Just Stoppin' In...1/24/10

Jan 24, 2010

 Hidy Ho...It's been a busy Fri & Sat, & I was so tired I slept in late today (Sunday!) I really had a very, very great weekend...but Friday involved going out of town and out to eat...and on Saturday I went to my WLS Workshop!! I really think I want Dr. Schauer to be my surgeon. I was so sleepy, though, I had a hard time staying awake! I woke up late and rushed over there without much more than about a half a cup of water to sip on during the half hour drive there. Meeting was fine...the workbooks they hand out have changed quite a bit in the past 2 and a half years! Thinner and more condensed information! :)

 On Friday, I felt so good that while on the way, we were all hungry. My vehicle broke down and it added a couple hours onto the trip so our dinner plans were delayed. So we opted to grab double cheeseburgers from BK...(my two kids, my Aunt, and me.) I also got a bottle of water and avoided soda! Yeah me...I was very aware of chewing slowly and savoring it while chewing it to sauce! I ate until I felt satisfied, felt a tiny TWING feeling in my stomach, and offered the rest of my burger to whoever else wanted it! (I have almost NEVER done that!) :) Also, picked off all the extra bun that had no meat by it to bite into...That was really all I'd eaten all day other than a few spoonfuls of this DELISH protein shake I'd made! My kids LOVED it (PB, Banana, Vanilla Soy Protein Pwdr, Milk, and a bit of maple sugar to sweeten a bit...SO FREAKING DELISH!!) Here is where I get a some confusion:

We went to Red Lobster...We had a long wait so three of our group went to the bar for a cocktail...I ordered a Triple Berry Sangria(HOLY CANOLI...IT LOOKED AND TASTED SO FREAKING GOOD!!!) When I received the drink, the three hunks of fruit, as well as the glass itself, looked like an entire meal to me. It really did. And I was so amazed and shocked and HAPPY to realize I was actually feeling FULL after drinking not much more than about 1/6th of the drink. Seriously! I actually thought that I could slowly eat the fruit and avoid a meal and be completely satiated and happy! BUT...this was Red Lobster. Honestly, I hadn't been to a Red Lobster in approx 9 years! I also have never tasted Lobster tail. Seriously...it was a special night and I was going to spend some money without fear or worry and I really wanted some lobster and crab legs!
 
I avoided the bread, right? But the rolls looked so good, they were seasoned cheddar baked roll(s)...I took one, and I ate little nibbles of part of one roll...then came the salad. Thinking it looked so HUGE, I divided it up between three, but my kids said they didn't want any. I had a small portion (Caesar salad) but then with all the waiting...I wound up eating the whole salad. Honestly I could have stopped there if I didn't want to just enjoy the food so much. (worry setting in...)I ordered a platter that the kids and I split. Also, I ordered three 1/2 lb additions of snow crab legs. Sounds like a LOT but really the snow crab was a simple but enough portion in which I really did NOT feel like a pig, since I was splitting the platter among three! I avoided potatoes and rice...it had a small, split, lobster tail, four fried butterfly shrimp, a little blue dish of about 6-8 shrimp in some seasoned butter w/ herbs, a side of steamed broccoli...

I had 1/3 of each of the two halves of the small lobster tail (and LOVED IT!) 2 fried shrimp dipped in cocktail sauce, the cup or so of broccoli, the little oval dish of herb-butter shrimp which had like 6-8 shrimp, 1 crab-leg, and thennnn had another cheddar baked biscuit torn into pieces and soaked in the herb-butter left from the shrimp. Seriously. Gung ho...so what confuses the HECK out of me is how I could go from feeling almost uncomfortably stuffed full from the drink alone, to being able to eat not just a meal, but really...too much of a meal?

This is what confuses and concerns me a bit. So...after we left the restaurant, we were driving around the city, sight seeing-and I began to suddenly feel uncomfortable. Had some heat flash thingies going on, some stomach discomfort...I don't know if it was the driving, or the butter, or the carbs from the bread...it was unpleasant, but it passed finally!  Later, later, later that night I had a taste of the kids' cheesecake that I bought them to share, and a while after that, one crab leg. (I wound up taking mine home! Didn't eat them at RL) 2 glasses of ice water, as well.

Saturday comes, the day of my WLS Workshop and I oversleep! (Probably because I didn't get to bed until after 4am!) But I rush off for that and only really had about a half cup of water to sip on the way. Felt so sleepy during the meeting I was struggling to stay awake, but I was listenning!! Just felt embarassed about being so dozy! After that I stopped at a Wendy's. I ordered a five pc chkn nugget (no sauce) and a small fry, and iced tea that I added some sweetener to.) Pulled over to eat slowly...ate the nuggets but had only about *almost* half the fries w/ ketchup. Threw the rest away. Waited a good half hour before sipping on the tea.

So far so good, for the most part...however, going to Cleveland means being near White Castle. We don't have those near where I live. My son absolutely loves them (as do I...well at least I used to!) So of COURSE we had to plan to go there and not only HAVE a few, but bring some HOME to have, too! I felt extremely tired and a little stressed (super slow service) and ate 5 White Castles, a few pieces of Fried Okra (I'd never tasted okra before) I didn't order a drink, but I did grab a few sips of my daughter's coke. Yeah. 
Didn't wait a half hour for drinking. Didn't avoid soda. Just went for it! (Must be that whole "well I've blown it now, so, why not go all the way" mentality?!) I feel I should have only had 2 white castles, not 5. I should have tasted the Okra and then stopped after 2 or 3 of those little buggers, but I didn't. I didn't eat a whole order, but I did have well over 2 or 3.

Being tired and eating junk food seem to trigger a blow out in me.

After we traveled back to home territory I went into my Aunt's place, and made some coffee. I had a cup of coffee with creamer
BUT I also had 2 fig newtons, a piece of breaded pork chop that I snuck off a much larger piece and ate, all without waiting a half hour before or after the coffee. (sigh) I wondered why I could toss all the effort of eating less and moving forward and there I was...BACKSLIDING!!!

After we came home, guess who snacked on White Castles throughout the night and next day? Wanna hint? Oh, don't even need one, eh? Right...ME! I can't tell you how many I had in total, but it was many (we bought a crave case home with about 13 or so...)

Overall, bottom line...I overate Saturday and Sunday BIG TIME. I am glad, however, that I do feel and see that I've lost some weight this week. My underwear is making me feel like I'm shrinking in a very fast rate (but you know...it's really not THAT much of a loss...my scale still wont do anything for me but shun me! I am sitting here now, though, feeling uncomfortable. It's not the same over stuffed feeling of the night of the chips mix, but it IS uncomfortable. I'm clearly FULL and kind of wish I could "get rid" of it. I'd consider vomitting it up if I wasn't as extremely tired as I am right now. I hope I can get up, dust off, and keep moving forward on the journey to make my stomach smaller inside (before surgery) and also pay attention to protein first, no liquids half hour before or after meals, etc.

There is still more I want to journal but I am super tired and this, as usual, is already very long!! If you've read this...thank you. Thanks for taking the time to read what I've written!

I'll write more soon!! On to day 8!

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