Finally approved

Oct 11, 2015

So I have my date approved. For anyone who was curious about NCBCBS I got mine approved in 4 days. Talk about screaming to GOD a wonderful thank you. Now the excitment is gone and I'm scared. I cant have surgery and expect the urgeries will be gone forever. Why do I have to have this. I try and try and now i have to ruin my body for this. Dont get me wrong I want to live on and be healthy but when do you finally say enough is enough. When your knee hurt, scale says 436, cant fit into anything or when you finally look in the mirror. I looked in the mirror at myself and didnt say dag I'm fat but OMG look at me. Is this how people see me? I'm finaaly able to match the number on the scale with the mirror. I'm doing this for me.

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