About me... I am a 52 yr old woman, with 2 grown sons (22 and 30), grandmother of the sweetest little boy I know - Gavin 4 rs old, and married to my prince charming only 4 yrs ago.  I was 245 lbs when hubby and I married, so I know that he loves me for who I am on the inside.  He constantly tells me how pretty he thinks I am.  I only wish I saw what he sees.

I'm not sure when I began to tie up my self worth with the number on the scales, as I have been overweight most of my life - although not to this extent!  I graduated HS at 155 lbs and thought I was fat then.  I'd KILL to be 155 lbs again,   I had my first child at 21, gained about 30 lbs and retained 10 of it.   Not too bad... if it would've stopped there.  By 25 my weight was up to JUST under 200 lbs... 198 I think.  I joined a very caloric restrictive diet program called Quick Weight Loss - I think it was 800 calories a day.... and I lost weight.  45 lbs to be exact!  I was ecstatic! Unfortunately, I thought (like so many of us do) that I could do the rest on my own... no maintenance. HA!

Well, I did lose down to a weight of 145 lbs for about a minute or two.  Long enough to snag my 2nd husband, oh yeah... forgot to tell you about the first (father of my oldest son).  Second time around I married into a Polish family.  Do you know what that means? FOOD, FOOD, and more FOOD!! All the time! I quickly bounced up to 165 lbs immediately after the wedding and it was an uphill climb from there.  My 2nd child was born in 1986 and I don't remember seeing ONEDERLAND numbers since then.  Part of the problem has been I love to cook!  And, if I don't say so... I'm pretty good at it.  On top of that, who cooks things they don't like?? Not me!!  So everything I made went in my mouth.  I totally lost control of portion sizes.  My husband and his family were all large, so I fit in well. 

By 2000, I had ballooned up to 260 lbs.  I joined Medical Weight Loss... went on a medically supervised diet plus supplements and medication.  I again lost 50 lbs and quit.  By 2002, i was right back up to almost 270 lbs.  My marriage was in shambles and I knew in order to be happy... I had to do something for ME - selfish as that may be.

Hubby #2 and I divorced, I joined Jenny Craig and once again lost 50 lbs... are ya seeing a pattern here??   DON'T let me STOP at 50 lbs!!!  Once again, I was down around 220 lbs.  Met my prince charming in an online chat room and became content.  Sigh... why does contentment always turn to complacency??  Hubby loves me as I am... thank the Lord, because I'm sure not what I was when he met me.

 I have ONCE AGAIN been on the diet yo-yo track of lose 50 gain 50, and find myself back up to bumping 270.  I have been so depressed about this that the doc even put me on medication for depression!

Oh yeah... I didn't even tell you about the major health issue I had in late 2005.  I had bunion surgery gone bad... not really the surgery, but you know those "risks" they always tell you about but you never knew anyone that it happened to??  Well, it happened to me... DVT and PE (deep vein thrombosis and pulmonary embolism) in other words blood clots to my lungs.  This happened because I was non-weight bearing in a surgical cast for 6 wks - practically immobile due to not being able to amble about at 250+ lbs on crutches.  I was hospitalized - emergency open heart surgery, as a huge blood clot had lodged in a hole in my heart and was at perilous risk of being sucked into my mitral valve and could have caused me a stroke on top of all this.  I was in the hospital for several weeks, bad reactions to meds and such... when one of the toes I had surgically repaired for hammertoe began to turn purple... and then black.  Lord, what now?   Well, a blood clot had blocked off the blood supply to my toe causing it to die and required amputation.  Lucky me.

It was a long struggle back to health for me - over a year.   But I am currently 98% back to normal (for me).  I'm lucky to be alive... many a doctor and nurse have reminded me.  But I'm still not happy.  And it's the weight.  Until I can get control of my destructive food habits, I'm not going to be the me I want to be.   So, thank you for reading this mini-novel... thank you for being my support... and I'll see you around the OH Board!

About Me
Taunton, MA
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43.6
BMI
Surgery
09/15/2008
Surgery Date
Apr 13, 2008
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