5 months out

Feb 16, 2008

Went to the doctor last week.  I was down 6 lbs.  Doctor was thrilled.  I am happy to.  Of course, I would be happier if I had been down 10 lbs, but that is ok.  I am in this for life, right?  

We decided that since I am going to Cancun in another two weeks that we would hold off on a fill till I got back.  That was a really hard decision.  I knew if I got a fill that some more weight would come off.  I also knew that if I got a fill that by the time I got to Cancun I would just be getting back on solid food.  I can't imagine anything more horrid that being in Cancun with all of my girlfriends and getting stuck over a tiny piece of food.  

The fill on this whole band thing is so weird.  A single pound really loosens it up.  I must have a HUGE amount of visceral fat around my stomach.  

So far, I am really not able to tolerate doritoes, corn chips, heavily breaded chicken (Like Arby's  or Hardees chicken strips), plain crackers, bite after bite of pasta, soft bread.  

I have been CRAVING sweet wine.  Before Christmas I was craving chocolate, but since my last fill a few bits of chocolate and I fill real nauseated.  

I have read on here about eating solids mostly, but I confess that things get stuck so easily on me that I end up eating a lot of soup.  Right after a fill, I drink protein drinks and creamy chicken 'soup at hand'.  As the fill loosens up, I eat chunky soups.  Once I loose a few more pounds I can eat regular foods, but must do so real slowly.  That is where I am now.  

I have also been craving cheese.  

Well, that is where I am now.  Down a total of 41 lbs.  (17 since surgery in September).  

Here is something interesting.  I have a friend who had gastric bypass about 10 years ago.  She was hospitalized last week for the 5th time with a small bowel obstruction related to scar tissue.  Isn't that scary?  I am glad I have the band.

later.

3 months and several weeks out

Jan 05, 2008

Went Thursday for my check up.  The docs scales say that I gained a pound.  I had both sets of keys and my cell phone in my pocket.  Not sure I gained, but I am sure I didn't lose this month.  Christmas was very hard for me with only slight restriction and all that chocolate.  But, what is done is done.... because of my band, I know it will be fine.  

Doc gave me a fill.  He took all that was in there out, which I think was 3 cc's.  He said he put 2 cc's back in... so how is that a fill?  I asked, he explained something about how he didn't put anything in at the time of surgery, but now has learned that its best to put in 2cc's at surgery, so this is just 2 cc's and, "that should be just right".  I am thinking maybe there is 4 cc's in there total.... I don't know.  All I know is that it is WAY much tighter than my band was before.  I had no restriction at all on fluids before and just had to eat slowly... but could eat all that I wanted (which is a lot).  Now, fluid goes down slow (I can feel it) and about 2 spoonfuls and I am full and feeling nauseated.  I have only had soups and a little mushy since Thursday.  It will be fine, I am not too worried about it.  

The good news is that at least I didn't gain 10 lbs over Christmas like I usually do.  So, overall, I am down 30 or so pound since I started this process.  Down 12 lbs since surgery (not a lot in 3 months - but then again, I haven't had good restriction either).  

The other good thing that happened this month was that I went to Catherines (big girls store) to get a new pair of jeans - cause I blew out the thighs in my old ones.  I was in a 24 at the begininng of this saga.  I tried on a 22 figuring that would be what would fit..... NOPE..... it was a 20 that fit.  Hooray!!!  I will be so glad when I don't have to shop at Catherines anymore period.

wj

2 months 2 week out - 2nd fill

Nov 30, 2007

Went yesterday for a fill.  Doc put 1cc in.  We talked about the reflux I had encountered.  That worried him some because, "any reflux indicates that your band is too tight".  I assured him it was because I ate before bedtime, went to bed with food on stomach.  He didn't buy that.  But, he gave me a fill anyway.  I had only lost 3lbs over the past month.  In my mind, that isn't too bad considering that Thanksgiving was in that month as well as eating solid foods again.  I admit, I went a little crazy on solid foods after 6 weeks of liquids.  I am a little more in control of myself now.  Actually, I was kind of proud of myself for not gaining.... solid foods and very slight restriction.  yeah for me!  

The second fill was a little rougher than the first fill.  He had a little trouble finding the port.  I know he was feeling rushed because he saw me straight out of surgery... from which he was late.  That feeling of the band getting filled is WEIRD.  Like the alien is in there moving around or something.  

Well, on to the next step.  Whatever that is.

Later.

2 months and 3 days out

Nov 21, 2007

I have been lurking in the last few weeks and not really posting.  Work, school, family life/obligations have been taking all of my time.  I thought I might post the few things I have learned in the past few weeks as a help to others.  

1.  Eat supper early, don't eat a bed-time snack and always drink several big glasses of water about 30 mins before bedtime.  

I have found that if I go to bed with anything on my belly I wake up with VOLCANIC reflux.  If I follow the simple rule stated above, no problem. 

2.  Just because you can, doesn't mean that you should AND being satisfied and being full are two different things.  I can eat WAY more than I should, thus, just because I CAN eat more doesn't mean that I ought to.  If I stop at some kind of sensible amount of food, I will be satisfied... this is not the same as full.  Previous to banding I often ate till I was full... translate.... miserable.  If I think with my brain rather than my belly and STOP, I won't be full... however, I won't have any kind of gnawing hunger either...thus, I will be satisfied.  I think I am addicted to the FULL feeling... not actually to food.

3.  It is HARD to get enough water.  Just make it a chore.  I like water... I really don't hardly have the time to drink enough water.  I just have to make it a chore for myself.... just like any other self care thing... brushing hair, brushing teeth, taking a shower, drinking water.

4.  Coffee is filling for a little bit... but in the end makes you more hungry... then you tend to eat too much... thus, the full feeling.

5.  For me, feeling full no longer occurs in my belly... it occurs in my chest.  That is not really a nice feeling.  

6.  Set the stupid silver ware down between bites and try to think of something else for a moment while having a meal.

7.  Get plenty to drink before eating a meal.

8.  Salad is no longer the best choice for a meal  (I have eat salads for so many years - because I have always been the fat girl who needed to eat a "diet" thing).  It is HARD to get used to trying to think in terms of eating a protein first.  

9.  Its not FUN to only eat a small amount... but then again, I didn't get the band so that I could continue to have the kind of fun I have been used to, did I?

10.  Don't be so fixated on that crazy bathroom scale!  It is absolute physics - eating smaller portions over time WILL result in weight loss.  There is no guaranteed 2-3 lbs per week/ 10 lbs per month.  Averages are written from taking ALL of the data from ALL of the people.  Averages don't mean that everyone loses that amount every month/week.  You will drive yourself crazy if you are overly concerned with meeting the average.  For me, driving myself crazy like that leads to feelings of failure.... which leads to over eating... which is how I got here in the first place.

That's all for now.  Hope this helps someone.  It has helped me to write it down!

1 Month and 5 days out

Oct 24, 2007

Went for my first fill yesterday.  It was quick and easy.  It really didn't hurt like I thought it might.  The worst part was that the doctor asked me to hold my head up off of the table while he felt for my port.  My head is HEAVY!  Who knew it was like a bowling ball???  

He put 2cc's in for my first fill.  I can tell that something has happened in there.... having that tight feeling in my chest like I had right after surgery.  Back to soups.  I hope I get even a small amount of restriction from this.  My next appointment is the 30 of November.

I was a little surprised by my weight.  I have up weighing myself about 10 days before my appointment.  I was gettting so down on my self because by weighing everyday, I wasn't losing fast enough.  So, the last 10 days I ate like I wanted to.  I was careful, chewed well and ate what I wanted.  I ate much less than I could have in the past.  I don't attribute that to the band... I attribute that to having shrunk my stomach with all of this liquid diet crap.  Anyway.... I about passed out on the scale.  I didn't gain any weight during that 10 days according to the doctors scale.  On my scale at home I had lost 2 lbs.  I have never had that happen!!!  

Well, I am back on liquids for a while.  I am hoping that some more will come off now that I am.

Thanks for listening!
wj

3 weeks out

Oct 09, 2007

I can't believe its been three weeks.  Mushy food started today.  HOORAY!!!  Did I say HOORAY!!!???  It has gone well.  Had some refried beans, a scrambled egg and some grits.  (Yes, I live in the south!).  I didn't eat as much as I wanted, but I wasn't hungry.  I don't think I have restriction anymore, if I ever did.  I also think that I have been so long without food that my stomach has shrunk.  

I have been stuck at 241 for a number of days now... about 5.  That seems strange because I have been seeing the scale move a little bit every few days.  I have become scale obsessed.  I can tell that my clothes are A LOT looser... well, they should be after a thirty one pound loss, don't you think?  

The company annual company party is coming up at the end of this month.  I would love to have another 10 lbs off by then... I don't know if that will happen, but I think it would be great if it did!  I will have had my first fill by then... so I am thinking that I better not eat much of anything that night!  I am also thinking that I had better be a tea totaler too!  

As far as the band goes... I feel pretty much like normal.  I have been noticing a strange vibrating sensation in my right breast after I eat lately.  Very weird.  It has to be band related.  I guess I will tell the doc on the 24th when I see him.  At least I don't have gurgling in my throat.  I read on the board last night about a lady who says she gurgles like "The Predator" in that movie... and she can't control it!  

Well, my kids are in there trying to cook their own dinner.  Guess I better go supervise!  


16 days out

Oct 04, 2007

Hello everyone,
I'm back.  Did you miss me?  Been really busy lately with work, kids, life... you know, the basics.  Things are going fine with the band.  No problems.  A little heartburn (just take the pills the doc gave me).  I am sick of liquids.  I start soft foods on Tuesday..... YIPPEEE.  Now I am nearly afraid of what might happen when I eat a mushie since I have been on liquids for 6 weeks.  

As far as me physically goes, I am back to normal.  No pains, no nausea, the massive burps have left, the internal plumbing has calmed back down and isn't so noisy all of the time.  Am finally getting all my water in.  Am back to walking a mile a day.  I need to work up to 2 miles per day.  

I had someone ask me if I am going to start dating again anytime soon.  The answer to that is no.  No.  No.  Not now, not anytime soon.  Not interested in dating.  I have to get me under control first... then maybe  We shall see.  

Well, I am tired.  Gotta hit the sack.  I am hoping that I will fall below 240 by the end of the weekend.  Keep your fingers crossed.  
wj

11 days out

Sep 29, 2007

Here is the thing.  I am hungry again.  Very hungry.  Let me tell you, liquids ain't gettin it either.  On Thursday (9 days out) I was STARVING.  I ate lunch at Jason's deli and had the broccoli cheese soup then I had a very small cup of soft serve ice cream (it melts in your mouth and makes a liquid, right?).  I could tell by the wonderful taste of the soup that it was "the real thing" -heavy cream base..... oh man, was it ever good!  I finally didn't feel hungry when I left.  The bad news........ on Friday morning I got on the scale and had gained 2 lbs.  

On Tuesday night (day 7) I vomited.  I think I just had a little stomach bug that is going around at work.  I wretched 3 times and there was a tiny bit of blood that came up.  It scared me and I coughed for the whole next day.  My left shoulder hurt and I felt like I pulled a muscle in my left side (like where it hurts when you run too much - not that I really ever have that problem!).  I am hoping that I didn't do any damage to myself.  I stayed on clear liquid all day on Wednesday.  Called my docs office on Wednesday, the nurse said it ought to be fine.

So, that is most of my week this week.  Not sure what to make of it.  I am down 9 lbs since surgery day.  I am sure that is from the shear starvation of last week.  However, I am feeling almost completely back to normal.  I am going to start back on my exercise regimen today.... or at least start back slowly... walking a mile a day.  I had promised myself that I would start by next week..... so I am meeting that goal.

My incision sites are healing nicely.  They are itchy and still scabbed over.  The doctor glued me back together, which I think is kinda funny.  I have seen people on here discuss their sutures and bandages and steri-strips.  I didn't have any of that.  Just big glue spots covering the incisions.  

Why is it that I want this weight loss to be magically fast?  Somehow, in my mind, I should be losing faster.  I know that is silly.... but that is what goes on in this mushball on top of my shoulders.  I also think I shouldn't be hungry.  I am mad that I am hungry.  I am mad that I can't eat anything yet.  I want something to eat!!!  I am SICK of liquids.  What I really want is to eat like I ate before I started this whole process and I want to be skinny anyway.  Will someone please invent that diet?  

Thanks!

7 days out

Sep 25, 2007

Here is good news.  I feel almost normal.  I have what feels like a lump in my chest... probably still swelling from surgery.  I have been burping like crazy.  My tummy growls a LOT!  My scars are ITCHY.  But, all in all, I feel pretty good.  I am down a total of 28 lbs. total and that is amazing in and of itself.  Someone at work actually noticed this week that I had lost some weight.  All I said was, "Well, thanks, I sure have been trying" and left it at that.  

I haven't started my exercise routine back yet.  I was doing so good too.  I vow that I will do that by the end of this week.  I am feeling pretty tired when I get home.  I am getting kind of used to the liquid diet thing... it sucks... but I am getting used to it.

Oh, and here is a kicker.  The woman I saw at the festival who I knew had the lap-band called me this week.  I had left her an email at work back in July and she said that her employer changed servers in July and a bunch of people just got emails that were sent back then.  I had left her a message because I wanted to talk to her about her lap-band.  Get this... she said that she doesn't have a lap-band.  I know that she told me three years ago about how she was going to get this lap-band put around her stomach etc. etc. etc.  She said that she considered it and then opted for the mini-gastric by-pass.  Can you believe it?  I have been talking to her occasionally for three years and envying her weight loss and thinking she had a band.  Now I find out that she had a mini-by pass.  She said she is terrifically happy with it.  She eats whatever she wants, gets full quickly and stops eating.  No problem.  She said that she doesn't have to "diet" or watch what she eats at all.

I was feeling pretty silly after that... because I know this is not the easiest route... having a lap-band.  I also know its going to involve what I have always known as dieting if I want it to work.  I personally think that folks who just rely on the band to do the work don't lose as much.  But, that is only my opinion.

Well, I started looking into mini-by-pass.  My friend did mention that she is now anemic from it.  That is a danger in and of itself.  Who knows what kind of danger life-long anemia can cause.  So, I read up and looked at the board on OH for mini GBP.... holy cow, I found many people happy... but some who were having massive weight loss and were now underweight....like 95lbs and can't stop losing.  How scary is that?  Of course, you can have a revision.  But sheesh. At least I have the comfort of knowing that I could just go get an unfill or have the thing removed.  

I am excited about some of the effects of losing weight.... like I am wondering if I will get mroe respect from people.  I know people look at me and think that I am lazy, sloppy and stupid because I am fat.  Of course, I don't think any of that is true..... but I know its an automatic prejudice people have.

So, I will try to remember to record things like that here.

wj

5 days out

Sep 22, 2007

Well, here is the good news... People ought to lose weight on their surgery week if during no other time.  I have lost 6 lbs in 5 days.  Amazing!  I know this loss won't continue... but holy cow... that is amazing!  I also know that I am not eating all that I should.  I also know that mother nature has stored a lot of "extra" food on my body for me to use in times like this.  So, there is no danger of me starving to death.  

I am not in so much pain now, the disembodied head feeling has gone away, I feel pretty normal except I still feel like I have done a bunch of sit ups.  It appears that my incisions are healing nicely... no redness, swelling, pus or any other kind of exudate.  

I have been pretty active the last couple of days and have made it through... its not been easy.  Went to a high school football game on Friday night.  It took me a long time to walk to the other side of the football field (twice).  Went to a high school band competition yesterday... thought I would die sitting in the blistering heat... and walking all the way to the football field.  

Eating has been a whole nother issue.  Do I have restriction already?  I don't know... maybe.  I am almost afraid to ask on the main board because I know that people go forever without any restriction.  I know that I feel hunger pains... and man, they HURT!  So, I have some soup... or some other full fluid.... (cause that is what I will be having for the next 3 weeks)... and after a few bites... I am DONE.  Full!  amazing!  I am guessing this is just post surgery swelling and it will go down soon and I will be able to eat more.  

I have to admit, I don't like just being able to eat a small amount.  (I know what you are thinking - you idiot - what did you have this surgery for?)  I guess I didn't realize what joy and comfort I get out of eating a LOT.  For instance, right now, I can not eat an entire "Soup and Hand".  WTF?  That is all liquid... it is supposed to go right down... but about 1/2 of it and I am good.  If I have more than that, I feel sick.  Then, I just have to find something else to do.  Weird.

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