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Today I Felt Like Me
Mar 19, 2012
Today was amazing! I finally am starting to feel good again...I’ve been in the worst shlump i have ever been into and could not get out of it. This surgery honestly is saving my life.
Today i went to the barn i ride at and rode a mare that i broke and worked with her a little thou scares me a tad because she is very green and all i could think of when i was riding was please don’t dump me i need this surgery. After my ride i cooled her out by us walking 1 mile around the race track. Wow i would have never done that before i would ride around too cool out then go in untack and maybe do some showmanship and kick the kid back out. I fee because i am trying to do more of the right things that I’m more aware of the bad choices i used to make.
Eating right and drinking the damn water i showed up and someone asked me if i lost weight. Wow does that ever feel nice, i think I’m down 8 now but it finally feels like the hard work is making a difference this time...i still make the wrong choices sometimes and really feel bad for doing so.
I’m finally feeling like the old me that enjoyed the things i did and smiled the entire time through. I enjoyed it and am ready to see that me all the time again!
The hardest thing right now is my feet and knees. b/c being so heavy they sure do hurt after the day of walking, riding and working sigh one more hurdle to overcome.
