Anita B.

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Well I havent been to the site in such a long time. Really dont even know where to begin. I was doing great after my surgery. I lost a total of 250 lbs. I thought it couldnt be different. I have been heavy my whole life, and for once i was able to go into a regular store and pick up clothes off the rack and have them fit me. Was fine until I fell down a ravine at work and hurt my back. With each batch of steroids the drs gave me, i gained an average of 10-20 lbs. After a year of gaining, I finally leveled off. I though, ok, once i get active again, then the weight should just melt away. I mean I am still only able to eat small portions of food, so my body would have to go back to the way it was.  I was apparently wrong. Things have only gone from bad to worse for me. Over the past 8 month, i havent gained any weight, and then suddenly all of my teeth started breaking off at the gumline. the roots and everything stayed in my mouth, but now i only have 2 teeth left in the whole bottom of my mouth. I take good care of myself, brush and floss, so i really didnt understand what to do. even my physician is baffled. I am still on so many medications for my back and they do cause me to have dry mouth all the time, so i am not really sure if that plays a part or not. Also, over the past 4 months, i am severely anemic. i have undergone a iron infusion, am on iron suppliments, but my iron level still doesnt go up. now, my b-12 level and my potasium level has fallen. im starting to lose weight, but not for the right reasons or right way. just so frustrated and depressed all the time. I mean I was so proud of myself for having gotten as small as i was, and now here i am almost half way back to where i began, and now all my teeth are missing, so i dont even like to smile or anything anymore. My husband is incredible, and loves me and stands by me no matter what happens. he sees my frustration but doesnt know how to help. i am starting to feel helpless. finances are tough right now, and i dont have any health care insurance, so that limits the help that i can get.  just dont know anymore. if asked would i do the surgery again....in a heartbeat i would say yes. i dont think its for the vanity reason, but when i was smaller i was so much more active and a part of my childrens life. i try hard to remain hopeful and active, but with each passing day, my body fails me more and more. just dont know what to do.