11 weeks. Feeling crappy this week but hanging in there!

Dec 23, 2010

well, back to not being able to eat very well....and throwing up again too....I think it would be WISE if I stopped trying to
eat chicken and fish...but I cant really live without them forever!  I have been having 4 protein drinks a day and struggling to get in enough fluids. Christmas is tomorrow and I havent been able to clean this week due to my guts not behaving! :(  today I have no choice.  CLEAN CLEAN I must!

I have a package of thick cut bacon in my oven and the scent is heavy in the air!  I am glad that I can eat bacon now at least.
I am tolerating fat better for the most part. I MUST get my Dr to help me find a better way to manage my reflux I believe its causing my illness and puking.  Tomorrow I will be making egg McMuffins for my family..it's a Christmas tradition.  This will be our families last year in this house.... it's sort fo bitter sweet. It's been a lot fo good years that we have been having our holidays here.  We are losing the house and have to be out by June so we KNOW this is the last year.  The weird thing is not knowing where I will be living by this time next year!  I do try to look at it in a positive light though. I know that many new and wonderful things will change for me in 2011.  I made all of my 2010 goals. My 2011 goals are just as huge and also doable. Goals, new/good job, my own place to live with my kids, making my divorce legal (have to have new job with benefits), LOTS of exercise and getting in shape, running my first 5k in May, and praying for a way to take a trip to Denmark OR have him able to come here.  I want to spend next Christmas with my man so badly.  I dont know if I could deal with 3 in a row like this....ugh.  too much distance!  its good that he and I are able to see the positive aspects and dwell on them most often.

well,  my weight loss has sort of stopped again for 5 days but I cant complain too much I lost about 12ish pounds the week before.  I wish it would keep going!  I AM still shrinking though as my brand new size 18's are already getting baggy in the butt and...well everywhere except the waist.

SPEAKING of my huge waist... I am on a mission to fix this.  I am beginning daily crunches as SUPPOSEDLY this is the easiest place to lose weight from.... ;)

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