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Okay, the paperwork got messed up somehow but anyways it is now here. I will have my surgery in 6 days!! On monday April 9th. I cant hardly WAIT!! I am soooo excited!! I cant hardly even sleep NOW, I bet the night before I will be up all night! Thank you GOD it is finally going to happen!

I cant wait! My surgery will be at the end of January! Please send prayers and wish me luck!!

Tomorrow I meet with my surgeon! I am excited but also worried that it will be such a long time till my surgery date. Oh well, I j ust have to wait.

oh man! January is getting closer and closer! I cannot WAIT!! I meet with my surgeon, Dr Blaney on November 17th. I am soooo excited I just cant wait! I am so ready to lose all this fat!

I dont have too much longer till I meet with my surgeon. then I have surgery in January, I cant WAIT!! I am so excited! Wahoo!

7/25/2011

I am so excited. I go in to meet with my surgeon on november 17th. Maybe it wont be too much longer after that.

8/1/11
I am sooo happy. My surgeon said when I meet him in Novemeber it will be 2 months till I get my surgery. That will be my birthday! Hopefully it will be on my birthday! I hope so. It wont take too long I hope. I do hope it flies by!

I am still waiting. I am in the process of getting a new primary physician. When we finally get him I will get him to write me a referal to get WLS. I ALSO have to get my insurance which is Medicaid to cover the surgery. I have sleep apnea and acid reflux. I am hoping and praying it will go through.

I am bored. I am hoping to have WLS but I dont think it will ever happen. I have a lot of tests to get done and every time I go to get a test done its like 2 months later for my appointment. So I know it will take forever. I am going to start swimming with my friend every weekday. I am excited about that. I am also going to start working out on the machines some too. Its so hard. Goodness. I dont think I will EVER lose weight. I am down on myself today. Just depressed I will never lose weight I guess.

April 13th, 2011

Well. I went to the doc yesterday and I might have diabetes so I go in for a glucose test tomorrow. Then I go for my sleep study test next tuesday. It might sound bad but I am hoping they are positive so I can have this surgery. It would make me so happy if I could get this surgery and lose weight. I need to for my health. Anyways, maybe it will go through and I will be able to get the surgery. I pray to God it all works out for the best. I know it will.

6/30/11

I am trying so hard to lose weight. It is so humongously hard. I want to lose weight before my surgery so it will go well. They say if you are too over weight theres more room for complications. I really want this. To lose weight AND have surgery. Why is this so hard?

7/15/10  Thursday
I am hoping to have WLS. SO BAD!! I go in to meet my sleep study doctor on the 27th of this month. I am hoping to HAVE sleep apnea!! I know that sounds horrible but I wont get my surgery if I dont. I live at home with my parents and my mom says I stop breathing in my sleep a lot. So IF its positive I am going to my primary physician to get an appointment to see if I have asthma and acid reflux. I know I do though. I just have to get a proof letter. I have been at this since last october so it's been 9 months! 9 doggone months!! I am SO ready to get it done with and start losing weight. ALSO my problem right now is that my psychiatrist is telling me I have to lose 50 pounds before he will approve anything. I have been trying SO hard but I end up gaining and losing gaining and losing. It is SO HARD! I meet with him on the 21st of this month. This coming wed. My mom and I are going in together becasue we are going to talk to him about that and, you know, let him know that its too overwhelming to try and lose 50 pounds. I will let yall know what he says. BE PRAYING FOR ME!! PLEASE!!

7/16/10 Friday
I am worried sick about my appointment this coming wed! WHat if my psychiatrist says NO and that i HAVE TO lose 50 popunds before he will apporve!! I am SO frustrated!! I just dont know what to do. I pray to God he will say to go ahead with it as I want. UGH why does he have to be so aggravating!

7/17/10
I have been here on OH all day! I feel kind of depressed. Its gonna be such a LONG process. I am just a little discouraged. I still have so much Ive got to do. I am SO trying to lose weight. I am so hungry right now but not going to eat anything and Im going around the block a mile with my neighbor here at 7pm. I go to my psychiatrist wed. I am thinking hes gonna make me lose that 50 lbs before he will approve. Which is fine its just gonna take so LONG! I want to be healthy and I am on my way to that goal.

7/18/10
I just got back from church. I talked to a friend yesterday. I was asking her what I should say to my psychiatrist if he asks me how I lost 100 pounds before (in Augustas Biggest Loser competition) and if he asks me how I did it then why cant I do it now... SO she said I NEED to lose those 50 pounds because if not I might die on the operating table!!! Can you believe that!! I am scared now. I WILL definatly lose my 50 pounds. I am trying my BEST! I weigh in tomorrow! I will let you know what the scale says!

7/19/10
I am feeling so depressed. Yall. I have heard so many negetive things about my surgery today. Everyone is against it. GOSH DANG! Why cant people understand and be supportive?? Now I feel guilty for even wanting the stinkin thing. I mean, I want it bad but what if I COULD lose it on my own?? I have tried and tried to do that but it wont work. I gain it back. I wish I could just hurry up and have it done. You know?? Then start my new journey with a healthier happier me. Now people are also saying "God made everybody different and maybe he made you that way for a reason." I am UNHEALTHY and God does not want me being unhealthy. Man... this is so frustrating. AND I go to my psych tomorrow and Im all nervous about that. Hoping he will approve now. KNowing he WONT though because he is stubborn and can be very mean. Yall are thinking "Get a new one!" I cant!! He is the best one for MILES around. I live under my parents rules also and he is going to remain my psych. I am a nervous wreck. Yall please wish me luck!

7/24/10
I went to my psych he said he is not a nutritionist and there4 couldnt tell me yes or no aout the surgery. I might be haveing second thoughts. I am thinking I might give it ONE MORE TRY to lose weight. I might can do it on my own. I might just try this again and see how it goes. My moms gonna start taking me 4 days a week to the gym which will be great. I am going to try.

7/27/10
OKay so I have my sleep study test scheduled for the 7th of August. It sounds bad but I am HOPING I have sleep apnea. Then my insurance will cover it. BUT I also have to get checked for asthma, acid reflux, and high cholesterol. I am SO ready for this surgery!! I am getting excited! I am SO mad at myself. I was at 340 lbs. Then I lost 5 and was at 335. and I ate EVERYTHING in sight so now Im at 344. More than before I lost the 5 lbs. I am so frustrated with myself! I mean i ate EVERYTHING. I hope to God the band doesnt let me do that. I have got to lose weight and I wanted to lose some before the surgery but its like I CANT. I keep trying and trying and it always comes back!

7/29/10
I have been bad today. :-( I will do better tomorrow. Im trying to do good but I cheat just alittle then suddenly I think well you allready ate that you might as well eat this too! Then I end up in a binge! But honestly I will do good tomorrow. 

7/31/10
Well I am doing allright I guess. My sleep study is saturday August the 7th. I got a book at the library on it. Its intersting I never knew I had sleep apnea but I have had all the signs. I mean I THINK i have it. I will get a diagnois yes or no sometime after my test.  It says I will feel rested and have more energy and everything. Kind of exciting. I just get so tired all the time.

8/2/10
The sleep study is getting closer and closer.

8/3/10
I am watching my nephews today. I forgot to tell yall, when I went to my psychiatrist the other day he told me we havent done every last option and he thinks I should try diet drugs!! DIET DRUGS??!! I do NOT want to do diet drugs. This sux cause if my primary physician or surgeon agrees then I will have to go on diet pills. Those are dangerous!! Im just all upset about it. Why wont they just give me the doggone surgery. I am at TOM today. It sux. Around this time I get SO hungry! I dont know why but I eat so much more. I wish my surgery would hurry up and get here but I will try to be patient and hopefully everything will work out as God has planned.

8/8/10
Well I had my sleep study last night. They didnt tell me the results. I wont know for a few weeks when I go back to my doctor. I am real nervous about it. I hope it wont take too long before I go. I am so exhausted today. I did not sleep good at ALL last night in that strange room. Im just so tired. I think I am going to quit eating pastas breads and sweets. I might try it anyways.

8/30/10
I meet with my doctor tomorrow about my sleep study. I hope I have sleep apnea so I can get my surgery! I hope everything goes well. I had a heart scare the other day. I was at the library and had pains in my back which went into my heart and I started to sweat and my leg went to sleep and I got really dizzy. It was SCARY but after a few minutes you know, once I got home, I felt better????????? I dont know what it was but we never went to the doctor. I am worried now that I wont be able to have WLS because of it. Hopefully I will still be able to get it done. God help me and your will be done.

9/22/10
Hey everybody! I havent been on here in a while. I was frustrated because, see, I have to have a comorbidy like diabetes or sleep apnea stuff like that, for medicaid to cover my surgery. It turned out my sleep test came back NEGETIVE for sleep apnea. BUT now they think I might have it. Im sleeping with a machine for 2 weeks then they will know for sure. If it turns out I DO have sleep apnea I have a high chance of getting this WLS. So prayers would be greatly wanted!!! THANK YALL SO MUCH!

7/27/11
I am wondering now if I would rather have lap band or gastric bypass. What I am going to do is just wait and talk to my surgeon about it. I am getting a new doctor for my primary physician. Then hopefully things will fall into place. maybe....maybe not. But i hope so.

7/28/11
I am leaning more towards gastric bypass than any other right now. I have lost 9 pounds and hopefully more when I weigh in tomorrow morning!