Bethany B.

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Im almost 2 months out...and all i can say is....ITS CRAZY...

nothing really ever prepares you for the real thing.
nothing.........
~Everyone...I mean EVERYONE notices but me....
well i notice in some of the "old" t-shirts
~I wish it would just disappear
but i know work is involeved and i dont mind
~I CANT WAIT
to be what my heart is...a happy healthy girl
~Its a whole diffrent life style
Ive picked up on the good things

Down 43 pounds in not even two months...

                                

DRUGS THAT CAN DAMAGE THE POUCH:
Advil
Aleve
Amigesic
Anacin
Anaprox
Ansald
Anthra-G
Arthropan
Ascriptin
Aspirin
Asproject
Azolid
Bextra
Bufferin
Butazolidin
Celebrex
Clinorial
Darvon compounds
Disalcid
Dolobid
Erythromycin
Equagesic
Feldene
Fiorinal
Ibuprofin
Indocin
Ketoprofen
Lodine
Meclomen
Midol
Motrin
Nalfon
Naprosyn
Nayer
Orudis
Oruval
Pamprin-IB
Percodan
Ponstel
Rexolate
Tandearil
Tetracycline
Tolecin
Uracel
Vioxx (off market...not safe for anyone)
Voltaren
ALL "NSAIDS" (*see below for the Cox 2 Inhibitors)

DRUGS THAT ARE CONSIDERED SAFE:
Bendaryl
Tylenol
Dimetap
Robitussin
Safetussin
Sudafed
Triaminics (All)
Tylenol (cold products)
Tylenol Ex Strength
Gas-X
Phazyme
Imodium Ad
Colace
Dulcolax-Suppositories
Fleet Enema
Glycerin-Suppositories
Milk of Magnesia
Peri-Colace

Almost to 1 Month and i cant even believe it....
as of my last appointment which was on the 14th of June i was down 31lbs..It made my face light up so bright...I couldnt stop smiling...I havnt weighted myself all the time at home because I'm not sure what the diffrence is from the office and my house...I have another appointment in 2 weeks or so so i will figure it all out than..for now i will lose and be happy when i find out how much at the doctors..

The Day that i have been waiting for is finally here, and its really not that far...WEDNESDAY!!!!! June 6th 2007 i will be having Roux-n-Y and I cant WAIT!!!!! YEAHHHH Its here and my new life will begin.....I have my graduation party Tomorrow and Graduate Sunday and Go UNDER THE KNIFE on WEDNESDAY!!!!

I never put into reality what i would feel like when this day came to me....All I know is that tears of joy ran down my face....and now tomorrow that real thing is put into place...I drive an hour to see the surgeon, get blood work done and just like that the day that will change my life forever will be scheduled....Its so crazy to say but I have the nervous/excited stomach right now...I get to graduate from high school....The 12 years I spent learning everything I need to know before I go to college and then tomorrow adds every little excitement to me....all I think about its WOW!!! and whats it going to be like...I've done everything + and everything has worked out so good for me....Thanks for all the support everyone has given me and tomorrow there will be a post on the DATE!!!! AH!!!!!!!

So i wait....Wait for them to say yes...I had my last appointment on Wednesday and they sent the papers in yesterday and now i wait until Monday to CALL...and Call and call until they budge...I cant wait...

   So after my last appointment we went vitamen shopping and protein drink shopping...i got new drinks to try and all the vitamens that i will need...i have started to take them to get use to it and ive been doing very well...Well with the exception of the Liquid Vitamens...Me and him didnt get along...I drank down a capful like the instructions said and well lets just say that it lasted in my stomach for about 15 minutes and then i vometed it all up...GROSS....I guess its back to yucky chewables...

Well I can now say that im of legal age to make my own choices in life...yet im scared to do so...

        Well a little update on everything going on....
monday 2-12-07....i had my Psych eval testing done about a mont ago and finally got into see the pysch that the clinic has...(i have my own feelings about him) and he said everything i knew he was going to say..."this isnt a game its life changing" NOOOO!!! REALLY!!! I would have never guessed that my life will never..NEVER be the same...do people not think that I i look into this??? Why would I go into something blind sighted??? I really dont like him and am/was seeing a diffrent psychcologist in my city...and he actully use to see the patients form the hospital im going to before they got surgery...so i think i picked the right guy...

Wednesday i go back to see the trainer and dietician that i see every month...great time...Its so fun....but once again i need it to get this done so im going to put on a smiling face and write everything i eat down and walk 2 times a week to make them happy and the insurance company happy too....

well all for now and ill keep you all updated on new information...

So I had my first appointment last week on the 13th. It was a great experience and was nothing that I really expected at all. The people there were so respectful and helped with anything that we needed. It openend my moms eyes more and helped both me and her realize so much more. It was a very long day but very helpful. I was even more pleased that due to the fact that as we know of now that my insurance company requires a 6 month diet. The Nurse practioner told me that I was already two months done! That truely put a smile on my face and in my mind. I look at new things every day to make sure that I know its never going to be the same. I understand and I know that my mom knows that im mature enough to make this huge descison in my life. I have my next appointments all set up for next month and I also have to do a pysch eval. Well thats all for now , any advise is good.

Why do you not see whats right for me?
                   You stand there and tell me that everythings wrong
Giving up is all I hear you say......
                   Are you in my body?
Are you looked at everyday?
                   Do you feel like you are ugly and no one wants you?
Can you answer these questions that i type?
                    Why do youu pick me?
I'm seventeen and can't even say I'm healthy....
                    I'm ashamed of where I am...Are you ashamed of me?
Than why can you stand there and say this to me?
                    Why is it my day to be put down on?
Why can't I just be like every other seventeen year old I know?
                     WHY???

'Tis the season'...The dreadful season where the whole time you eat like anyone else you feel like everyone is watching just you...When you sit at the tabel and notice the looks from the grandma who even though not skinny herself looks as though you are a stuffing your face when really you have less on your plate then her. She runs around the house trying to fix anything and everything when everything is already done. The relish platter sits on the table and everyone pick at it...but when you walk by she finds the time to take a break and watch you and only you...You can't wait to be thin & healthy and shove it in her face that even though every christmas she insits to by me medium and larges that you havent fit in since you was 5, she knows deep down it hurts me so much but smiles her fake as smile on how she forgot and just didnt know that you didnt wear that size anymore....Oh the dreadful but delightful season that is hard to paint a smile on when deep down it hurts....