Withdrawals?

Dec 18, 2009

 I am going to the movies tomorrow with a friend and she wants to eat lunch afterward so I took a peek at the menu trying to find something I can eat since I'm not quite 3 weeks out (she doesn't know about m surgery). I saw all my old favs and started to drool. Then I went to get my hair cut and drove past the ice cream place where I always got ice cream when I'd get my hair cut. I feel almost sad when I think I will never be able to eat these things again without complication. It's depressing and I'm not sure why because I know it's better for me this way and although I tell myself I just want to be able to eat a little bit of it I know I will eat too much. When I had my Lap Band I thought I'd just eat a little bit but always overate so I know this is much better but if I'm being honest I feel depressed by the thought of not eating ice cream, pizza, etc. I looked over that menu and couldn't find but maybe 2 things I felt safe in trying while in the company of someone else.

Does this depressing, left out feeling fade I wonder? My husband eats normally and I must admit sometimes I drool over what he's eating. I can't expect him to change how he eats for sure. Plus, I've been super emotional lately which I read can happen but I'm ready for it to stop......I'm crying at tv commercials for pete's sake!! LOL! 

If anyone reads this what are you thoughts on how I"m feeling depressed? Did you go through this too? Also, my tummy feels sour most of the time. Does this go away? I don't necessarily feel sick just .....off.....sour. Plus, when I poo....it kinda burns my bum and feels very acidic. Normal?

I do seem to have some more energy and have got my treadmill walks up from 5 min to 15 at a time and have been eating some meats and am getting about 60 g of protein and 50-60 oz of water so I'm trying......sip, sip, sip....walk, walk, walk. :-)

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