3 Month Update.

Dec 20, 2010

This surgery truely changed my life in just this past 3 months. I wouldn't change anything about it & I feel great! No back pain when I walk & that's HUGE for me. My back used to get numb from just sweeping my kitchen, but not anymore. I can sweep for days. Haha. Of course, I'm exaggerating...but you get the point. =)

I have my rough days & my good days, but nothing too serious at all. One of the little problems I have is that I cannot eat white bread...AT ALL. I've tried it twice & both times it felt stuck in my chest for a whole day. I have tried whole wheat toast & it did seem to go down better than the white. But I digress, with the bread thing, the less carbs I can handle...the better! Ha. Carbs were my numero uno enemy before surgery. And  I can honestly say that it don't matter if I eat white bread ever again, because I've never felt any better than I do now & I don't wish for it all.

It's so crazy how my taste buds have changed throughout this 3 month process so far. Before surgery, I could have eaten pizza EVERY single day. It was my favorite meal. EVER.  But now when I cook it for my family, I can't even stand to look at it sometimes! It's so crazy! A lot of the things I enjoyed before I don't enjoy anymore. But I guess that in itself is also a good thing! I can say that the choices I made before surgery weren't all that great anyway. Haha. =)

I'm not saying that this is the easiest thing, because it's not...especially emotionally. There are days that I wish I can eat like I used to, especially with the holidays upon us. My family uses food for comfort & celebration, which we do a lot of. It is hard to see the others eat & enjoy themselves so much & still yet, 3 months after, I'll make myself a plate with more food on it than what I can even handle. Just used of it I guess. I waste a lot! Haha. I just keep in mind that I am far too scared to get sick & I remember why I did this in the first place & I will  not be a failure. To the people that say this is the easy way out...I say walk a mile in my shoes...because it's far from it. So many changes, and still changes every single day but I am hitting them head on as they come. It's a plus that my 2 sisters & sister-in-law are always there to talk about things when I'm having a rough day or they are. It definitely helps to know someone else who's been through this. When I say not everyone is the same, believe me...it's true. Especially with this surgery. I try not to ever compare myself with them & what they've been through.  I've noticed the 4 of us are so different from one another in so many ways.

I've also noticed for the past 3 weeks, my hair has been falling out like crazy. I was hoping the day wouldn't come at all, but it has come in full force. My hair is thin enough already. I can't afford to lose more. Some days, it makes me wanna cry even. If anyone is reading this...is there any type of vitamin that I can take for hair loss that will work? If so, I'd greatly appreciate it if you let me know which!  The hair loss is awful.

All in all, over 60 pounds loss so far. Some days I feel like I'm not losing fast enough, but then I sit back & realize...I couldn't have done this without the surgery & 60 is the greatest weight loss I've ever had in my life. As far as I can remember. I can honestly say, I now know that this surgery has saved my life and I am thankful for it every single day. I'm not sure if I am the only one, but somedays, it's all that I think about. I think about my future as a healthy person. What I want to do, experience...everything I couldn't do before that I'll be able to do now. It's a great feeling...it is a blessing!

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