jena426

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I am almost 3 months post op on my birthday 7/27. I hope I am doing good on this new form of living. I do miss eating my comfort foods but that's just too bad right? This week it has been a struggle for me because I fell victim to my temptations of eating chips. I munched on 1 bag for 3 days then I realized what I was doing. How could I allow myself to do this? Boredom is the answer. I used to do this ALL the time before the procedure and sure enough it's been slow for me here at work this week and BAM i fell victim. I allowed myself to cheat; when I realized what I had done and the icky feeling in my pouch; I was very disappointed in myself.

I have to be stronger than this. I just have to. I don't want to go back to the days of feeling tired and well the laziness hasn't gone away but the tiredness has and that is great. Anyways, I don't want to go back to those days of watching my nieces and nephews outside playing and saying come on Nanny play volleyball with us. I just didn't have the strength to be running back and forth after the ball. I have lost 45lbs that I know of so far and it has made the biggest difference but I need a lot more to go. So, I am going to say HELL NO to the devil (CHIPS) and keep on moving forward. I had a minor set back but I WOKE up from carb hypnosis and I am gonna do me better by saying no.

Well it only took a week for me to come home but i am finally here. My surgery went well, textbook like they say. My white blood cell count was elevated therefore making me stay in the hospital for 2 more days. I also had a reaction to morphine so be on the look out for that. I am a little sore. I can't get comfortable in my home either because i am afraid to mess anything up. My fiance bought some food that smells good but i don't get that craving. Well i just wanted to share what i am going through on my first day back from hospital.