2 Tight Again!!!!!!UGH

Sep 29, 2009

I''m not liking my band too much right now.  I got a fill Friday and was hopeful it would help me jump start my weightloss so I can finally start losing again.  I did fine Friday night and was pleased at how satisfied I was on a little food Saturday well Sat. night the reflux kicked in and I've been dealing with it ever since as well as night cough.  I know I'm too tight so I will have to call to get some unfilled.  It's aggravating because I can eat and drink fine and even have lost a few pounds but I can't handle the reflux or night cough it's dangerous and I can't sleep because of it.  I was really depressed about this and even for the first time started thinking about "what if" I ever have to have my band removed, I know deep in my heart I would struggle but the weight would come back and probably bring friends along too:(  Even though I am still to reach goal weight I consider my band a success, I've lost over half of my excess weight and it's given me my life back, I'm doing so much more now than I was at 250+ lbs.  I have been lurking on other boards (revision,vsg) and I think if I ever lost my band I would be revisied to VSG.  For now I'm going to get some unfilled see if the reflux and night cough stops then take it from there, try to work my band and get my head straight to lose some more weight.  I now know without a doubt that even though there is plenty of more room in my band for fill that I cannot tolerate it so I'm going to have to deal with it which is a bit depressing. Just venting here... I'm not bashing the band but I'm just frustrated.  I see so many people have made their goal and look soooo good and I just want to make my goal too.  I feel like a failure and worthless sometimes because I have not made my goal and I've had weightloss surgery. 

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