June was a rollercoaster ride for me, but I survived.

Jul 05, 2010

June 5^th I reached one of my milestones which is 20 pounds lost.  I was so excited.  Then I maintained that for about 3 days and the scale started going up since it was that “time of the month.”  I know my weight fluctuates during that time of the month but still I got very discouraged.  By the end of the week I went on a 3 day binge and the roller coaster ride begins. 

After a reflection back I realized I really sabotaged myself and I have definitely learned from this experience.  I realize I could have been gaining weight from my monthly visitor and started weight training about 4 weeks prior so I could have possibly started building muscle also.  Who knows? All I know is, I knew from past experience to stop weighing myself daily when my period comes on.  I did not do this; instead I kept on weighing and seeing the scale go up for no reason.  I am good when I know why the scale is moving up. 

From the past I know if I stay on track when my period is off and I get on scale I have lost weight most times if I was on track.  This time the scale got the better of me and I started grazing and finally did a 3 day binge and when I went to weigh I was up 12 pounds!  Now I was truly upset, but I stopped beating myself up after one day of depression.  Took one step and one day at a time and kept on exercising and tracking my food.  I am back to weighing daily and next time my visitor comes I will immediately stop weighing.  Even if it not that “time of the month” and I can’t explain a weight gain, I am going to step away from the scale for a few days.  It is a terrible thing to know you are eating fine and you are gaining weight—but it happens and it has happened to me before. I am not sure why I let it get to me this time, but usually I do not. 

I will be better prepared next time because I don’t want to have another 12 pound gain from a grazing/binge episode any time soon. I ended the month with only a 3 pound weight gain, so I was able to lose back 9 of the 12 pounds gained in June on my roller coaster ride.  No more roller coasters fro me for a while. 

My goal for July is no more YO-YOing.  I want to be more consistent with eating.  I want a maintain or loss.  I want to lose at least 8 pounds just because I am still a size where this is a realistic and reasonable goal.  I want to continue with my exercising also which I can't complain about at all.  I am back up to exercising almost every day and doing weight training and avg 50 min or more of cardio exercises.  What are your goals for the month of July, if you want to share. 

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