Ohhhh - the nerves have started!

Dec 05, 2010

Maybe if I just Blog .....?

God - I hate the word. How could I ever apply it to myself? Blogger? Ewwww ...

Well I have to do something to get it out, or I will go nuts. Hey maybe that's why I am overweight now! Too much stuff in my head! It couldn't have had anything to do with my peanut butter addiction, or my penchant for eating dinner at 9pm ... NAH. So I have to get it out somehow - Let's try Blogging! (Nope the word still makes me churn - I think I will have to work on that!)

So I found out last week that 'lo and behold I got approved for VSG on my first appeal thru BCBS of CA. Wow! That was *hoped for* but not entirely expected. The wonderful man that process my appeal said that the letter I sent was one of the top 2 appeal letter he had ever read, and that my letter did all to win my appeal - not the letter my PCP wrote on my behalf. Well, I don't care - a HUGE thanks to Dr. W anyway for the letter!

So ... now what ....

Well, I am sh*t scared frankly, but then I think that's a good thing all in all. I have had 41 years of learning how to love this body, and now I am changing it - albeit for the better. I also think that means that I am taking it seriously, which I should! I think for me the biggest thing is just the fear of the unknown. Unknown = how do I deal with food, how do I eat v. not eat, how do I handle taking the time off work (kinda worried about that really - I had to take 2 weeks off for because I dislocated my knee and now I will be back at work for exactly 1 day before I need to take another 2 weeks off? Well if it's meant to be - Its meant to be!), worried about how I will handle the whole diet dilemma for the first few months - including going back to work and starting school again in Jan! YIKES! 

I do this to myself tho. I tend to sit still and contemplate for a long time and then burst out with a bunch of changes all at once. So I am getting VSG and starting back to school to get my RN in a month \o/!! I am actually VERY excited about all of it - in theory ... It's the reality of it that scares me to death. Well - only one way to do it ... DO IT!

I am excited. I am scared. I am nervous. And I am going to be just fine =)

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