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Aug 13, 2009

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Jul 26, 2009

So my surgery is just about 3weeks away..and iv been having these thoughts. You see iv never really been "skinny" or "small" my entire life as far back as I can remember. I just have a slew of thoughts going around in my head.. "how would I look at a size 10? 8? maybe even 4? Will I have a HUGE BELLY? Will my arms be extremely bat wingish?? Will it snap back nicely due to my age? How will I change? Will I be vain? Humble? Will I be inspired to do what my weight has held me back from doing this whole time?? who knows? I just want to be confident.. I mean I know im a beautiful person now but I just cant WAIT to see what happens and how I will look then... ok enough thoughts for now.. I have an interview tomorrow for a higher position within Time Warner soooo wish me luck!! Maybe this really will be a brand new start  Till next time folks!

Jul 19, 2009

The last of my journey is completed... I had my date 8/19/09 but we were waiting on Approval and less than a week later I was approved!!!!!!!!!!!!  OMG its official official!! I must say the whole process was long but it went very smoothly... I cant believe this is it.. Its really happening!! Shoot if I wonder that its this easy to be approved for surgery if I would be approved for Plastics!! or as we call it "reconstructive surgery"... anyway August 19th!! I gained 4 lbs which the dietician said I need to lose by the time I have my pre-op with Dr. Singh or else he will cancel/reschedule my surgery.... Lets hope not because that would suck! Till next time folks

Jul 15, 2009

Well its been 2 weeks since my last post and I was weighing in at 240... Now I weighed myself on my scale today and it said 245... im scared shitless.. I have my pre-op appt with my dietician and they weigh you there and I will be weighed all throughout my remaining pre-op appts.. Im going to say im on my period or something if they question me because I have heard of surgeons rescheduling for people gaining weight.. I kind of have been binging.. but i must say im pretty proud of myself.. for months iv been DYING for an onion blossom and I went to the fair... Well I ordered one and for some reason... they guy asked me if I knew how many calories were in that thing.. I said im not sure he said it started with a 3 and ended with 3 0's 3000 calories!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dunno maybe it was a sign.. but I ate a quarter of it and threw it out.. i cant believe its more than 2days worth of cals. blehhh!! im worried i dont want this to be cancelled/rescheduled.... so we will see...

Jul 02, 2009

Jul 01, 2009

So tomorrow is the day I meet with my surgeon Dr. Singh for the first time and if I am at 240 then I have completed my 10% weightloss and I then get a surgery date. I am so nervous!! The passed couple of days I havent been eating to well.. I also received a callback from my pulmonologist who told me I do not have sleep apnea but he wants to meet with me tomorrow before I meet with the surgeon.. What else could be wrong? He said I slep 6.5 hours.. Why does he want to see me so urgently?? I asked him is this something that will affect my surgery?? He said he will talk to me tomorrow about it.. What could be wrong? Any suggestions?? RLS maybe? would that affect my surgery?? Im so scared.. I worked so hard I hope I make goal tomorrow.. I want this soo bad.. I want to have a new life I want to be healthy!!! I want to miss work damnit!! In all honesty im ready for this... Im scared but excited ugh so many emotions... If I dont make my 10% im going to be devastated.. If im off by 1 lb ill be fucking pissed.. Im not eating tomorrow at all... im wearing the lightest clothes possible lol without being naked..... God please let this work out for me this has been such a long journey!! Pls wish me luck!! Im gonna need it!! 

Jun 17, 2009

Jun 16, 2009

Well I am currently at the facility completing my sleep study.. and they have wireless internet!! haha so of course I brought my laptop and took pics of pretty ol me with wiress hanging from everywhere u can think of... lol ever wonder what happens during a sleep study?? well... take a look!!  and I got a pimple in the process of them scrubbing my whole face.. grr They stick wires on the front of both your legs/ each side of your ribs/ your chin/ top of forhead/ and all around the circumfrence of your head. They want to measure your brain acitivity as well as your breathing to see if you stop breathing while sleeping. Also want to see if there is any abormal sleep patterns.. My place is so nice.. the beds are like clouds!! This is a mini vacay for me!! Bedtime is in an hour... ill let you know how I sleep lol


Ok so it is now the next morning.. and I had the worst sleep. The bed was super comfortable but having wires from head to toe and then knowing there were cameras in your room was kind of freaky pluse I kept getting hot and restless.. The lady was like boy you moved around a lot lol I asked if that would count against me she said no and on top of that they woke us up at 5:50am I took a shower was picked up at 7 and now im currently at work at 8am. I am sooo tired.



Still fierce!!! haha