196 and holding....

Oct 26, 2009

Well, it's now 9 days til I depart for my compact 6 day jaunt to LA for horse racing (the world's BEST, Breeder's Cup at Santa Anita) and to visit old friends.

I am down to 196 and unfortunately, holding. At least I made it down this far, and that's all I could have hoped for or asked for. I have had an emotional drain for the last couple weeks with my mom as well as having my truck in the shop, the fridge need repair and finally, the big pecan tree in the front yard that crashed under the weight of the 2007 ice storm FINALLY got trimmed and prettied up on Saturday. Truck fixed, fridge working well again, I feel like all my current problems are under control. Whew!

I have to say that other than the 5k I did a couple weeks ago here in OKC, I haven't been very motivated to do anything physical, despite my weight loss. The walk was great; weather chilly but perfect, sun out, no wind, walking with friends. But I don't have the desire to walk after work...I have been a 'hibernating bear' for as long as I can remember when the days get cooler and the leaves start to turn and the sun doesn't stay out as long, all I can think about is being at home with the dogs and cats and catching up on TV recorded from when I had no time to watch TV....but this is how I always feel so I'm not worried. I am not depressed, I am just not motivated. Never have been in this season.

My dad will be joining me on the vacation next week in CA and he hasn't seen me since last Christmas and well before surgery. I have been meaning to send him photos as I progress down the scale but frankly, none of them look good enough or feel like they show enough weight loss--taking them myself doesn't lend to a great photo, no matter if I'm trying hard or not!! Arrrggghh. But I think it will be FUN to have him try to figure out who I am as he scans the crowd for someone who might look like me at the airport....plus the fact that I'm having some major hair coloring/weaving done a couple days before! Ha ha ha. This will be a blast!!

I am 8 lbs away from attaining that first major goal of 188lbs that I wanted to try to get to before my trip, but it's the best I can do. I'm still smaller than anticipated and smaller than I was when I visited last year and frankly, that totally works for me! I am wearing size 12 jeans and M-L tops and skirts/dresses (depending on cut and maker etc) and lots of fun high heeled shoes and I hope I get a chance to really show them off next week. I am packed and prepared for anything!

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