Back on track

Jun 18, 2009

Just when I think I may have hit a plateau, I lose more!  I'm now down a total 90 lbs!  I want to be down another 30 by September, when my brother will be visiting from Down Under.  I haven't seen him in 20 years!

Tonight I went to a BBQ at my son's school and all I had was a bottle of flavoured water that I brought with me.  The burger just isn't worth it to me.  Later, at home, I had some tomato soup, a couple mouthfuls of salad and later some fruit salad.  I also went for a swim today, though it was mostly leisurely.  I really, really need to buy a new swimsuit though.

I've joined a gym for a two month trial and Monday is the fitness evaluation - should be interesting.

Just a "regular" girl now!

Jun 14, 2009

It's been a very interesting 3 weeks.  I've had my first taste of "real life".  In other words, I haven't been on the super strict diet that I've been on since Jan 20.  I've fallen in love and that has taken precedence over the weight loss.  As a result, I have not been dropping the weight as quickly. 

However, this morning I weighed myself and ... I STILL lost!  I was so surprised because I haven't even really been trying!  Only another 30lbs until I'm under 200 lbs!  That will be a HUGE milestone!!

I enjoyed a major NSV (non-scale victory).  My sister suggested I try an outfit at a regular (non plus size) store, and IT FIT!  I  can't recall the last time I shopped at a "normal" store.  I didn't buy the outfit, probably because I was just so stunned!  I'm still trying to wear the 3x skorts I wore last summer but they are all falling off.  I know I need to shop for some new summer stuff, but it's a little overwhelming!

I love my lap band!

New Dress!

May 21, 2009

Today I went shopping for a new dress - what an amazing feeling.  I'm still not where I want to be at in terms of weight and size but I'm definitely on the right path.  I also need a new bra.  After losing 75 lbs I'm sure that's normal!

Since the second fill, everything is completely different.  I'm eating WAY less.  It's wonderful.

I've started thinking about whether I will need/want plastic surgery for excess skin.  I really hope I don't have to.  However, my "bat wings" are really bad. 



May 14, 2009

I'm having a hard time this morning.  Definitely the worst day since I started this journey.  Instead of my usual protein shake for breakfast, I had a large tea from Timmy's.  Then, I was hungry, so I poached some eggs.  After only 1 egg, I was in pain.  Then I started sliming, then just wanted the egg out!  I've been walking around the house with a bag and barfing up a little here and there.  This is no fun at all.  I guess my stomach was full from the tea and there was no room for the egg.

Lesson learned!  Stick with protein shake for breakfast and then WAIT for lunch! 

Part of me wonders whether the last fill was too much.  I think I just need to adjust my eating accordingly.


May 09, 2009

Yesterday my son turned 11 years old.  Today was his birthday party.  12 kids went to laser tag and it was a blast!

When I returned home and uploaded the pics, I was pleasantly surprised to see that I'm actually losing weight!  It really made me smile.  I've posted some post-op pics here.  Some from 3 weeks out, 2 months out and 3 months out.  I can't wait to see 6 months out!

Since my second fill I've really noticed the restriction.  I'm realizing that it actually hurts if I eat the wrong thing or too much.  This may sound silly, but I didn't know that it would actually hurt.  It is a good thing, though, because it certainly stops me from overeating.  What I mean by "hurt" is that it gets stuck.  It feels like it's stuck right after the end of my throat area.  I expected the band to give me that happy, full belly feeling, but this is entirely different and new.  Again, it's not a bad thing because it's helping me lose weight.  I just didn't know that I needed THIS to lose the weight.  I know for a fact that if I didn't have the band, I would eat the stuff I shouldn't, no matter how much willpower I have.  So I am thankful.

I've continued swimming 3-4 times per week.  I miss it when I don't go.  I've also increased my cardio time in the pool from just 5 minutes the first time post-op to 45 minutes now.  I'd like to be able to feel good enough to start some aerobics classes, but my feet still hurt too much.

My goal is to ride my bike with my son this summer.  It's been several years since I've done that.

Second fill, for real!

May 06, 2009

Today I had my second fill.   It was 3/4 of 1cc.  

I had a can of Campbell's Healthy Request Vegetable Beef soup for dinner (since the doctor said to take it easy the first couple meals after a fill) several hours ago and I'm still not hungry! 

I've been having some discomfort in the area of my port, particularly when I lie on the left side.  Dr. Bard suspects that the pain is from disrupting an internal suture near the port site. I have been coughing a lot for the past 3 weeks and it may be due to that. He said he also felt a hard area near my port which he thinks is scar tissue. This may be from when I overdid it swimming or lifting a case of water too soon after surgery (this is my guess, not his).  So, I'm still sore, but I was told not to worry about it.

The second last episode of The Biggest Loser was on last night.  It really inspires me!  I may not be working out like an athlete with personal trainers like these contestants are, but I am still so proud of changing my lifestyle as a result of the band.  Honestly, I didn't think I could do it.

I've had a few people ask me about the surgery, since they are considering it.  It feels so wonderful to be able to share my story.


Apr 26, 2009

I was asked what I eat during a typical day:

Morning: one scoop protein powder in fat free soy milk (yes I like soy milk!)

Lunch: hard boiled egg and salad with balsamic vinegar or malt vinegar OR a slice of veggie "salami" and a slice of veggie "cheese" with mustard on lavash

Dinner: skinless, boneless grilled chicken breast with steamed veggies

Snacks: fat free, sugar free yogourt OR fruit salad OR lavash (flatbread) with light cream cheese or guacomole OR 100 calorie bag of micro popcorn

I've completely given up bread.  Instead I use lavash, which is a cracker-like flatbread.  I buy multi-grain or rye lavash. 

I also drink A LOT of water.  I buy cases of sugar free, calorie free flavoured water.  At night I will have a cup of herbal tea.  I was never a pop or coffee drinker, so that isn't an issue.


60 lbs!

Apr 26, 2009

I'm amazed at how quickly time is flying.  Is this a sign of age?  I'm approaching the 3 month anniversary of my surgery.

Last night, I was getting ready to go out for dinner and a movie and all my clothes are too big!  It's a wonderful, wonderful feeling!

I was so concerned that the weight wasn't coming off fast enough, but I need to be patient with myself and realize how well I'm doing.   My food choices are so healthy now.  When I was out for dinner last night, my friend ordered the fried calamari for us to share.  I love calamari, but after just 2 small tastes, I couldn't justify putting the grease in my body.  I ate my Tuscan salad with grilled chicken and really enjoyed it.  I'm so glad that I don't have a problem eating salad (I was warned that some bandsters have a hard time with it) because I love it and it's an easy choice when I'm out to eat.

I also noticed that I wasn't as concerned about spilling over onto my neighbours' seat in the movie theater last night.  My hips are still pretty wide, but I'm working on it!  A real victory would be able to fly comfortably.

I've had my first cold in over a year this past week.  It really dampened my appetite.  I still ensure I have my protein shake in the morning,  no matter what.

I'm pleased to meet more bandsters on the chat section here.  It seemed we were very rare.  I wish my surgeon's office would finally start up the support group for bandsters.  Our experience really is completely different from bypassers.

I've also noticed that I'm lasting longer in the pool.  At first I could only do a few laps.  Now I do deep-end exercises and I'm going strong for 30 minutes!

As the weather warms up, I wonder whether I will finally be able to once again ride a bike.  To go bike riding with my son is one of my goals.

Another longer term goal is to no longer be a BBW.  No more plus sized stores - that would truly be an accomplishment!

Second fill ... sort of

Apr 08, 2009

I met with my surgeon yesterday for my second fill.  After discussing my status with him, he decided NOT to give me a second fill.  I suspected this might happen, since I'm doing so well.  We will review in a month.

For breakfast I normally have a protein shake.

I gave away three large leaf bags full of clothes that are too big!  Feels awesome!

50 lbs!

Apr 04, 2009

I can't  believe I'm already down 50 lbs!  Last week at the pool, the top of my bathing suit slipped off as I started doing my laps!  It had not occurred to me up to that point that I need to start wearing smaller size clothing!

My second fill is this Wed.  Sometimes I don't think I need it and other times I can't wait.  I still have occasional "sticks" from eating too quickly or not chewing properly.  It's wonderful to feel full after a small meal, but I still can't avoid liquids before during and after meals.  I crave protein.

Tonight I was at a friend's house and had a small slice of veggie pizza.  I felt so guilty but considering that I intake very little fat it hopefully won't do too much harm.  I was warned that I would find serving sizes at restaurants shocking, but I didn't believe it until now!  Even when I order a salad, it's too much.  It annoys me that not all restaurants have balsamic vinegar or at least malt vinegar for salads instead of dressing.

My brother from Australia is coming to visit in September.  I haven't seen him in nearly 20 years and I want to be a lot slimmer by then.  I know I need to increase my activity level.  I still feel pain in my side when I lift or swim too hard, though.  My feet and legs are still too painful from the fibro to walk much.

I'm grateful for the friends that I have met through OH, as they truly understand what I'm going through.  Unless you've been obese and travelled this WLS journey, it's impossible to truly empathize.

I'm also grateful for the hope that I now have that I may actually attain AND STAY at a healthy weight for the rest of my life!  This was SO worth it.  Only wish I had done it sooner.  I'm so glad I gave myself permission to spend the money and take this journey.
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