victorias_dream
WELL I AM 27 YEARS OLD, I HAVE BEEN MARRIED SINCE I WAS 14. I HAVE HAD A GREAT LIFE SO FAR, BUT I WISH IT WOULD HAVE BEEN MUCH BETTER, BEING THAT I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN BIG. MY WEIGHT HAS STOPPED ME FROM DOING SO MANY THINGS THAT MY HEART HAS DESIRED TO DO. MY WEIGHT HAS KEPT ME HOME, I MISS BEING ABLE TO GO TO THE BEACH AND WALK DOWN THE BEACH WITH MY HUSBAND, I MISS GOING TO SEE MY KIDS HAVE FIELD DAY AT SCHOOL, OR EVEN GOING TO EAT LUNCH WITH THEM. I AM SO BIG I FEAR GOING PLACES , I AM AFRAID I WONT FIT IN THE CHAIRS, OR SCARED PEOPLE WOULD BE STARING AT ME. I FEEL LIKE AN ODD BALL WITH MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I FOUND ABOUT 4 YEARS AGO THAT SURGERY WAS MY ONLY CHANCE TO GET THIS WEIGHT OFF AND HAVE SOME WHAT OF A NORMAL LIKE WITH MY FAMILY. I WANT TO GO ON A CRUISE I WANT TO FLY IN A PLAIN ONE DAY I WANT TO GO TO THE MOUNTAINS AND GO HIKING SOME TIMES, I WANT TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT MY SELF WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR. I WANT MY KIDS TO NOT BE ASHAMED OF ME, I DON'T WANT TO DIE YOUNG, I WANNA BE AN AWESOME MOM AND WIFE TO MY KIDS. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING OF MY NEW JOURNEY AHEAD.
