Marcia C.
Getting Nervous and Excited at the same time!
Feb 07, 2009
I find it very surreal that I can feel so excited and so nervous at the same time. One moment I am thinking about all the wonderful things that will happen in my life as my size comes down. They a little while later I am crying thinking.... what happens if I am one of the few that die from the surgery. Well then I think... Well I will die from my weight if I keep this up..... But not today.....I have every confidence that this is going to be such a wonderful (and challenging) experience for me. I have realized that there are a few of my friends who think that they would rather I not have the surgery and I have explained that.... I just have to. This is my plan for my life. This is what I am supposed to do. This is the tool that God has for me to help me get to the weight I need to be. They tell me, and I used to think, that God made our digestive tract one way and that I should not get it changed because He made it perfect. Yes He did and He has also helped people discover several forms of surgical procedures that help people like myself gain the success they desire and go on to live longer and more fulfilling lives. Mine will be more fulfilling and I will have a lot more ability to serve God because of the surgery!
I think about writing letters to my children and my husband and my family and tucking them away... and then if anyting happens to me during the surgery etc.... I will have a special message for them. Tomorrow, Sunday Feb. 8th I will have time in the afternoon when I will be home alone and I think I will do that. I am sure that I will have tissues!
I have already purchased my valentine cards for the kids and my hubby! I will be mailing the cards for my oldest daughter and her husband in PA and my son in ME. Our youngest daughter is a senior in high school. Where does the time go!
I panic when I hear that people will be coming over to visit! Because of my knees and such housework is difficult at best and my husband and my daughter are not the picture of enthusiasm about doing housework. I know it will get better when I loose the weight and can do more. They need inspiration! However.... that does not take away from the fact that they could at least put away their shoes when they come home, or put their backpacks away and stuff like that. Thank God for the dishwasher or we might not have clean dishes! I just want everything to be perfect when people come over! Just the way I am.
I have been following the diet that the nutritionist set up for me at the weight center. I have been doing exactly what I am supposed to but I have been limited to walking, and exercising recently and my wieght went up by 5 when I went to pre-op... I was so paniced! But it was all right. I explained what was going on and I had a lot of extra fluid in my legs so we were all set. Phew! Besides it was that time of the month too! I had read of so many that had their surgery post poned because of gain and I was so afraid that I was in tears!
I have directions to be on a full liquid diet on Tuesday ... the day before surgery... I was thinking of doing two days... But I am going to call the surgeons office on Monday morning just to check and see if there was anything else that I am supposed to be doing.
I am sooooo looking forward to my new life..... either here or there..... although I would like to be living a new life there after I reach the age of 90 ish!
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About Me
Holden, MA
Location
43.4
BMI
Surgery
02/11/2009
Surgery Date
Jul 23, 2008
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