DAYS 8-13...DAILY TOO HARD SWITCHIN TO WEEKLY..FEEL ME!

Jul 08, 2009

ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE A WIFE, A MOTHER TO A 5 AND 2 YEAR OLDS, OUTREACH PROGRAM MANAGER, AND DOING MINISTRY...NOT TO MENTION 10AM-1230PM DAILY WORKOUTS AT THE GYM,PLUS TRYING TO GET ALL MY MEDS AND FLUIDS IN (NOT SO GOOD AT THAT)..THEN TO TRY TO GET UP ON THE COMPUTER TO BLOG IS HARD......SO I WILL JUST DO IT TWICE A WEEK, ONCE AT MINIMUM....DONT KNOW IF ANY ARE READING IT ANYWAY...BUT FOR YOU THAT ARE THINKING OF WEIGHTLOSS SURGERY...PERHAPS IT HELPS YOU....

SO FOURTH OF JULY HITS AND WE ARE IN DAYTON, OHIO...I HAD MY GAME PLAN ALL MAPPED OUT IN MY HEAD..HAD MY NECTARINES AND PLUMS READY FOR THE WEAK MOMENTS....
THEY NEVER CAME OUT THE BAG!.... I ATE SPOONFULS OF MAC N CHEESE,PORTIONS OF LEMON CAKEAND THE REST WAS PROTEIN..UNTIL WE HIT THE GAS STATION LATER THAT NIGHT AND I HAD A PEANUT BUTTER MILK SHAKE--I ADMIT---WHY DONT I DUMP????? I SO NEEDED THAT TO BE A PART OF MY SIDE EFFECTS SO I T WOULD KEEP ME STRAIGHT!!!!-OBVIOUSLY GOD WANTED ME TO LEARN HOW TO BE TEMPERATE WITHOUT ME PUKING/HITTING THE TOILET...DANG IT!!!! FOR YOU PRE OPS...SUGAR WILL NOT MAKE EVERY ONE DUMP---I AM PROOF...

SO AFTER THAT HOLIDAY, I WAS LIKE WELL I MIGHT AS WELL END THE WEEKEND RIGHT AND GET BACK ON MY GAME ON MONDAY---THAT ALL OR NOTHING ATTITUDE OF MINE...SO I ATE POTATO CHIP COOKIES..DEE-LISH!!!! AND AFTER ALL THAT I DIDNT GAIN NOT ONE OUNCE...LUCKY ME!!!

I AM BEING BRUTALLY HONEST HERE...YES I HAD RNY, YES I WANT TO BE AT THE HEALTHY WEIGHT FOR ME...YES I GOT 30 POUNDS TO GO...NO I DONT DUMP, NO I DONT MAKE THE BEST FOOD CHOICES EVERY SINGLE TIME, AND YEAH- I USE DULCOLAX TO RID MY POUCH AND BODY OF THE FOODS I CONSUME:I HATE MY BODY FEELING FULL, I FEEL GOOD WHEN IT IS COMPLETELY CLEANED OUT-NO THAT MIGHT NOT BE THE BEST SOLUTION, DON EAT IT WOULD BE THE OPTIMAL CHOICE-IT TOOK ME 35 YEARS TO MASTER MY BAD RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD....IT IS GOING TO TAKE MORE THAN 11MONTHS FOR ME TO CHANGE ALL THE BAD HABITS....I AINT TRYING TO JUSTIFY...JUSS BEING ME....REGARDLESS OF YOUR DIAGNOSIS! LOL!

HEY! I WORKOUT HARD FIVE TIMES A WEEK, I HAVE LOST OVER 100 POUNDS, WENT FROM A SIZE 26 TO A 12/14 AND STILL SHEDDING OFF THE REMAINING WEIGHT...SO JUST BACK OFF!!!  MONDAY- I JUMPED RIGHT BACK IN SWINGING..SEE , DONT FALL DOWN AND STAY DOWN.GET UP!!!!.EVEN LOST A POUND FROM THEN TO TODAY!!! 

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