Hi Everyone!! My names Melissa I'm a 42 y/o divorced mom to a son age 22 and a daughter 18. My children are off starting their own lives so I decided to finally start MINE. My entire life well since about 5th grade I have struggled with weight. Every diet out there I have tried with some I would lose the weigh about 30-45 pounds although never skinny (a size 10 in Levis) I looked good for a few months only to gain it back most times with an extra 10-15 pounds.I have been a nurse for 20 years but the weigh and other issues have lead to numerous back surgeries that ended the career I love..now on disability and unable to find happiness with anything including my marriage ( He insists I not lose weigh and try to work without my surgeons finding out) I realized he just wanted me to stay fat and unhappy so I would believe his lying that I couldn't find anyone else( plus I was the only one that worked and paid the bills) It didn't seem to matter that my health was rapidly going down hill with co-morbidity's stacking up left and right.Enough of the depressing stuff. since my PCP or Neurosurgeon wouldn't OK it for me to go back to work let alone  into nursing ( I had to have a morphine pump implanted in 8/06 ) I started school again after 20 yrs! (scary) But I just couldnt sit at home and do nothing I'm used to working 40-60 hours a week.I'm studying Criminal Justice at Indiana University in hopes of working as a Forensic Nurse when my health allows. Since I'm unable to walk more than 2 blocks at a time, let alone exercise The pounds started packing on pretty fast in the last 2 yrs( I blame the morphine) I went from 174 the date of surgery for morphine pump placement in Aug.06 to 230 in May 08 when i went to the bariatric seminar.I had to do something fast.I never get out and do anything anymore just sit at home and read or something,I want to feel alive again not like I'm just waiting to die ..I want to be able to go on walks along the trails in Clifty Falls State Park like I did when I was younger.I've always wanted to get a gym membership and get in shape and build my endurance. Running is out of the question even if i reach goal because of the right lower leg paralysis and leg brace, but i can walk at a slow pace but who knows if I lose the weight I may be able to get some muscle built back up in that calf. But like most of you I'm ashamed of going to the gym thinking everyone will be whispering about that fat girl trying to exercise Anyway I finally had the consult with my surgeon on Nov 24, although the center(Bariatric) said insurance was oked,I found out otherwise I had my psych eval and nutrition consult completed. the surgeons office said my insurance required a Dr Psych eval not a social worker like I had, I was told my insurance DID NOT require 6 months Dr supervised diet, now his office(Dr.Rodriguiz) says it is and on top of all these set backs( the surgeon said I would have surgery before the first of the year) His pre-determination person,Bridget(not friendly) said I need to have 5 years worth of medical records showing a diagnosis of morbid obesity....5 YEARS !!! that's just crazy no one is going to read 5 yrs of records.The Bariatric Center says she's crazy she says the center don't know what they are talking about so guess who is caught in the middle?? yep that would be me.I'm thinking about changing surgeons seriously.



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About Me
Jeffersonville, IN
Location
30.0
BMI
RNY
Surgery
08/14/2009
Surgery Date
Sep 21, 2008
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