
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2 Tight Again!!!!!!UGH

Sep 29, 2009

I''m not liking my band too much right now.  I got a fill Friday and was hopeful it would help me jump start my weightloss so I can finally start losing again.  I did fine Friday night and was pleased at how satisfied I was on a little food Saturday well Sat. night the reflux kicked in and I've been dealing with it ever since as well as night cough.  I know I'm too tight so I will have to call to get some unfilled.  It's aggravating because I can eat and drink fine and even have lost a few pounds but I can't handle the reflux or night cough it's dangerous and I can't sleep because of it.  I was really depressed about this and even for the first time started thinking about "what if" I ever have to have my band removed, I know deep in my heart I would struggle but the weight would come back and probably bring friends along too:(  Even though I am still to reach goal weight I consider my band a success, I've lost over half of my excess weight and it's given me my life back, I'm doing so much more now than I was at 250+ lbs.  I have been lurking on other boards (revision,vsg) and I think if I ever lost my band I would be revisied to VSG.  For now I'm going to get some unfilled see if the reflux and night cough stops then take it from there, try to work my band and get my head straight to lose some more weight.  I now know without a doubt that even though there is plenty of more room in my band for fill that I cannot tolerate it so I'm going to have to deal with it which is a bit depressing. Just venting here... I'm not bashing the band but I'm just frustrated.  I see so many people have made their goal and look soooo good and I just want to make my goal too.  I feel like a failure and worthless sometimes because I have not made my goal and I've had weightloss surgery. 
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UP AGAIN

Sep 26, 2009

Well I'm back up again.  I swear I can gain 10lbs in 2 weeks no problem.  I had a meltdown so to speak last week.  I indulged here and there and kept going back for seconds, indulging in fattening foods, just sprialing out of control.  I weigh 204 today:(  The good news is I finally have an aftercare provider 20 minutes away from me, not a 5hour drive one way.  I was banded in Mex. and aftercare has been challenging for me and I really think I could have done better had I had consistent local aftercare.  I am still happy about my surgery and my choice of going to Mexico.  Anyway I met my new fill Dr. yesterday via Fillcentersusa and I really really liked him and his staff was AWESOME.  He is a weightloss Dr. so he understands what I'm going through. He even gave me a script for diet pills to use if needed.  I'm not advocating the use of diet pills here and I have used them consistently before and lost weight but it came right back. I only intend on using them on days when I just can't seem to satisfy my hunger and see how that works.  Anyway got my fill yesterday and I do feel more restriction and I feel fullness after eating a cup of solid protein could I eat more yes I'm sure but I'm really trying to get back to the basics of the band so I can see 185lbs.  Yall if I ever hit 185 I am gonna be one happy chick. I CAN DO THIS< I WILL DO THIS
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Checking in>

Jul 08, 2009

I can't believe it's been sooo long since I've posted.  I havnt been on OH much for quite sometime but I do have some positive things to report.  As of today this year I have completed 2 half marathons, a 15k, 2 10k's, an 8k and numerous 5k as well as a sprint triathlon, yes me, I did it.  Excercise is a big part of my life now and I've learned to like running and most importantly I've learned to challenge myself, get out of my "comfort zone".  I havnt been doing much outdoor running this summer do to the intense heat & humidity we have here but I've been hitting the gym for cycling classes, power pump classes & I even did my first step class this morning which was a  NSV for me because I havnt done step since the 80's & was always intimidated to try, I did it but I need to practice some of the moves because I'm sort of clumsy.  I had a small fill 2 months ago but I think he could have put a tad more in.  I'm down to 195 but I've really toned up, I need to measure & check my body fat % again.  We went on vacation in June to Orlando & never once was I worried about fitting on rides which before band I would have never gone because I would have been miserable about myself.  I also got a really big complement in the gym the other day.  One of our beloved instructors is moving away, well I got to the gym a few minutes before class and was settng my gear up & went back out on the floor & this man walked up to me and asked me if I was taking the instructors place & I replied no but thought to myself I've really come a long way for someone to even say that so that made my day.  My biggest problem is my love for sweets especially at night so I've got to work on that.

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Time flies!!!

Jan 16, 2009

Wow, I can't hardly believe we are halfway into January already.  I promised I was going to be better about documenting my journey.  I had a 5k on January 3, I finished in 34:55, I ran the whole thing, stopped for water about halfway.  I was hoping for better timing but I'll take it.  Last Sunday I ran 9 miles, my longest distance so far.  I have that half marathon coming up on Valentine's day and then the triathlon on March 14.  I've had some moments of doubting myself but I seem to overcome it.  The problem I have been facing since the holidays is too many carbs (chips & junk) I really have to get a grip.  I'm training a good bit but I'm sabatoging with more food.  I havnt gained but I havnt lost anything the past few weeks.  I have yet to get a road bike but that's another thing I'm nervous about is getting out there on the road on a bike.  My swimming will have to be put on hold for a week or 2, my plastic surgeon did the dermabrasion on my skin graft and told me no swimming until further notice. 
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My First 5 Miler

Dec 20, 2008

Today I ran my first 5 miler without stopping to walk, not even once.  I almost can't believe it but I did it.  It feels so good to be able to run.  The park I ran at has a one mile loop and I kept meeting the same people sometime twice in a mile, they were walking and I was the one running, it's usually the other way around.  I finished the 5 miles in 58 minutes.  I have to keep building my distance in preparation for my first half marathon on Valentines Day.  I am really loving this, it's challenging but so rewarding when I complete a run.  I have a hectic week coming up with Xmas so I'm not sure when I'm going to schedule my next long run, maybe Friday morning will be good.  I am aiming for 7 miles next long run. 
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On My Way

Dec 14, 2008

Well I'm coming up on 3 weeks into my Triathlon training and it's getting better. I ran 3 miles yesterday in 35 minutes and only took 2 short walk breaks, I ran about 2.5 miles this morning with only 1 short walk break. Yesterday I had a real sense of accomplishment as I finished the 3 miles, it almost brought me to tears that I actually did it all by myself, no one was with me and it actually wasnt that bad.  I'm almost scared to say it but I think I'm actually starting to like to run some.  I'm also swimming 2 time a week and I'm really enjoying that as well.  With all this excercise I should be at goal soon, I'm seeing some subtle but great changes in my physique.  The first week of training was really hard and I was just famished the whole time and ate a good bit, I've leveled off a bit and I've lost 5 lbs.  I've decided to enter as many races and events in 2009 that way I have to be accountable and train for them.  My first event will be a 5k on January 3 my next will be a Half Marathon on Valentines Day, I'm hoping to build up enough to be able to finish in a respectable time.  I'm so excited.  The triathlon is on March 14 only 3 months away!

Major Commitment

Nov 09, 2008

I've been a bit depressed these past few weeks with the nose thing so I had lunch Friday w/my girlfriends from the gym.  Well one of my friends happens to be my cycling instructor too, she has been trying to get me to committ to a Triathlon for awhile now.  I don't know what the hell I was thinking (must have been those 2 beers) but I said yes.  I have committed to doing the Parris Island Triathlon in March, my goal is to finish the damn thing.  I figured this will keep me focused, committed and accountable to train hopefully the by product of it will have me at my goal.  No turning back, full speed ahead.  I will resume the gym this week, hopefully my plastic surgeon will be able to take the bandaids off of my skin graph, please oh please I hope it looks ok.  I went to an Oyster Roast last night and drank too much beer, had a hangover today...spent most of the day on the couch so didnt get any excercise today.

Homeward Bound

Oct 18, 2008

Recovering from plastic surgery on my nose Thursday.  I've been doing ok, just a little sore, tired of taking the clindamyacin, ready to wash my hair but I can't get my nose wet whatsoever.  I've been online most of the day surfing the web, reading about the upcoming election and lurking on OH.  Thank God for OH.  I also resumed eating better today, had been consuming too many carbs on top of no excercise, dangerous combination, stop it now before it gets out of hand.  I will not allow myself to regress.  I was doing so well with excercise, eating right, documenting etc.etc. then this happened and up until the last few days I had not eaten much but this week I started in on the Tortilla chips, one of my favs... So chunk those out the door or my new size 12 Seven jeans won't be fitting me no mo...  I'm going to do some stretching and low impact floor excercises, something safe to do in my condition, hopefully it will boost my spirits.  Praying for a speedy recovery with good results. Wish me luck!

Nose Drama

Oct 12, 2008

I'm down to 198 now but I have other issues that are consuming me.  I had a Basal Cell Carcinoma removed from my nose 2 weeks ago.  My dermatologist ended up going back in a 2nd time to clear it out, then he came back in the room and told me he wanted a Plastic Surgeon to close it so I would have the better result.  Unfortunately the PS couldnt see me for 2 more days.  My PS examined my nose and determined I had some infection and put me on antibiotics and instructed me on how to care for this "hole" in my nose.  At first it was very disturbing to clean it but I knew I had to do it so I just did it, sometimes I would take a pain pill prior or have a drink just to help me get the nerve up.  It's concealable with a small bandaid but when I go out in public everyone asks about it and I'm to the point where I'm fed up with it.  The PS checks me every 3-4 days and the infection is clearing out which is a good thing.  I'm so ready to move forward and pray I have a good result with a speedy recovery.  I wish I wouldnt have spent so much time in the sun and tanning beds when I was younger but I just had to be tanned like everyone else.  PPL if you are reading this please take care of your skin, sunscreen daily, forget tanning beds, wear sunglasses, coverup with long sleeves, etc.etc.  I pretty much stopped tanning in my early 20's and started taking care of my skin better but still the damage from my childhood & teenage sunburns is still there.  Get your skin checked and if you have anything suspicious have it checked immediately. I discovered my nose, I had a slight place that would bleed a bit after I exfoliated and I immediately alerted my dermatologist who took a biopsy and it came back as Basal Cell Carcinoma skin cancer.  I'm thankful it's not any worse than it is and that it's not deadly melanoma.  My husband had been the best through this and I'm trying to stay strong, I go back to my Dr. on Tuesday, hope I get some good news.  I could use some.  In the meantime I havnt excercised in 2 weeks except I did take a nice walk today.  Upon the advice of my Dr. I've been advised not to overdue it with physical activities. So I've really been trying to watch my intake so I don't gain during this stressful ordeal. Generally during this process my appetite has been pretty small but today I feel like I could just eat, eat and eat but I know it's mostly boredom and head hunger...


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