Martha Tello
1 week post op
Aug 19, 2008
I am glad I did it though, I have been experimenting with different watered down natural fruit drinks that I am making at home. My energy is pretty good, but I dont like the protein... I didnt take any pain medicine today, but I might be pusghing myself a little too much cause I get real exhausted.
My bofriend told me today that I finally have some color in my face, and you can really tell I lost some weight, though he sees me everyday for the last 4 days.
I am invited to a freidns b-day party on friday another on saturday and another on sunday! I dont think i will be going to the friday and satuday ones cause i dont want to poop myself out. the one on sunday is going to be at Mijares Mexican Restaurant in Pasadena. I need to look up their menu, but all i can order is soup and not eat the food particles... but i am excited to have a different flavor on my palate.
The wierdest thing is that I have been dreaming of eating like nothing, regular food and I get up all scared. I feel that I might forget that I should not pop an M&M in my mouth! My biggest fear is feeding myslef uncontiously.
How sad how I would think just feed my mouth without thinking.
Well 1 week down and it has to get better by the week right?
TTFN
New WLS Date
Aug 07, 2008
2nd Entry
Aug 01, 2008
I was originally scheduled to have surgery on 7/29/08, but my insurance company was now telling me that it takes 30 days to ok it, so i got my approval yesterday... but i wont believew it till Crystal calls me on Monday!!
So my unofficial or official new surgery date is 8/19, i am so excited, especially when I see all the beautiful people on the before and after pics. People completely change, i just cant weight to be able to look at my whole self in the mirror and not just look at my hair or face...
I purposely would not look at my whole self cause I have been in denial about my body size. Its painful to look at and the huge middle that I am done trying to camouflage under large t-shirts and mumu style dresses.
I just told some of my family members that I will be having bariatric surgery, and i got the typical "why, when you did it before losing weight." and "dont do that, just loose make better choices" "look ate ABC, he did it on weight watchers" I have treid all those... I explained that I am MORBIDLY OBESE! I have lost weight before but I always gain it back and some... but allas I did not get their aproval... but its ok I just wanted a ride back home from the hospital, I love you guys still!!!
My 1st blog
Jun 26, 2008
Hello,
My name is Martha i'm 36 years old divorced mother of 2 girls. I am 254... I am just going to rant... my clothes are tight, i refuse to go into a size 20, my knees are killing me and i already had a meniscus repair in July 2007... my ankles are swollen, and i hurt to walk now. Dont get me wrong i luv being a big girl, but i dont want to be real thin cause i have been big my whole life, the smalles i have been was about 10 years ago when i went down to 188 lbs, on "Herbal Wonder" which contained ephedra... but within a year i went up to 200 lbs and since January 2007 till now i have balloned to my current weight. i have tried everything, including phentermine, walking counturs express, and my job is physical so i dont just sit around... but i have a hard time doing my job now, since we climb squat, kneel etc 8 hours/day. I have my smaller size clothes in bags and cant wait to get back into them...