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I come from a family of tall, full-figured women. I haven't been overweight all my life. From the time I can remember at age 14 I weighed in at 180lbs by 12th grade I was in a size 20 about 220lbs. After high school I have unfortunatley managed to gain about 70lbs more. Because I did not include exercise in my daily routines, I fluctuated between 270-290 lbs.
I have told myself that I am happy with who I am. I know I was tricking myself to believe I was happy then, "I HAVE SETTLED" Because I once believe that this is the way God made me and we are all made different. I have always thought I was cute and sexy and nobody could take that away, but behind it all I was sad, insecure and depressed. I started saying I want more out of life I went back to school to better myself and still wasn't happy. I started to feel like I could have all the money in the world and still wouldn't be happy because my image did not portray the real me.
My 6yr. old son would see a diet commercial and write the number down and give it to me, he was trying his mommy. Little does he know that things are not that easy.